all i want is sleep

Semi-Selective Indie RP Blog ~Canon-divergent Doppo Kannonzaka from Hypnosis Microphone~ sideblog to @hollowghouluta, Multi-fandom accepting.

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New Versus Page!

As the title suggests I added a Heaven or Hell verse that could be viewed here.

Basically, it is Doppo either going off the rails or deciding to change his life for the better.

Also note that anything for either verse will be under a Keep Reading because I want to separate that from the blog where he's more canon.

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"Y-Yes, Yamada-kun. I want to throw Hifumi-kun a birthday party at the house, but I don't have the time to pick any of the things I need for it or even decorate. Would you be able to help me with that?"

@reysonsmanymuses

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Doppo couldn't help but sigh at his luck today. There was an order that needed to be delivered to a hospital across town, and for some reason that job got dumped on him. E.L Medical usually had dedicated drivers that would handle this sort of arrangement, but today they were shorthanded.

Not that Doppo would have refused the job anyway, as his work contract did indeed state '-- and any other duties as needed.' Sometimes he would go over his copy of the contract just to see what he would be able to get away with, not that he would ever try it.

But here he was in the company car with several of their medical products in the trunk for the delivery. It was not long before he pulled up to the back of the hospital so he would be out of the way of any of the comings and goings. He took his phone out of his slacks pocket to see if he received any calls or messages, and there was one.

Apparently, the main office wanted him to come inside of the building so they can meet him before they inspect and sign for the products.

Sighing, he opened the driver's side door, and got out. Locking the door behind him, he meandered his way to the front, as he would have to be checked in most likely before he could be seen.

@musesofmagnificence

[rpmemes-galore]

Send me   “ mirror mirror “   to get a glimpse of my muse after they’ve turned to the dark side… 

[rp-meme-central]

Send “undercovers” for a starter where my muse refuses to get out of bed.

send “bed bugged” for your muse to be the one who refuses to get out of bed.

[rpmemes-galore]

My muse has been sick for days but has been trying to hide it… send me  ‘ why didn’t you tell me? ‘  for my muse’s reaction to yours finding out and confronting them

[musesofmagnificence]

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Something about the care Reiji was taking and the amount of time he devoted to speaking his mind gave Doppo the sense that this conversation held an element of importance to him. How much, Doppo wouldn’t pry into, but it just felt… heartfelt, the advise he was giving.

And Reiji of course had wonderful points.

“That’s very insightful of you, Reiji-san. Being able to see the whole picture is important too.”

And Doppo could apply this to so many aspects of his life. What came to mind first was Jakurai-sensei. The man practically molded his life around helping others, including Doppo himself. But he was also part of a team. Though he was talented enough to do so, you cannot have a team with just one person. And that meant that Doppo and Hifumi were responsible for helping to both hold him up too and relying on him when they needed it.

Taking the food with a bow of thanks, he continued to listen to the helpful words Reiji imparted upon him.

“This has certainly given me food for thought.” a small laugh at himself mostly as he reflected on his word choice. “And this food that smells so good too.”

Reiji laughed as well at the play on words– a short, but hearty laugh– and gave Doppo a bright, winning grin in reply.

“I might be a bit nosy, but I’m glad to be able to strike a chord with you, Doppo-kun. If you get the chance, it’d be great if you could stop by again sometime; I’m only able to help out around here when I’ve got a good bit of time off from projects, but Mama always appreciates repeat customers– ‘Specially when they’ve got great taste.”

And he was glad; It always felt good to brighten somebody’s day or give them some good advice, sure…but it wasn’t lost on him what Doppo had said earlier, about not being the recognizable one. With all these thoughts of Aine swimming in his head today…

…It just felt like a relief to make sure that somebody was seen. That he’d noticed somebody when they might have needed it.

“Oh, for the record? You’re probably more noticeable than you realize. At least, now that you’re doing something like participating in the DRB… In my experience, a person is their most noticeable when they’re doing something they enjoy. Show business isn’t for everybody, but I like to think that that’s the thing that draws us to our favorite actors, idols, things like that.”

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"No, not at all! I'm glad you took the time to talk to me. Especially what you said. It means a lot to me." he replied in earnest having raised his hands and waved them in a gesture of 'it's okay.'

"And I'd be happy to stop by any time I can. Work usually keeps me from almost everything, but when I do have time I'll be sure to pay this place a visit." he added.

Whether Reiji was there or not, the food in his hand smelled amazing. If he was lucky enough to have Reiji there, then he felt like he could have a lovely conversation once again.

And he couldn't help think that what he was looking at was a true professional. Whether it was how he truly felt or not, his smile was contagious, his words were kind as well as thoughtful and he had a presence about him.

Doppo really could look up to a person like this.

"I think you have a point there. When I'm in the zone, I put my heart into what I do. And even if people don't recognize me, I still put everything I had into it... Even if I doubt myself."

[musesofmagnificence]

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Oh, that was silly of him. Assuming Reiji knew who he was talking about had completely slipped his mind. His brows knit as he apologized once more.

“Y-yes, my teammate and best friend, Hifumi.” he confirmed with a nod.

His only friend, really. But that didn’t need to be brought up.

But Reiji was bringing up more things for him to think about. Doppo agreed he was right. They may not live together forever. Hifumi may decide to leave for whatever reason, and Doppo would need to be able to stand on his own someday.

He also had a feeling that Jakurai-sensei would be proud of him for this line of thought.

“Um– Thank you for your advise, Reiji-san. I never really thought about things that way, but I think you’re right. I need to keep in mind that Hifumi has his own life and I should work on being able to stand on my own.”

“Yeah, I guess that’s a good way to look at it…”

“…But, in that same vein, try not to put too much stock into that.” He could tell by the way Doppo spoke that having his own strength was probably important to him– an admirable trait, of course– but he couldn’t help wanting to advise the man before him with the words that always rang in his head when memories of Aine flooded back to him like this. “Being able to stand on your own is important, because it shows a good work ethic, and a respect for those around you…but, sometimes, people will overcorrect, and they’ll shoulder burdens that their loved ones will become blind to as a result.”

Hearing Doppo’s order come up, Reiji quickly rushed to grab it and brought it back with care.

“There’s no shame in letting a friend help you when the stress gets to be too much, is what I mean. So, while everybody should work to do things with their own strength, I say to also take into account that you can have your own strength and allow yourself to lean on a friend before things get to be too overwhelming. After all, I imagine that you’d do the same for your friend, right? Allow him to lean on you when he needs it, knowing that that doesn’t reflect on his strength as a person.”

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Something about the care Reiji was taking and the amount of time he devoted to speaking his mind gave Doppo the sense that this conversation held an element of importance to him. How much, Doppo wouldn't pry into, but it just felt... heartfelt, the advise he was giving.

And Reiji of course had wonderful points.

"That's very insightful of you, Reiji-san. Being able to see the whole picture is important too."

And Doppo could apply this to so many aspects of his life. What came to mind first was Jakurai-sensei. The man practically molded his life around helping others, including Doppo himself. But he was also part of a team. Though he was talented enough to do so, you cannot have a team with just one person. And that meant that Doppo and Hifumi were responsible for helping to both hold him up too and relying on him when they needed it.

Taking the food with a bow of thanks, he continued to listen to the helpful words Reiji imparted upon him.

"This has certainly given me food for thought." a small laugh at himself mostly as he reflected on his word choice. "And this food that smells so good too."

[musesofmagnificence]

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Truly, it was a heartwarming conversation– a wonderful solace from his daily hells. Even down to seeing someone smile so brightly could do so much for another person. And Reiji’s was doing just that.

His words did promote self-reflection on Doppo’s part as there became an increasing number of things he wanted to do when he had the time. He believed in what Reiji was saying, and it would be nice to have a meal like this whenever you wanted and not have to rely on someone else to make it for you.

“That’s a good way to look at it.” Doppo nodded, his usual uptight posturing beginning to droop.

“Usually Hifumi is the one that cooks for us, and I’m so glad he does. Maybe I should try asking him for some recipes too. I’d never want to be without them if I could help it.” he added thoughtfully.

He never usually had time to think about not having access to Hifumi’s cooking, so this conversation could be the start of something good… Or maybe Hifumi just wouldn’t stop teasing him about it.

Recognizing the name, Reiji casually asked in confirmation, though he was confident he had the answer correct, “Hifumi Izanami, right? One of your team mates.” He smiled at the mention, as close friendships always warmed his heart.

“Sounds like it’s true what they say– The two of you being thick as thieves, I mean. If it means that much to you, then I say go for it.”

If he were being honest, the thought of spending time with somebody like that reminded him of Aine… And, although that in itself still caused a pang in his heart, he allowed that feeling to push him forward in his advice (unsolicited as it may have been);

“Not only would sharing skills like that be beneficial to you in a practical sense, but I think things like that are always a wonderful option to spend time with your beloved friends. You can never spend too much time with the people you care about, y’know?”

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Oh, that was silly of him. Assuming Reiji knew who he was talking about had completely slipped his mind. His brows knit as he apologized once more.

"Y-yes, my teammate and best friend, Hifumi." he confirmed with a nod.

His only friend, really. But that didn't need to be brought up.

But Reiji was bringing up more things for him to think about. Doppo agreed he was right. They may not live together forever. Hifumi may decide to leave for whatever reason, and Doppo would need to be able to stand on his own someday.

He also had a feeling that Jakurai-sensei would be proud of him for this line of thought.

"Um-- Thank you for your advise, Reiji-san. I never really thought about things that way, but I think you're right. I need to keep in mind that Hifumi has his own life and I should work on being able to stand on my own."

[rpmemegraveyard]

Send “😣” to find my muse stressing out about something.

Or send “😣 + reverse” for the opposite!

[musesofmagnificence]

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Oh! This was really becoming a treat of an encounter!

A small smile lit the MC’s face. Not only was he able to meet a famous idol, but to learn that another was a fan. It brought a jovial feeling to his chest, light and warm.

“That would be exciting to meet him as well. I hope to see him soon.” he nodded.

And with the promise of home cooking, aka his favorite luxury when he had the time, his eyes lit up with excitement.

“That sounds really good! Home cooking is the best.” he said with a wider smile. “I’d love to be able to have it all the time if I could.”

“It really is, isn’t it?!” It was always a joy to see somebody that appreciated a home-cooked meal. “Between you and me, the only reason I asked my mom to teach me all her recipes growing up was so that I could always have that.”

“I mean, obviously instant ramen and frozen meals will do in a pinch, but none of that really helped being homesick back when I was preparing to debut at Saotome Academy. If I couldn’t be home with her cooking, I figured ‘Why not bring her cooking to me?’ Best decision I ever made– Even Ranmaru can’t resist!”

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Truly, it was a heartwarming conversation-- a wonderful solace from his daily hells. Even down to seeing someone smile so brightly could do so much for another person. And Reiji's was doing just that.

His words did promote self-reflection on Doppo's part as there became an increasing number of things he wanted to do when he had the time. He believed in what Reiji was saying, and it would be nice to have a meal like this whenever you wanted and not have to rely on someone else to make it for you.

"That's a good way to look at it." Doppo nodded, his usual uptight posturing beginning to droop.

"Usually Hifumi is the one that cooks for us, and I'm so glad he does. Maybe I should try asking him for some recipes too. I'd never want to be without them if I could help it." he added thoughtfully.

He never usually had time to think about not having access to Hifumi's cooking, so this conversation could be the start of something good... Or maybe Hifumi just wouldn't stop teasing him about it.

[musesofmagnificence]

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“N-No, that’s okay,” he stuttered. “Most people don’t know me by name anyways, so it was really surprising to me that you did.”

And the MC had to remember that at this point he was representing his group so he had to be brave. He didn’t want to make Jakurai or Hifumi look bad after all.

“Well, you can tell him that if he wanted to meet us anytime he’s in Shinjuku we’d be happy to.” he offered sincerely. “What’s his name?”

“Oh, that would be Otoya Ittoki. Like, from STARISH. And, I think that would make him very happy~” As much as he chuckled at the thought of Otoya’s delight at getting to meet a group that he put on equal grounds as his favorite sports teams, he was sincere. He could easily picture the look of excitement on the sunny redhead’s face.

“So, you’ve never gotten to come here before, eh? Well, I may not get to help out around the shop much these days, but I can personally attest that you’re in for a real treat! Especially if you like home-cooking; It’s kinda my mom’s passion.”

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Oh! This was really becoming a treat of an encounter!

A small smile lit the MC's face. Not only was he able to meet a famous idol, but to learn that another was a fan. It brought a jovial feeling to his chest, light and warm.

"That would be exciting to meet him as well. I hope to see him soon." he nodded.

And with the promise of home cooking, aka his favorite luxury when he had the time, his eyes lit up with excitement.

"That sounds really good! Home cooking is the best." he said with a wider smile. "I'd love to be able to have it all the time if I could."

[musesofmagnificence]

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Doppo couldn’t stop the surprise from reflecting plainly on his features. His mouth hung open and his brows rose high.

No one ever recognized him.

Even when his face had been on the news when his team had taken home the win in one of the first competition people still couldn’t remember his name. But this idol from QUARTET NIGHT did. When some of the shock wore off he closed his mouth and adjusted his tie as it was one of his nervous habits.

“Y-Yeah, MC DOPPO at your service.” he straightened up as he did the clawed hand sign for Matenro with one hand.

God, that was lame, Doppo. he chastised himself internally.

“It’s nice to meet you in person, Kotobuki-san.” he bowed politely.

Reiji gave another good-natured laugh and politely bowed back. “It’s pretty cool to meet you too.”

“To be honest…” he began as he made sure that Doppo’s order made it back to the kitchen, “I didn’t much keep up with the DRB at first. But, one of my kouhais is really invested; He grew up in Tokyo, so he’s been the most invested since the territory battles became such a spectacle. He’ll be pretty stoked to hear that I met you.”

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Doppo knew the feeling. If he told Hifumi that he had met with one of the idols that he liked to watch, he would blow up. In a good way, of course. Probably wouldn't leave him alone about it for weeks.

"N-No, that's okay," he stuttered. "Most people don't know me by name anyways, so it was really surprising to me that you did."

And the MC had to remember that at this point he was representing his group so he had to be brave. He didn't want to make Jakurai or Hifumi look bad after all.

"Well, you can tell him that if he wanted to meet us anytime he's in Shinjuku we'd be happy to." he offered sincerely. "What's his name?"

[musesofmagnificence]

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From how far back he was it was a little difficult to see who was speaking to him, so he came up to the counter to see someone in a headscarf that looked like one of the chefs in charge. Sure enough, his luck was always like this.

He had never been here before, so he thought he would try to find out what was good.

“Um… It’s my first time here. I had heard your fried chicken bentos are really good, could I get one of those please?” he ordered.

Really getting a look at the person his eyes went wide for a moment. Did he really run into him? One of the idols from QUARTET NIGHT?

Oh jeez, it’s really rude to stare like that, Doppo. he thought to himself before bowing and adding a verbal apology.

At the sudden bow and apology, Reiji quickly defaulted to his usual response of waving off the awkwardness with a good-natured laugh.

“No need to worry! I’m used to that sort of thing.” As he jotted down the order, still trying to mentally place why this man looked so familiar, he kept the conversation going. “And yeah, the fried chicken’s my personal favorite; But, maybe I’m a little biased since I grew up eating it.”

The payment was exchanged as Reiji’s brain itched, trying to remember where he’d seen the face of a random salaryman like this, before his fingers snapped in recognition.

“Ah! Wait a second!” He took a better look and it hit him, finally. “Now I know where I’ve seen your face before– You’re one of those Matenro guys… Doppo Kannonzaka, right? Did I get that right?”

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Doppo couldn't stop the surprise from reflecting plainly on his features. His mouth hung open and his brows rose high.

No one ever recognized him.

Even when his face had been on the news when his team had taken home the win in one of the first competition people still couldn't remember his name. But this idol from QUARTET NIGHT did. When some of the shock wore off he closed his mouth and adjusted his tie as it was one of his nervous habits.

"Y-Yeah, MC DOPPO at your service." he straightened up as he did the clawed hand sign for Matenro with one hand.

God, that was lame, Doppo. he chastised himself internally.

"It's nice to meet you in person, Kotobuki-san." he bowed politely.

[musesofmagnificence]

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It was Doppo’s lunch hour and for the first time in a while he was actually allowed time to take it. There must have been a kind God who had taken mercy on him somewhere, not that he really had a specific faith per say.

He had heard around the office of this place that had not only good bentos, but also some of the best fried chicken anywhere in the city. Thinking about it for half a moment he decided he would pay this place a visit.

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After making it to Kotobuki Bento the scent of food hit him as he opened the door. His stomach gave an unpleasantly loud lurch as he had to also skip breakfast in order to make it to work on time. Covering his stomach as if it would stifle the noise, he carefully walked into the establishment.

@musesofmagnificence​

If somebody were to ask, Reiji would say that this was probably one of his favorite ways to spend his days off; Helping out at the family shop really brought back his fondest memories. Yes, he loved his career with a passion, but with a life filled with fame and hustle and bustle, it always felt good to step back and lend a hand to the people he loved in their day-to-day lives instead of just sending extra money to the family. This felt far more productive than just signing a check to his mother.

As the shop bell dinged, Reiji turned to greet the newcomer with his best customer-service smile; Though, not before taking the slightest pause to think, ‘Huh… Well, that seems like a familiar face…’

Still, though, he thought it would be rude to comment on, so he just kept on-script for the time being.

“Good afternoon! Welcome to Kotobuki Bento; What can I get started for you, Sir?”

[stressedberserker]

From how far back he was it was a little difficult to see who was speaking to him, so he came up to the counter to see someone in a headscarf that looked like one of the chefs in charge. Sure enough, his luck was always like this.

He had never been here before, so he thought he would try to find out what was good.

"Um... It's my first time here. I had heard your fried chicken bentos are really good, could I get one of those please?" he ordered.

Really getting a look at the person his eyes went wide for a moment. Did he really run into him? One of the idols from QUARTET NIGHT?

Oh jeez, it's really rude to stare like that, Doppo. he thought to himself before bowing and adding a verbal apology.

[stressedberserker]

It was Doppo's lunch hour and for the first time in a while he was actually allowed time to take it. There must have been a kind God who had taken mercy on him somewhere, not that he really had a specific faith per say.

He had heard around the office of this place that had not only good bentos, but also some of the best fried chicken anywhere in the city. Thinking about it for half a moment he decided he would pay this place a visit.

_

After making it to Kotobuki Bento the scent of food hit him as he opened the door. His stomach gave an unpleasantly loud lurch as he had to also skip breakfast in order to make it to work on time. Covering his stomach as if it would stifle the noise, he carefully walked into the establishment.

@musesofmagnificence

[stardroppedrph]

—- Comforting your friend !

1.  ❝ What’s going on? It’s okay to tell me.  ❞

2.  ❝ Have you calmed down enough to talk about it?  ❞

3.  ❝ Can you tell me what happened?  ❞

4.  ❝ I can’t forgive anybody who makes people THIS upset. Come on, I’ll walk you home.  ❞

5.  ❝ You don’t have to tell me, that’s okay, we can sit here all night if you want.  ❞

6.   ❝ I have time for a long story.  ❞

7.  ❝ I understand that you don’t open up as quick as most.  ❞

8.  ❝ Please, you have to believe me when I tell you that i’m not here to hurt you.  ❞

9.  ❝ Do you want to cuddle and forget about what happened?  ❞

10.  ❝ Wait, I’m not going to hurt you!  ❞

11.  ❝ I’m listening.  ❞

12.  ❝ Is there a reason you feel this way? You don’t have to answer this if you don’t want to.  ❞

13.  ❝ Do you want to talk somewhere more private?  ❞

14.  ❝ I don’t care what you say, I’m here to help you, [name].  ❞

15.  ❝ Is there anything I can do in this moment to help you?  ❞

16.  ❝ You’ve got a great deal on your shoulders, let me help take some of it off.  ❞

17.  ❝ I’ve been in a similar situation you have been.  ❞

18.  ❝ No, you don’t understand! If you don’t let others HELP you, you’re not going to get anywhere in the long run! You’re slowly killing yourself day by day! Don’t you DARE tell me you’ve died a long time ago, cause I know that someone else inside you is DYING to be let out!  ❞

19.  ❝ I’m not going to stop trying, I’m never going to stop. I’m not going anywhere, I’m not walking out that door until you sit down and TALK to me.  ❞

20.  ❝ Guilt & fear are definitely some emotions, huh? Don’t worry, you’re in a safe place. I won’t be judging you at all, care to explain?  ❞