Adrian Ivashov appreciation
Who is Adrian Ivashkov? Heâs a 21/22 years old royal moroi (vampire) whoâs a spirit user (possesses a rare kind of magic where you can heal, visit people in their dreams, see auras, do compulsion, telekinesis, make illusions, basically heâs a total badass) but this kind of makes the user insane with usage and the only way to numb itâs effect is drinking, smoking, or taking antidepressants which also numb their magic. So thatâs why adrian lived most of his life as a drunken ass party boy, but when he falls in love with Sydney he kind of fights his inner battles and stop drinking and smoking, he continued college as a very talented art student, and fights for greater good to protect their society and the princess who he brought back from the dead. (Not to forget that heâs sarcastic and our sass king whoâs the life of a party, is into poetry and listens to 60s/70s music)
đ€The breakup: âI loved you!â he yelled. He jumped up out of his chair so quickly I never saw it coming. âI loved you, and you destroyed me. You took my heart and ripped it up. You might as well have staked me!â The change in his features also caught me by surprise. His voice filled the room. So much grief, so much anger. So unlike the usual Adrian. He strode toward me, hand clasped over his chest. âI. Loved. You. And you used me the whole timeâ. âNo, no. Itâs not true.â I wasnât afraid of Adrian, but in the face of that emotion, I found myself cringing. âI wasnât using you. I loved you. I still do, butââ. He looked disgusted. âRose, comeon.â âI mean it! I do love you.â Now I stood up, pain or no, trying to look him in the eye. âI always will, but weâre not ⊠I donât think we work as a couple.â âThatâs a bullshit breakup line, and you know it.â
đ€"I donât care if you say we canât be together. I donât care if you think Iâm the most evil, unnatural creature walking on earth. You can think whatever you want, do whatever you want. Iâm just going to go on loving you even if itâs hopeless"
đ€"No, you will listen. For once, youâre going to hear something that doesnât fit into your neat compartmentalized world of order and logic and reason. Because this isnât reasonable. If youâre terrifled, believe me-this scares the hell out of me, too. You asked about Rose? I tried to be a better person for her but it was to impress her, to get her to want me. But want to be better when Iâm around you, I becauseâŠwell, because it feels right. Because I want to. You make me want to become something greater than myself. I want to excel. You inspire me in every act, every word, every glance. I look at you, and youâre likeâŠlike light made into flesh. I said it on Halloween and meant every word: you are the most beautiful creature I have ever seen walking this earth. And you donât even know it, you have no clue how beautiful you are or how brightly you shine"
đ€"It is terrifying,â said Adrian. âAnd weird, for lack of better word. And part of you knows⊠well, part of you knows somethingâs not right. That your thinkingâs not right. But what do you do about that? All we can go on is what we think, how we see the world. If you canât trust your own mind, what can you trust? What other people tell you?â
đ€The red dress: âsageâ he said âwhat are you wearingâ. âI know,itâs red, donât start. Iâm tired of hearing about itâ. âFunny, i donât think i can ever get tired of looking at itâ
đ€"I wasnât that crazy on spirit when I said youâre my flame in the dark. We chase away the shadows around each otherâ
đ€"My God, Sage. Your eyes. How have I never noticed them?â That uncomfortable feeling was over me again. âWhat about them?â âThe color,â he breathed. âWhen you stand in the light. Theyâre amazing ⊠like molten gold. I could paint those âŠâ He reached toward me but then pulled back. âTheyâre beautiful. Youâre beautiful.â.
Bonus: the main sydrian quote: Centrum Permanebit.. the center will hold, why? Cause weâre the centerâ€