Welp..
Low whistle.
Damn, I still have 2000 followers? Y’all are crazy.
It sure has been a while, hasn’t it? I made promise after promise to return and I just haven’t been able to keep my word. That’s my fault, honestly. I haven’t been able to properly RP since 2016, so I have no idea why I thought that would change now. It sucks because I love Yusuke Urameshi-- I love this character to death. One I felt a string connection to and still do feel that connection. However, I’m just too busy to roleplay and when I’m not busy, the thought of it exhausts me to no end. Even one liners feel like a struggle nowadays. I can’t keep leading everyone along thinking I’ll come back because I realize now that I won’t. I work more than I ever had, I make more money than I ever had, I’ve been doing good for myself. That void that rp filled has been filled with personal life and I don’t see that changing any time soon. Plus, I’m almost 25 and this was the age I promised myself I’d start a family. Though, unfortunately, the thought of a relationship is far from appealing to me, but either way, this feels like a good time to go. So with a heavy heart, I think it’s time I retire this blog and from roleplay in general.
It sucks because I’ve made so many great friends here, some I can’t imagine life without. Hell, I’ve made a lot of mistakes here, too ( like my last relationship. I still cringe when I call it that so I just call it “mistake”. ) Godzilla, I’m sorry I said I loved anyone more than you. I hope you can forgive me for saying such foolish bullshit. I’ll never say it again, I promise and I take back the times I did say it. Hell, I threw away my ring and replaced it with a cooler one in your honor.
Rose: I know you’re not gonna read this since you no longer visit this site, but.. Yoooo... we have been through some ups and downs, haven’t we? Crazy how our friendship on tumblr set this fucking place on fire and started some crazy ass shit, but honestly, hindsight being 20/20, I wouldn’t change it for the world. Our threads were always so much fun and people tend to enjoy reading them as much as we did writing it. Another reason it hurts to go. I’m glad we managed to overcome everyone that tried to separate the two of us out of jealously and pettiness. It makes me super happy to think about. It would have been a huge mistake to pick someone I barely even knew over someone who had been by my side for years. The fact I even considered it for a second brings me nothing but shame, LOL! Like, holy fuck, you were there for BOTH of my break-ups. You heard me cry for the first and watched me move on super fast for the second, lol. We’ve always been best friends and even if people think we did shit behind the scenes (we didn’t), that didn’t stop us from Overwatching with the squad. People just couldn’t understand that a girl and a guy could be friends and not be romantic (especially since I was in a mistake at the time). So hard to believe, I know. You deserve the best and happy you’re away from the fake friends that would have given you the opposite.
Sarah: You’re such a loser, you know that? But like Rose, you’ve been there when I needed you most. You’ve always been a great friend and despite the lies who’ve heard about me being a cheater (I never did cheat), always knew the truth and stuck with me. You always have your fair share of drama, but you always come out on type. Something we’ve always had in common. I just wish your body would stop trying to defeat you. You’re a blessing and I hope you future brings you nothing but the greatest joy. I got much love for you.
Jay(sosilly): You’re gay.
Becca: Holy fuck. Knowing you was a roller-coaster of a ride. Almost as bad as knowing Rose. You’ve done some fucked shit, but even then you still held be back from doing some fucked shit of my own. You’ve grown a lot since I first met you and we became super close. A big reason I could never abandon you even when everyone seemed against you. I could never turn my back on a friend-- Rose and Becca are examples of that. But girl, you still suck ass.
Peachy: Last but certainly not least-- the one who got me into this horrible site in the first place. I don’t think I give her enough credit for what she’s done for me here. One of the most supportive people in my life. You’re there to tell me good morning when I wake up and good night when I pass out randomly. When I’m down and don’t want to talk to people, you talk to me anyway. You’re like a guardian angel that watches over me and leads me down the right path when I wanna do some fuck shit. Like when I planned to reveal some skeletons in the closet (or should I say tub) when my whole life story was put on display for.. no reason, you held me back. Told me it wasn’t worth it even if the shit talking pissed me off to no end. And while that’s still a bullet I wanna shoot for pettiness sake, I’ll keep it for myself. Only because you told me not to pull the trigger. That aside, you’re my teddy bear that I want to support as much as you supported me. If only I had been more supportive after your break-up like you’ve been after mine. I wish I could be more open with you as I want to be, but you know more than anyone how closed off I have been lately, but I am trying to open up. It’s just hard. Two mistakes in a row can do that, but I’m trying to get better and better myself. Even if it doesn’t seem that way.
For everyone I did not mention, thank you for staying by me. Sorry for those I’m missing, I know I’m missing a LOT, but I’m in a rush to go to a party. Thank you to everyone for continuing to follow me over the years and have threads with me. I was never too keen on my own writing, but you’ve all made me feel as though I were actually good. I still think, even to this day, that I’m a sub-par writer, but writing with all of me made me feel my own growth. I’ve been here for years and been roleplaying for longer, but I have to say, despite how shitty this site can be, it houses some of the greatest rp minds in the world. I really wish I could have left with a bang! Something fitting of Yusuke, but I just don’t have that mental strength anymore. Not like I did a few years ago. I’m gonna miss this, but I know this is for the best for me-- plus, I’m so tired of lying to you all by saying I’ll return when I know it’s not true. For the people who have been by me from the beginning, to all the fakes that are no longer around, I say PEACE! Always remember never to trust people who say they never lie, because when they do, and they will, that’s when it’ll hurt the most. Those that were/are with me, I wish you nothing but love and prosperity. For everyone else? Y’all can suck my fat dick.
If you want to keep in contact, I have several ways you can reach me.
Instagram: bronxspirit
PSN: Spiritbang
Snapchat: gojiboi
Skype: sexitup14
Discord: Spiritbang#4971
Love you all.
