ilielow

Introvert. Half Alive.

[quietlyydying]

[quietlyydying]

nothing hurts more than the person you love telling you they don’t feel the same anymore.

[quietlyydying]

when you no longer said,

“i love you” back,

everything

changed

[struckbykryptonite]

Now you’re finally getting what you want

I will live in ignorance and oblivion

[struckbykryptonite]

I want you to feel my pain.

[struckbykryptonite]

You said “mind your own business”

but every now and then

you get affected by my posts

and ask about it

You little shit you’re the one who changed me into a bitch

[struckbykryptonite]

I’ve been dreaming of the negative thoughts inside my head and I’m losing sleep because of it and I might lose her more if it doesn’t stop

[struckbykryptonite]

When tumblr is my only outlet because people at a different social media app makes things worst

[struckbykryptonite]

Am I ok?

No.

I am calm

Yes.

[struckbykryptonite]

I will now take a step away from you

Even if hurts

Even if it kills me inside

I have to make myself completely numb in everything that you do

I will be the normal me even though I’m unhappy

[struckbykryptonite]

No, you made it clear you can’t save me,can’t comfort me, can’t even touch me

[struckbykryptonite]

When I lose myself would you be there to save me

or would you rather just stare because it wouldn’t feel authentic if you comfort me

[struckbykryptonite]

I am almost out of tears to cry

I am craving for the happy feeling you gave me before

But I also feel I am close to not feeling anything at all

[struckbykryptonite]

I want to be positive

I want to be able to fix myself

But I am too hurt to be better than I was yesterday

I am too focused on the idea of losing you instead of losing myself

[struckbykryptonite]

[struckbykryptonite]

You said you still care and still have the same amount of concern for me but why does it feel it’s just an obligation for you to fulfill

You said you love me but it’s not enough to save us

You want me to fix myself when you’re the reason I’m broken

[struckbykryptonite]

It is not easy for me to accept and act like nothing happened

It’s hard for me not to care although I don’t have any rights to you anymore

I am holding on a little sliver of hope that we are not a lost cause

I am sorry if I can’t give the 100% space that you need

I am sorry that I am selfish that I only want you to still choose me after