My Life.

Height: 5ft10. CW: 106lbs. BMI: 15.2

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Been pushing my body to its limits these past 11 days.

I’m 12lbs down in 11days and my BMI is officially in the 16s again. I could cry with happiness.

I feel like I have actual super powers 💪🏽

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i think anorexia is my way of suicide in a disciplined graceful manner

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👌🏽

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Looking down and seeing your legs wobble in shorts on a walk is the only motivation I need to keep going.

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Reading the packaging wrong and then actually eating double the calories. Day light fuckery.

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I was my own thinspo.

100% getting this body back!

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Ana was smart. I started to hate her and so she took a step back and watched me fail. She watched me binge my way through at least 2 months and gain a horrible amount of weight. She was smart, because now I know I don’t hate her. I need her. I need her guidance. I hate what I’ve become without her and so today we’ve decided to take on the world again.

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Easter is off to a great start.

Woken up by my fiancé with McDonald’s breakfast.

McDonald’s breakfast fed to my dogs.

Fuck you easter, fuck you.

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Seeing my shadow wobble in front of me is the only motivation I need on this long ass walk.

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Pretty sure the people who created monster and rice cakes are only in business thanks to the ED community.

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If I stay strong, I’ll never be as fat as I am and feel today.

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When you maintain but actually look skinny for once.

Witch craft fuckery.

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Fasted running is an absolute killer. That shit physically hurts.

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8lbs lost since I decided to fuck off recovery less than two weeks ago. In recovery I cried on a daily and now I’m finally starting to feel happy again.

Current stats 22/02/2021

Height: 5ft10

CW: 107lbs

BMI: 15.3

Total weight loss: 90lbs.

Just 2lbs to go before I’m back to my pre recovery weight and my UGW.

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Morning skinny is a good reason to wake up on a daily.

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Need to stop relying on the fact that my oodie makes my legs look smaller, and actually do something about sliming down my legs.

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6lbs down in 5 days, only 4lbs to go before I’m back to pre recovery weight and my UGW.

I got this 💪🏽

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So after gaining 10lbs in recovery I haven’t weighed myself since I got back to restricting 4 days ago. Tomorrow I’ll weigh myself and hopefully I’ve managed to lose some of that 10lbs. The bloat is real but I’m determined to get rid of these 10lbs and get back to my UGW.

I’m feeling strong. I’m starting to feel happy again. Recovery made me cry on a daily.