Yami

I overthink anime.

[strawhatyami]

Une vie à t’aimer

The entire song is a masterpiece but let's talk about this part:

The first time, love watches and waits. the second time, love stays and waits. one of them is the love that keeps vigil. the other is the love that simply refuses to leave.

Two pulses that used to be in rhythm, now out of sync, because grief put them on different clocks. and the off-beat pulse isn't just Aline and Renoir out of sync with each other, it's both of them out of sync with verso, whose heart isn't beating at all anymore.

Thhey can't find each other's rhythm, and the rhythm they're both straining to hear is one that stopped.

Verso's laugh is still in the sparkle. his smile is still in the color. he isn't gone from the world, he's diffused into all of it, which is so much worse, because it means there's nowhere you can stand and not be reminded.

The rest of the song is grief shouting. this part is grief waiting. patient, hopeless, still holding a hand out and it gets me every.single.time

[strawhatyami]

My therapist kept asking what i think about when i'm sad. like if we find the reason i'll be free. and we did find them. we found my traumas, i named them, said them out loud and all that and i could feel him waiting for me to feel lighter.

I didn't. because i already knew all of it. i'd carried it for years. saying it out loud didn't set anything down since i had nothing left to let go of.

It just felt like i handed him the facts and the facts just sat there

I thought that meant i was doing therapy wrong somehow

But the thing is, nobody tells you that naming the thing and healing the thing are two different things. you can understand exactly what broke you and still wake up flat.

If you found your reason and still feel nothing moved, you didn't fail. sometimes the sadness isn't a thought you can catch. sometimes you made peace with the reason ages ago and it just kept running on its own anyway.

I just needed someone who feels this way to know they're not broken for not feeling better on cue. And that it does get better eventually.

[citrinekay]

I love getting comments on really old fics. It's like a little tap on the shoulder that says, "hey the art you create is going to last forever even if you don't think it matters anymore"

[pinkfoolery]

Sibling doomed from the start

[whyenn-reader]

''when did we all become so performative'' idk man when the threat of being recorded at any time and posted for milions to see without your knowledge became normalised.

[april]

ⓘ Tip If you feel unfulfilled by how you spent your time today, you can stay up late to try to combat the sense of dissatisfaction. This will ensure that you feel even worse tomorrow.

[deeversuswords]

[importantcatpics]

[smol-ackerman]

HAPPY OCTOBER 3RD!!

鋼の錬金術師 BROTHERHOOD: Ep. 11

MEAN GIRLS (2004)

[officialspec]

say it with him folks!

[dailyralsei]

good day all

[ciderjacks]

this scene

[the-bar-sinister]

So, the other day, when I was discussing AO3's policy on solicitation, a tumblr user came at me saying that AO3's "no monetization/solicitation" rules were "bullshit" because nexus mods allows fan created mods to get paid.

Look at me.

Look at me right now.

AO3 protects you.

AO3 protects you and your works. 

It protects your works from copyright strikes and DCMA takedowns.

It protects your work from advertisers.

It protects your work from overzealous legal challenges.

It protects your right to post adult content.

AO3 is non-profit and AO3 will never try to use you or your work to make a profit for themselves and AO3 will go to bat for you if someone tries to legally challenge you or your works.

Please respect AO3 and its mission.

[xshinina]

Has this been done yet?

[vio-marks]

DELTARUNE

IS

WAITING

[7cipher]

HE SAID IT!! HE SAID IT!!

[strawhatyami]

Why Shikamaru’s Breakdown Is Low-key Naruto’s Best-Directed Scene

Okay so I’ve recently started watching Naruto and there's this one moment that made me inexplicably emotional and I wanna rant about it for a bit.

Shikamaru’s shogi game with his dad after Asuma’s death

First of all the sound design.. crickets, the candle, the sharp clack of shogi pieces.. it all creates an oppressive silence, emphasizing the tension.

Shikaku doesn’t address Shikamaru’s grief directly. Instead, he critiques his shogi play: "You’re playing forcefully… You can’t win like this." This isn’t just about the game, It’s about Shikamaru’s mindset. His anger is clouding his strategy, making him reckless. When Shikaku asks about the Akatsuki : “They’re strong… What will you do?" he’s forcing Shikamaru to confront his helplessness. Shikamaru’s stays silent. He knows he’s outmatched, but admitting it would mean accepting Asuma’s death as irreversible.

Shikaku’s calculated “cruelty” when he says "but Asuma died", is the trigger. He wants Shikamaru to snap. The moment the words land, Shikamaru smashes the shogi board, the candle extinguishes and the color palette shifts to cold blues. Shikamaru’s outburst “I’m just a useless coward” reveals his true pain: guilt over surviving…shame over his perceived weakness.

BUT THEN? Shikaku doesn’t console him. He lets Shikamaru rage, then says: "Just let it out." And honestly? The close-up of Shikamaru’s eyes? The shock crumbling into raw sorrow?? is GUT-WRENCHING. And so human and so so beautifully animated. But also, one of the most striking details in this scene is the delayed ost. For almost the entire sequence, the only sounds are the clack of shogi pieces and crickets, but the moment Shikaku says: "Just let it out," the music finally swells. It starts after Shikamaru’s physical outburst but before his tears: the real collapse isn’t the anger, but the sorrow beneath it.

And finally when Shikaku leaves the room, he doesn’t linger to coddle his son; he trusts Shikamaru to grieve fully. His final line, "I’ll pick up your pieces” as we hear Shikamaru absolutely wailing in the background is just the cherry on top. Shikaku doesn’t say "I’ll fix you" he says "I’ll pick up your pieces" implying Shikamaru must still reassemble himself. Shikaku acknowledges Shikamaru’s pain without sugarcoating it, offering not a solution, but partnership in the aftermath.