Here I am again
Hi! I'm 24 years old, 5"7', and weighing in at 276lbs today. I'm not new to weightloss. I've lost weight before. This has always been my heaviest weight. My story is that I have always been heavy all my life. In middle school my doctor urged my parents to take me to see a nutritionist. I did that, lost weight. I stopped seeing her, and stopped losing weight. Bit through that experience I did walk away knowing about healthier options. In high school I joined a gym and went with my sister a couple of times a week. I didn't really actively aimed to lose weight then. It wasn't until college that I decided to take control. I ate healthier in the dining halls, went to the on campus gym, drank lots of water, got obsessed with green tea. I found myself losing weight freshmen year instead of experiencing the 'freshmen 15'. I found it easier working on myself when I was away from my home. I found myslef get down to 210lbs. That was 4 years ago. I saw a differencenin my attitude, my face, my body. My home is a bad influence, no one eats healthy. But then senior year of college was rough. I was working part-time at a cafe, and ate fried foods, stayed up late studying, never saw the gym. Then after college I didn't have a job right away so all I did was stay at home and was lazy af. I didn't go to the gym, even though I had an active membership. It got to the point when I cancelled my gym membership. I didn't eat healthy, I ate what my family ate. It was safe to say I gained back. I eventually found a job, and I bought my lunch every day. Then I didn't have a job. That was over 2 months ago, still dont. I found myself weighing my heaviest again. I went two weeks eating healthy, going back to the gym. I started losing. Then one week I stayed with my sister. Away from my healthy foods, the gym, I drank, I ate take out. It broke my habit of doing well. And here I am again, at my heaviest. I see my double chin more, my stomach is huge, my jeans don't first me, my face is just so plump, my thighs and arms are huge. And my class ring that used to fit loose on my middle finger, 4 years ago, can barely fit anymore. I am seeing myself 6 years ago feeling the same way about my body. And I don't like the fact that I back-tracked. And so here I am again. I want to get back to my healthy state of mind and body. I was so good 4 years ago, saying no to the bad foods, the carbs. I want that power back again. I want to be healtheir. I don't want to be 276. I want to lose 76lbs by the end of the year. That's my goal. I don't want to backtrack. I need to do this. Today I practiced mindful eating. Actually thinking about the meals I eat, I don't want to focus on the calories right now. I just want to establish the habit of mindful and healthy eating. Then I throw in calorie counting, then go to the gym. Wish me luck!
