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pairing : jay x reader 

genre : fluff (with a hint of angst) 

warnings : kind of sad. hints of reader being sick/injured (not specified)  

summary : jay will do anything for you because he loves you. 

word count : 778 words. 

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You startle, the sight of Jay scaring the sleep away from your eyes. He smiles, his eyes lighting up at the sight, you look so cute like this after all. 

“Hey baby,” Jay hums, your hand wrapping around his finger with a small squeeze of acknowledgement, “Did I wake you?” 

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in case of emergency: break me | l.hs

pairing: fwb! lee heeseung x fem! reader

warnings: 18+ content, swearing

genre: angst with a happy ending, crack, smut: oral (f receiving), protected sex, doggy style, dirty talk

wc: 8,828

The moment you and your neighbour, Lee Heeseung, agreed on a no-strings-attached relationship, you knew that there was only one rule you had to follow: don’t fall in love. The consequences of breaking that one simple rule? Pure and utter chaos.

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These drunk confessions - Part 2

Pairing: Park Jongseong (Jay) x OC (Im Haeyoon) Genre: Fluff | A little angst | College AU | Friends to enemies to lovers TW: cursing | mentions of alcohol and getting wasted | please let me know if there are any I should add

These drunk confessions | Part 1 | Part 3

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Part 2: Jay

Three days since that fucking incident, three days since I last went out of my apartment, and I haven’t spoken to anyone since then. I’ve done nothing but to wallow in misery due to me being humiliated in front of the student body plus the fact that she hated me.

Why is she so mad at me? Fuck if I did anything to her, she was the one who broke it off, since she liked another guy, not me. It’s also a fucking mystery that she liked Park Sunghoon before—not that he was bad looking or anything, but the dude had the personality of a rock! If he wasn’t good looking, then he’d be a nobody!

Speaking of, it must be him calling again, but the caller ID says otherwise—it was Aerin. Why is she calling me, is there an emergency?

“Hey, Aerin. What’s up?” Since she didn’t call nor text as much, I was curious.

“What’s up is why you’re ignoring your friends who are worried sick! Heeseung went to your apartment twice but you didn’t even open the door for him. The others are already at their wits end trying to figure out what your problem is! It’s Jake’s birthday today and he can’t even be happy about it because he’s bothered—"

“I’m okay Ae-“

“Did I ask if you’re fucking okay, Park Jongseong?! Do you think hiding from everyone because you got slapped by my bestfriend justifies your actions? From what I’ve heard, you brought it upon yourself!”

“Why are you taking it against me? I’m the one that got slapped, not you nor the guys! Your friend has issues, I didn’t even do anything to her!” I half yelled, too frustrated and confused, I have been in this dilemma for the past 8 months, if they only knew.

After a few seconds of silence, Aerin seemed to have calm as well, “Whatever’s between you, talk it out, okay?”

“She blocked me, if you must know. She wouldn’t even look at me.”

“You should probably stop insulting her and giving snide remarks, i don’t know why you can’t be civil with her, what did she ever do to you?”

She fucking left me for someone else, she broke my heart. Fuck. “Nothing.”

“I swear to God, Jay. Even Niki doesn’t measure up to your maturity at this point. If you don’t come to Jake’s party tonight, the guys will talk to your parents.”

“Fine! I’ll be there.” I fibbed just to make her lay off me.

There is a possibility that I’d see Haeyoon later, and I’m not sure if I’m prepared to. Anyway, if I decide to go, she won’t be the reason, it’d be because it’s Jake’s day—even if that asshole is set to ask her out, he’s still one of my bestfriends.

What if the two started dating? Will I be able to move on from all this?

It’s just hard to accept that she’s no longer part of my life.

Haeyoon is Mika’s, my cousin, friend from their high school—we met at my cousin’s graduation party. Haeyoon’s a head turner, not only beautiful, but elegant. Her movements were so refined that I thought she’d be boring, but man, was I so wrong!

We were at the hotel’s ballroom, people watching, when she excused herself. At the ten minute mark, I saw her rushing towards me—she then pulled my hand and dragged me outside of the ballroom towards the pool area.

Apparently, she stole a bottle of Riesling and one of the staff almost caught her. We drank straight from the bottle like two underage alcoholics without a care in the world. The night that we both lost our virginity to each other, spent the rest of the evening until dawn just talking as we waited for the first sunrise of our summer.

The following day, I drove her home and ended up meeting her parents, they invited me to have lunch with them until I became a staple in their household, sometimes having dinner with her and her parents, or staying the night, she also did the same—coming over during the weekends or joining my family on our short trips. My parents adore her, I know exactly why.

When the new school year started, she suggested that we shouldn’t be obvious in campus, she doesn’t want anyone finding out about us since it’s like a friends with benefits thing—I agreed. She also didn’t want her bestfriend to get the wrong idea about us, I didn’t think much of it until I’ve noticed that a lot of guys have been approaching her, trying to get her attention. I became insecure as the idea of her liking someone else did not sit well with me, if that happens, it means it’s gonna be over between us, no questions asked.

Sunghoon and Heeseung, two of my long-time friends, got to know her as well, and I made it a point to tell them to not allow any male student near her, my plan was successful, and lucky for me, they did not question my motives. It was then that I knew my feelings were starting to materialize.

Then Jake came into picture junior year, and started showing interest in her and it was a relief that she did not give him the time of the day. I never asked her about Jake, I did not want her to get the wrong idea, as long as we were okay, I’d be fine with that. That was until the party they’ve hosted for Jake.

Mom wanted me to bring my cousin Mika and two of her friends to wherever I was going that night, saying something about being cordial to our guests since they were visiting over the weekend. So I told Haeyoon that I won’t be able to go to her place after. That night was a blur, I remember getting kissed by one of my cousin’s friend in Heeseung’s balcony and I just let her, thinking it was Yoon, but turns out it’s not. That was also the same exact moment I realized that I can’t be with someone unless it’s her.

So I immediately ran downstairs to frantically look for her, Aerin said she already went home, not feeling well. As an act of desperation when I rushed to the front door, stumbling a few times, forcing myself to walk straight to where my car was parked. Heeseung and Sunghoon stopped me when I told them that I’d be driving to her place. They forced me to stay, and took my car keys from me, making sure I didn’t do anything stupid. I called her multiple times that night, even sent her messages but I got no response, which was fairly odd, considering that she never misses to reply.

Monday came sooner, the only message I got from her was that she went home to her parents and that she’d call me, but heard nothing after. Frustration was slowly building up—I went to her apartment, let myself in but found nothing.

Yoon did not attend her morning classes either, I’ve been asking the guys nonstop on her whereabouts, but no one knew. Aerin was already getting suspicious of me but didn’t ask further, it was a relief since I didn’t want to tell her anything that Yoon may have not told her yet, and if she questioned me, I know I’d break.

A couple of days later, I finally got a text from her, only to say that she wanted to end things as she’s now liking someone else. I bombarded her with calls and messages until she switched off her phone, I wanted to talk to her, in person at least, I was planning to tell her everything and if she didn’t accept me, I’d let her be. The closure I wanted, I never got.

It was Sunghoon, the guy she liked. I had to find out from grapevine that it was him. It felt like I was cheated on, yet Sunghoon had no clue on Yoon and I’s status.

As soon as I had the chance, I confronted Sunghoon, one on one, and interrogated if he was making a move on her. He denied everything, saying that they were just friends, nothing more. I was lost, not sure who to believe then. My like seemingly went upside down because she left me—Park Jongseong was the perfect definition of tragedy.

Our most recent interaction wasn’t any better, and it was my fault I got triggered. She has never called me Jay, it was always Jongseong, Jongseongie, Seong, but never Jay. She specifically implied that it was only for people not close to me—now that she’s calling me Jay, it simply meant I was a mere acquaintance.

Again, my phone buzzed, it was my mother this time. “Hi mom.”

“Jongseong, where are you?”

“I’m in my apartment, why?”

“Your friends are here, Heeseung is here looking for you, with Sunghoon and Niki. Why are you hiding from your friends? Where is Haeyoon? I knew something was wrong she didn’t go here for our anniversary, did you cheat on her?! I swear to God Jongseong, you won’t meet anyone better than her-“

I cut her off with her ramblings, “mom! The guys will hear you!”

“So what if they hear me? Have you been hiding her?!”

“She’s not even my girlfriend mom,” I whined, what is it with women these days and nagging? “and it’s not like she wants to be my girlfriend.”

“You’re indeed your father’s son. I can’t believe you didn’t see how much she cares about you, I know I’m your mother and I’m supposed to support you, but if you don’t win her back, don’t think about going home, and that’s final.”

“What the fuck, mom?!”

“Language, young man. I will have a word with your friends.”

“Don’t tell them anything mom! I swear it’s no-“ I did not even get to finish my sentence when she hang up. I can’t believe she’s disowning me because of Haeyoon! I am her only son, my God! That woman is so petty! How did she even become my mother?!

Truthfully, I’m not prepared to tell the guys about this however I’m pretty sure that they now know more than I want to tell them. I took the quickest shower ever and rushed back home, after I messaged them in our group chat: Heeseung, Sunghoon and Niki, do not leave! Wait for me there and do not listen to that woman!

Unsure of how many stop signs I’ve ran over, I got home in record time—25 minutes! As soon as I got off my car, I spotted the three of them with my mother at our patio. My mom already giving me a condemning face as soon as she saw me, oh God, I’m gonna be homeless!

“Hey, mom, guys!” I casually greeted them, acting cool while my inner turmoil suggests otherwise.

“Sit down Jongseong.” Okay, I’m in trouble. The three were stifling a laugh, they were not the most subtle bunch. “What’s this I hear that you’ve been going out with different women every week?!”

I’m going to kill all of you. I mouthed those words to them which didn’t help with their case, Heeseung snorted, the other two were in hysterics.

“Did you break up with Haeyoon or you cheated on her, she found out then broke up with you?”

“Mooom, she’s not even my girlfriend, I told you.” I insinuated in sort of whisper-shouting manner, “she’s going to kill me if she finds out they know.”

“Don’t worry, man. She won’t get mad.” Sunghoon assured me, a little too apprehensive if you ask me.

“Are you planning something? What are you guys planning?!”

“I’ll leave you boys be, you guys are staying for dinner,” mom then stood up, “Please talk to your friend, he needs a good beating.”

The boys chuckled and had the nerve to approve of what she just said. “Stop acting like you’re my mother’s sons.”

“What, it’s funny!” Sunghoon mused, “Heeseung believed that Jake was so serious about Haeyoon!”

Niki looked at Sunghoon wide eyed while hitting his arm, “Fucking retard!”

“Watch your language, Niki!” I warned the youngest, “what did you say?”

“Just go to the party later, Jake’s expecting all of us.” Heeseung exclaimed, getting my attention from the other two.

“Why? I have school work to finish.”

“I’m your classmate in most of your classes, deadlines aren’t until the end of the month, so that’s three weeks from now.”

“Come on, Jongsaeng-mon… we haven’t seen you in three days!“

“Stop referring to me as if I’m your Pokemon!” I snarled at Sunghoon, “Come on guys, I’m not in the mood. Besides, I also need some me time.”

“Heeseung will buy you lunch for a whole month.” Niki offered.

“I don’t need that, I’m rich.”

Niki huffed, “well, not if we tell auntie. You’d be homeless and poor!”

This kid is evil, they again didn’t give me much choice so I was forced to say yes, already regretting my decision.

After a few more lectures from my mom during dinner, we made our way to wherever the party was. Mom warned me again that I shouldn’t step foot in this house in the future if I don’t have Haeyoon with me. It’s as if she’d talk to me again after what happened.

It felt like being abducted by my own friends—they didn’t even let me bring my own car, making sure that I can’t leave anytime. Plus Jungwon and Niki are staying over, they made sure that I also do the same.

“Where are we going?” I asked Heeseung when I realized that the direction we’re going to is a bit different than our usual route.

 “Jake rented a penthouse suite, he says something about his parents being home, so we needed to go to a different place.”

Sketchy, but okay. Whatever. He might’ve rented the whole club or something, that’s what he always does. He doesn’t like the hassle of cleaning up the following day, pretty smart actually.

What I wasn’t told was that he booked a penthouse suite in Hyatt in Gangnam and only a select few were invited. By select few, meaning it was only our circle.

“Hey man, I thought you wouldn’t make it!” Jake got me into headlock as soon as he saw me and dragged me inside to where the supposed living room is.

“Dude, be thankful it’s your birthday or else!” I laughed along with him as I try to fight back, but Jake was somewhat stronger.

“I just didn’t expect to see you, I thought I’d have to drag your ass out of your apartment!”

“That’s what we did actually,” Sunghoon chimed in, “We had to go to his parents’ house just to make him come out. It’s pathetic!”

“Take it easy on Jongseong,” Aerin shushed the two, “go, freshen up,“ she pushed me to one bedrooms, as Niki handed me my rucksack, “we’ll just prep the food.”

“Oh yes, yes! Chill for a bit,” Jake was on it too, everyone within the radius exchanging knowing glances, acting suspicious if I may add, “Go!”

As I was pushed inside the room, the door behind me closed almost immediately, to which I forced to open it but it’s somehow stuck from the other side. “What the fuck guys?! Open up!” I was banging on the door at the same time.

“Will let you out in an hour, I swear!” I think that was Heeseung’s voice.

“Yeah, an hour or so. We won’t let you out unless you two talk!” That was definitely Sunghoon… wait, us two?

“Why the hell are you so loud?!” Someone from behind me suddenly spoke, which fucking gave me a heart attack, “and what are you doing here, Jay?” Ah, the love of my life who saw me as nothing but a nuisance.

“Hey Haeyoon… Um, I guess they locked us in.”

She sighed and walked towards the door, tried opening it, and banged it as well, “Fucking morons! Let us out, you dumb shits! I SWEAR ONCE I GET OUT OF HERE I’LL -“

I placed both of my hands on each shoulder as I lightly pulled her away from the door and had her sit on the edge of the bed, it was a hopeless case especially when we both heard Sunghoon and Jake’s obnoxious hooting.

“It’s pointless, these guys are assholes to begin with.” I told her.

“Obviously.” she muttered while typing angrily at her phone, the message was sent to our group chat, I almost chortled when I read the message full of profanities, definitely not threatening, but cute, “Why are you laughing? Do you think this is funny?!” Oh, oh! I’m unblocked? I can read her messages again, WTF!

“I’m sorry, I was smiling, not laughing.” I corrected her which made her glare even more. It was meant to be a joke but she took it negatively.

Her back was against the headboard and damn it, even with no makeup on, she looks beautiful. More beautiful than anyone I’ve met—this is bringing me back to the time I've first met her.

Maybe God has a weird way of answering my prayers—I’m taking this as a sign from the heavens, plus I don’t want our friends’ efforts go to waste.

“How are you, Yoon?” I sat on the side of the bed near her, but still kept a good distance, in case she wanted to hurt me again.

She raised her left eyebrow at me, “and you’re asking because?”

Maybe because I miss you and it’s been almost a year since we last talked? “Just asking.”

A sigh escaped her lips the nth time in the last thirty minutes or so, “I’m sorry. It’s just, we’re no longer on speaking terms, it’s weird that you’re asking me this, but to answer your question, I’m fine. I hope you are too.”

“I am,” I hesitated to continue, not knowing what to say further.

“You know we don’t have to talk just because they locked us here. We can always go back to pretending that’s we’re not close once they let us out, just be civil.”

“Pretending we weren’t close didn’t do us any good, Yoon, and you know that.”

“Maybe it was meant to end, Jay. Maybe we weren’t even meant to be friends.”

“Don’t say that, please.” I begged, I reached out to both her hands and kissed it, “I’m sorry for being a jerk, I just—I didn’t know how to handle being away from you. I didn’t know what to do with my life, you became a big part of it in a short span of time. Can we just go back to how it was? Please Haeyoon?”

My tears are already threatening to spill, I couldn’t help it, I couldn’t afford to lose her again. I’d go insane, it’d be now or never.

She retracted her hands, insisted that I let go, “You mean go back to having sex then keeping it as a secret? I don’t think so.”

“No, that’s not what I mean. I know you like Sunghoon, or maybe Jake, I don’t know,” I took a deep breath, to make sure I won’t mess up my words again, “Haeyoon, I won’t tell you to stop liking them or whatever, what I’m asking for is to just let me be there for you again, let me spend time with you like before, let me do things for you, drive you wherever you need to go, anything, just please. I don’t know how I can function again without you in my life.”

“Why are you doing this, Jongseong?” her voice softens, “I can’t take advantage of you like that. I can’t do that to you.”

“Because I love you, Im Haeyoon. Since freshman year, I think. I just didn’t want to tell you as I thought it may frighten you away.” She froze at my confession, now this is scaring me—she’s going to reject me that’s for sure, but at least I told—

“You’re a fucking idiot, Park Jongseong.” She wiped her now damp eyes with the back of her hand, “you’re a fucking idiot!”

“I’m sorry if this is something that’s not expected, I just wanted to tell you at least before you decide to cut ties with me again. I’ve loved you—no, I love you since then, and that hasn’t changed, not one bit.”

“You could’ve just told me before, you’re aware of that right?” She’s now smiling through her tears, even laughing at this whole situation, “we could’ve avoided all this drama you know?”

“What do you mean? So we could’ve ended it sooner?”

“God, you’re so dense. You really are. Although I’m not any better…” she muttered.

Dense? Because what, you’re rejecting me for someone else? As of this moment, I’m not sure which is more acceptable, getting rejected because of your bestfriend or because of someone you don’t know.

“What are you thinking about Jongseongie?” she placed both her hands on each side of my face and gave me a quick peck on my lips, what the fuck? My brain short circuited and didn’t know how to react. “You’re an idiot, and I’m inlove with you.”

“You—you are—with me? Seriously?”

“Who else? You want me to take it back?”

“NO! No of course not! You’re mine.” I blurted out so suddenly, “I’m sorry, I mean-“

“I love you Park Jongseong, I really do. It’s just I thought you were going end things with me after I saw you kissing someone else at Heeseung’s party. I thought me ending things abruptly would be better for the both of us, and I dreaded the idea that you would want it to stop.”

I was about to say something but she interrupted me, “Wait, let me finish. I need to let it all out or I’ll forget.” It was very typical of her, to forget things, “So I accidentally confessed that I liked Sunghoon, which wasn’t true by the way.”

“You put him on the spot!” I gasped, making fun of her, “Poor Sunghoon, he must’ve been traumatized!”

She lightly tapped my cheek and chuckled, “You’re so mean! But anyway, I already came clean, a few days ago.”

“Just a few days ago?! And we all thought…”

“The guys told me you were the only one who thought that, apparently they all knew about us because you have drunk confessed to everyone!”

“That is not true!” I strongly denied, “Who told you this? It’s really not true.”

“Well,” she pondered, “there’s Sunoo, Sunghoon, Niki and Jungwon may have mentioned something. You’ve been telling them things apparently… like I left you for someone else? Dude, we’re not even dating! Do you want me to ask them again?”

“No, please. Don’t! I love you, okay? That’s what’s important!” I insisted, but the things I do when I’m drunk were pretty much buried in the ditch, memories have been vague.

The door suddenly opened, good thing we weren’t in a compromising position. “Are you lovebirds done? It has been more than an hour and food is ready!” It was the birthday boy.

“We’re good,” Haeyoon stood up, and smiled at him. She took my hand and pulled me towards the door.

“We’re good? That’s it?” I whispered, “aren’t we discussing our relationship status at least?”

She just shrugged and walked away, smirking, as she joined the others in the kitchen—what the fuck was that? Where do we stand?

“So…?” Ah, Jake and Jungwon obviously asking for what transpired within the room.

“What?” I asked irritatingly, “What do you want?” I threw myself to the nearest couch, completely ignoring the two. Unfortunately for me, the two couldn’t take a hint and joined me.

“What ‘what’? We’re asking what’s going on between you two now? Did you finally ask her out?” Jungwon nudged.

“Are you finally dating?” Jake also probed, a little too eager.

“Get away from me you two!” I tried so hard to shoo them away but I remember her kissing me just a while back. Right then and there, a grin escaped my lips—they’ll never let me hear the end of it!

Their teasing might have attracted Sunoo, who was now walking towards us wearing that mischievous smirk, followed by Sunghoon—fuck my life! I'm just not ready for this...

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These drunk confessions

Pairing: Park Jongseong (Jay) x OC (Im Haeyoon) Genre: Fluff | A little angst | College AU | Friends to enemies to lovers TW: cursing | mentions of alcohol and getting wasted | *please let me know if there are any I should add*

A/N: I've written this because of a random song I've heard the other day while working on another story, lol. Do listen to it below:

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For Im Haeyoon, it was better to end things than to admit how she truly felt. It's not like she didn't like their set up, she was just too scared of rejection, leaving Park Jongseong lost, confused and full of misconceptions that ended in these drunk confessions. Now, everyone in their circle knew about what has transpired in the past, plus Jongseong's feelings--everyone knew about the latter except for the oblivious Haeyoon.

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These drunk confessions - Part 1

Pairing: Park Jongseong (Jay) x OC (Im Haeyoon) Genre: Fluff | A little angst | College AU | Friends to enemies to lovers TW: cursing | mentions of alcohol and getting wasted | *please let me know if there are any I should add*

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Part 1: OC’s (Haeyoon) POV

“So there’s this party…” my best friend of almost two decades started as we were having lunch at the university cafeteria.

“No, Rin. I’ll be busy.” I deadpanned as I finished my chocolate pudding, no wanting to listen to what she has to say.

“I haven’t even said anything yet! Sunghoon will be there though.” She added hopefully. Ah, the ex-love of my life as everyone knows, who happened to reject me but is still nice about it. That was laughable really, I’m over it.

“I’m over him, love. You know that,” I gave her a disapproving look. It didn’t hurt my pride as  much though, because it was a cover up, and probably because he didn’t gloat about it, we’re still good friends. After that drunk confession which was supposedly for another person (his best friend?), he rejected me and said he never saw me that way, which I’m thankful for as it would get pretty complicated if he didn’t. “And besides, if Sunghoon is this there, so is his best friend, Park Jongseong.”

“God! I wasn't implying anything!” she added defensively. “Why are you so irked with his presence anyway? It’s not like you have a past with Park Jongseong…” Oh God, we DID have a past, it’s just that nobody knew!

“Don’t act like I’m not aware of things, I know the party will be this Friday to celebrate Jake’s birthday, Jake and I are not even close. I don’t just crash anyone’s party, you know.”

“Whose party are we crashing?” Heeseung interrupted the discussion, sitting beside Aerin, as she became flustered while attempting to hide a smile.

“You’re close by association, he’s close with Sunghoon and Heeseung!” she interjected, like it was the brightest idea there.

“Close with whom, babe?” Heeseung shot Aerin a confused glance.

“You’re going too, right Hee? Jake’s party this weekend.”

“Oh stop it with your flirting. You two are so pathetic!” I rolled my eye at them, trying so hard to change the topic but ended up failing.

 “Come on Yoon, we won’t even let you drive, you can drink all you want.” She insisted, with Heeseung backing her up.

“And Jake wants you there, he likes you, you know.” Heeseung said, which made my best friend giggle like crazy. “You were always at the parties we hosted, what happened?.”

Nah, Jake doesn’t like me like that, I don't think so. He is nice, and can even be considered as hot, but he’s a fuck boy. He has girls left and right, and I don’t want to be one of those girls who’s at his beck and call, nope that isn’t me.

“I’ll think about it.” I finally said after a minute of silence God, just drop the subject please! It’s not like I don’t want to, but I don’t feel like seeing Park Jongseong on a setting other than our campus.

I stood up and excused myself from the two, and made my way to a nearby study space so I can finish my work in peace, but who am I kidding? My mind wandered off to Jongseong, again. The almighty Park Jongseong—Jay for most people. Our friend group is well known within our uni and other campuses as well, because of these guys; Heeseung, Sunghoon, Jake, Sunoo, Jungwon, Niki and of course, Jay—who’s also a fuckboy just like Jake. I don’t want to associate myself with him again, not in this lifetime!

Jongseong and I were friends with benefits, and nobody knew about this, not even Aerin. He was the one I lost my virginity to, and vice versa—well that’s what he told me.

All that started summer after high school, when he was introduced by a classmate, which ended at the start of junior year in college, just a few months back. We had a deal that if one of us start to like someone else, we’d tell the other. The relationship was supposedly exclusive, we can date but we can’t fuck other people, if we did, we had to stop whatever the set up was.

Ironic enough, we also became a part of the same friend group, freshman year. We were aloof in front of our friends but totally it’s different story when we’re alone, it is also unbelievable how we kept the act for more than two years.

At the parties the guys have hosted, it was the same story. Our younger friends would be there, but they’re not allowed to drink, it was either me or Jongseong that picked them up, then Sunghoon being the slightly responsible one will drive them home before their curfew, then will only start drinking once the kids are home. Jongseong and I will then disappear when everyone’s drunk or busy and will spend the night either on his or my place. And there were also weekdays, when he spent most nights at my place, without our friends knowing.

Until the dreadful thing happened, I fell in love with him—sophomore year, second semester. It was also one of the unwritten rules, to not fall for the other. Of course, I didn’t have the guts to tell him nor to end the relationship, I was just there for him, nothing changed. Besides, he did not show me any kind of affection when we were outside of our confines, I just knew it was one sided.

Then came Jake, who was a transfer student at the first semester of junior year and he hit it off with our clique, so naturally the guys found another reason to host a party, to welcome him that is. It was the same old routine, except Jungwon, Niki and Sunoo did not need to go home that night, they will be crashing at Heeseung’s, who hosted the party.

Jongseong on the other hand told me that he wouldn’t be able to go home with me that night, which was a first, he said he needed to do something important. I didn’t mind, and who am I to demand to know what he was up to, we were not in a relationship.

That’s when I saw him with another girl in the balcony, while I was seated on one of the pool chaise, a little tipsy but had a good view of them while I was hidden from their sight. He allowed her to lunge forward and kiss him, he did not even resist. Realization did hit me that time that I was nothing to Jongseong, I made an excuse to my friends that I will be going home early as I’m not feeling well, I did not even bother saying good bye to him.

The succeeding days, I talked to him less. I didn’t make myself as available so I made up excuses to not see him, I was scared that he’d tell me that he would end things, I though that it'd feel better if it was the other way around, so I planned to end it with him. I also avoided our friends that same week and was absent to the classes I shared with each one of one of them. They kept messaging me too, especially Aerin and Jongseong, asking my whereabouts, and made an excuse that I’ve been spending time with mom.

A few days after, that's when I dropped the bomb--I messaged him and said that we should stop whatever’s between us as there’s already someone I like. He did not stop calling until I had to switch off my phone, I then went home to my parents and made myself MIA. Mom thought it was pressure from school, so she let me off the hook.

After two weeks of hiding, I finally went back. I talked to my professors and they gave me extra work for credits. Another excuse to not see them, I did tell Aerin that something was up but did not tell her in detail, I was thankful that she did not pry and she understood me. Jongseong stopped bothering me altogether, I was somewhat relieved but I did miss him, so much if I may add.

That weekend, I made an appearance on the party hosted by Sunghoon when I realised how selfish I was and apologised to them for being MIA. It wasn’t a surprise that Jay had his arms around someone, I didn’t even look at him, I could feel his ireful stares which I tried so hard to ignore.

I did not leave Sunghoon’s side that night, thankfully he did not mind, not one bit, and when everyone mellowed down, that’s when Jongseong picked a fight with me that progressed into an argument that’s loud enough for our friends and bystanders to hear. He accused me of liking Sunghoon, and that did it for me. I deliberately told him that I indeed liked Sunghoon because he doesn’t sleep around. It was too late when what I've said sinked in, the others broke the fight and Sunghoon drove me home, and was nice enough to comfort me and stay with me until the morning—this was when he rejected me. I didn't bother explaining to him what really happened, it was left at that.

That was the last time I’ve ever spoken to Park Jongseong, or at least the last civilized one. He did, however, drunk text me a few times, saying that Sunghoon doesn’t like me and things with similar context, he was fucking petty and I ignored him, and ended up blocking his number.

“Hey, you’re too deep in thought.” Sunoo nudged me, I did not realise that he’s here with Jungwon, Sunghoon and the manwhore himself, Park Jongseong.

“I’m just tired. Exams are coming up.”

The guys have joined me at the then empty table, Jongseong was hesitant but still sat with the others.

“So I hear you’re coming this Friday.” Sunghoon asked, after the incident, it took about three months before I started hanging out with the guys.

“If Aerin and Heeseung told you, then they’re lying. I told them I’d think about it. That's different.”

“Come one, you don’t have to worry about driving, I’ll pick you up and even drive you home.” Sunghoon insisted.

“Yess! Please, please!” Sunoo begged, “you haven’t joined us in a long time.”

“Eight months is not a long time, love. Plus I have been busy.” I told them, Jungwon frowned, and I know he doesn’t believe me.

“Yeah, busy with what? Dating after Sunghoon rejected you?” Jongseong smirked and I am so tempted to wipe that fucking smirk off of his face.

“Am I even talking to you, Jay?” I said with a with a straight face. “Mind your own business, why not continue fucking everyone else in this school instead of putting your nose into someone else’s life? It got too boring for you?”

“At least they’re all lined up for me, unlike for some people I know.” He continued to pester me, “it’s not my fault that no one wants to fuck you.”

“Are you sure about that?” I was fuming but I didn’t want to lose my composure, “maybe you can ask Jake.” Sunghoon held me by my elbow, trying to prevent me from saying anything more.

“Yeah, Jake would fuck you alright, but that’s it. As if he’d come looking for you again after one night, don’t think so highly of yourself.”

“Jay, stop-“ Jungwon tried to control him, too late though, my anger got the best of me and I slapped Jongseong, hard.

“Okay, we gotta go!” Sunoo forced me out of the building, Sunghoon followed carrying my stuff which he shoved in my backpack.

“That fucking asshole!”

“Im Haeyoon! What the fuck is wrong with you?” Sunoo hit the back of my head lightly as soon as we were out away from the building entrance.

“Didn’t you hear what he just said? He insulted me, Sun!!” I almost yelled, “that fucking manwhore insulted me!”

“Why do guys walk so fast?” Sunghoon suddenly appeared while catching his breath, “what was that about Im Haeyoon?”

“Stop calling me with my legal name assholes!” they took me to the nearby park, and I sat on one of the benches, “he’s getting on my nerves, I don’t even know what his problem is.”

“Bad break up, perhaps?” Sunoo joked, Sunghoon guffawed, my eyes widen, “You’re too guilty!”

“We know, Yoon. Jay told us some bits, when he was drunk, we’ve been meaning to ask you as well.”

“What do you know? Who else knows about this?”

“Well, since Jay is a bad drunk,” Sunghoon admitted, “so he may or may have not told everyone, including Aerin, you know because of Heeseung.”

“Right.” When the information sinks, I buried my face on my hands, “OH.MY.GOD! Park fucking Jongseong!”

“Chill, I somewhat knew.” Sunoo rubbed my back, “the way he looks at you says it all, he’s so inlove with you Yoon.”

“Wait, what?” Did I just hear it correctly?

“You know he didn’t talk to me for a month, right?” Sunghoon said exasperatedly, “he thought that you and I dated.”

“It’s true, I was the first one he drunk confessed to,” Sunoo snickered at the thought, “he said you broke up with him for another guy, that you liked one of his best friends and he can’t do anything about it. It was the week you were at your parents.’"

“Wait, I’m confused. He was never my boyfriend guys. We never dated. Yes, we fucked but that was that.” I tried to explain even if it doesn’t make sense to me, “we were friends with benefits, I didn’t want to tell you guys since things would be awkward.”

Sunghoon sat on the ground, facing me and Sunoo “I only noticed it when he changed. He was always drunk at parties, and flirted with different girls on a daily basis, but he never took anyone home as far as I know.”

“Hard to believe, Hoon. I mean, he plays tonsil hockey with one of the girls in one of our classes, then he flirts with a different one on another. I’m not surprised if he’s contracted STD or something.”

"He never had sex with anyone, Haeyoon. Believe me."

“Didn’t you like him at least? I know you did.” Sunoo urged, waiting for me to answer.

“I did.” I paused, it felt good to have everything off my chest for once, “I really did, but when I saw him kissing that girl at Heeseung’s party, I knew it had to stop, he didn’t see me that way, I totally made a fool out of myself.”

“What? What girl? Did you know about this Sunghoon? Was this the party for Jake?”

“Ah! The girl he was with, I remember. Jay dumped her that same night, then he came looking for you, but you already went home. He wanted to go to you, but we warned him not to drive, he’s already had too much to drink. I think he also tried to call, but you were not picking up.”

“That’s when I started avoiding him, I knew I had to break it off with him. I told him I liked someone else, that’s why I said I liked you, sorry Hoon, I never formally apologised to all of you, I was being selfish that time."

“It’s okay, we all had fun irking Jay. He was so reactive, Jake did have a crush on you, but when he found out your past with Jay, he riled him up for fun, pretending he doesn’t know anything. He’s so jealous of Jake, I think that’s why he reacted that way earlier.” Sunghoon also confessed, while Sunoo's nodding excitedly.

“Hoon is telling the truth, I’ve witnessed it. He walks out if he gets too pissed but will say sorry the next day, saying he doesn’t know what’s gotten into him or that he’s stressed.” Sunoo laughed so hard while saying this, “We were doing this with the hopes that he’d finally confess to you, but he’s too much of a coward, that’s for sure.”

“It’s okay, loves. I’m sure we’ve both moved on, it has been almost a year.”

Or perhaps I thought I did, but with this new found information sparked some unwanted emotions. This could not be happening! Why is it always one step forward, two steps back?

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First of Summer

We've been friends since childhood, until we're not...

Nishumura Riki x OC | friends to enemies to lovers | Oneshot

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-Niki's POV-

Today marks the last day of junior year and I’m all set for summer, nothing specific is planned though, just enrolled some review classes for the upcoming college ability test this November.

For tonight though, it’s the dreaded junior-senior prom. As per the school’s tradition, this is like a send off for the seniors while welcoming the juniors into semi-adulthood.

I, myself, don’t like these social functions—even my friends are all going with their respective dates, I didn’t ask anyone though, it wasn’t deemed necessary. I’m just going since this is the last time I’ll see my favorite seniors, especially Jongseong hyung.

Jongseong hyung, or Jay as everyone calls him, took care of me since freshman year, when I first joined the dance club. He also introduced me to his friends who were part of it, and that made it easier for me. Although, I think, being part of that caused rift between me and his sister, Park Serin.

Serin was my bestfriend growing up—we were basically friends since kindergarten. I didn’t know what happened, but I’m guessing that it’s because we had different interests, we just drifted apart.

The chats in the hallway were reduced to nods, until it came to a point that we were completely ignoring each other.

She became popular, and probably her head ballooned with it. She’s untouchable, especially when her brother is the ever so famous, Park Jongseong.

Her friends are also the worst; everyone was scared of their little group. And it also has been a known issue in our circle how problematic Jay hyung’s sister is, how she’s become a spoiled brat, how she has a bigger allowance than him, and an even better car which was gifted to her by their parents on her 16th birthday.

Speaking of, there she is now at one of the Science labs. Classes have been dismissed early today due to the event this evening, I wonder why she’s still here when everyone must be in their respective homes, getting ready or doing some last minute touch ups.

Unfortunately, I was assigned with the cleaning duties today, which explains why I’m still here. She on the other hand looked glum, and she sat on one of the stools just outside the lab.

Now the problem is, how can I make her leave?

"Excuse me..." I approached her in the nicest way possible, "Serin-ssi, I would need the stool so I can lock up the lab."

"I'm sorry?" she said with an automatic high pitched voice. It's more or less 3 years since I last called her by her name, or rather talked to her.

"I said-" I was ready to repeat what I said, but she cut me off.

"I heard you.” she said icily. "Do I look stupid to you?" she gave me a disgusted looked that says nobody shoos her away.

"Of course not, I wasn’t implying anything!" I said like it was the most obvious thing to say. Maybe she still made me speechless, no one knew that I liked her before.

Without another word, she stood up, kicked the stool away from the both of us, the loud clang sounded through the empty corridors.

"Thanks." I said in a non-sarcastic voice, but somehow it still annoyed her since she gave me a piercing look. "Did you need something else?" I asked, as I looked at her in the same manner.

She just shook her head as a response.

"Good. The place is empty, let me walk you to the parking lot. It's not safe here." I offered, and to my surprise, she agreed.

We walked silently the first few steps, but I had the urge to start a conversation, "are you excited for the prom later?"

"I'm not..." she was too quick to reply accompanied by a frown.

"Why? You're probably going to be the prom queen..."

She became quiet for a minute as she sat on one of the benches that were near the school’s parking lot. "How can you be excited when the people voting for you don't even respect you?"

"What do you mean?" I sat beside her. It somehow reminded of those times that all we did was kill time in each other’s backyard. "Of course, they respect you..."

"More like scared of me!” She scoffs, “That's why they're voting. This may sound to narcissistic but I know I'm the most envied girl in school, but at the same time, I know I'm the most hated." A sigh escaped her lips. "what about you? Were you planning to root for me at all?"

"Of course..." it wasn't a lie per se. I was indeed going to vote for her and I think she's the prettiest of all the nominees.

"For what reason? A prom queen should be someone to represent the school in a good way, not because she's popular or the most envied one, or maybe just because she's rich. She should affect the people's lives in a positive manner, not bully them..."

"You affect them... but only, they get terrified!" I couldn't help but laugh at my lame joke, she did too.

"Nishimura Riki... Do you even want to go to the stupid prom?" she asked me. Serin mentioning my name again, after so long, made me feel giddy. It was the only thing that I needed to realize that I missed her, a lot. I shrugged as I glanced at her..

"Let's play hooky!" she said with a big grin. “Uhm, you don’t have a date, right?”

"I don’t have a date. But for real?"

"Yes! But I'm going to be dead for sure if Jongseong oppa finds out I didn't attend."

"I have an idea..." I offered, as she was all ears. "What if, we don't skip the prom, just be late? What do you say?"

"Sounds like a plan. We're going to be fashionably late!" she giggled. "Come on, lets head home first so you can change into your tux, and I can wear my ridiculous dress.”

We each rushed home, to prep for the evening. Both agreeing that we’ll see each other at 6:30, an hour and a half from now.

Mom thought I was excited for the prom as she took thousands of pictures. I was already frowning big time but she still finds it adorable. Kept asking who my date was and didn't believe a single thing I said when I said I didn't have a date.

Oh great! There's one thing I forgot to ask, her number! Of all the thngs that I had to forget, it was this one essential thing.

I’m not arguing with myself internally on whether to call Jay hyung or not. To call him and risked getting interrogated, or to wait for some miracle to happen and waste time?

My phone then rang, showing an unknown number.

"Hello?"

"Niki... it's me, Serin." the voice on the other line replied.

"I was about to call Jay hyung to get your number." I laughed.

"I stole your number from his phone..." she also laughed. "so where are we going to meet?"

"Shall I pick you up?" I offered. "But I have to tell you, the car I’m driving is an older model, you may not wan to be seen in something old and beat up!” I teased.

"It doesn’t matter, to be honest. I actually don’t care. I just asked my parents for my car so I can piss off Jongseongie oppa!" That surprised me, as I expected another reason. This made me grin unknowingly, my mom looking at me weirdly.

I faced the opposite side just so she wouldn’t see my face, "Great, I'll be there in 20 minutes."

We both hung up as I made my way to the car, trying to avoid any more conversation with my mother.

This is not a date, this is not a date, this is not a date. I kept repeating this to myself as I didn’t want to assume. It’s even more surprising that she didn’t have a date to the prom.  

It took me less than 20 minutes to reach their place, have I driven too fast?

Serin was wearing a light blue dress, the hem of the skirt flowed just above her knee, paired with a strappy high heeled sandals which looked uncomfortable. The whole outfit she put together was not on the conservative side, but on her, it looked elegant. Breathtaking, in fact. She really is.

As a courtesy of course, I went down after I parked my car, and I can tell that Jay hyung was surprised to see me.

"I didn't believe that you’re her date... I thought she was lying."

"I told you oppa, I'm going with Niki..." she whined like a little kid. Cute.

"It's better that you go out with him, since he's a close junior, just don't give him a headache, please. It’s already embarrassing enough to be your brother!" he scolder her. "Niki, take care of my sister, and I'm hoping that you'd be patient with her. " he both pushed us lightly to my car, and we waved our goodbyes before leaving.

"Where are we going?" she was pretty excited when she asked.

"I have no idea..." I confessed. I didn't plan the whole thing, since I wasn't really good at it. She must've sensed my frustration when she spoke.

"It's okay, lets grab some take out first and then I know this place..."

We chatted like old friends while I was driving, she was nothing like the Park Serin that everyone knew from school, tonight, she was just the fun loving, silly girl that I used to be friends with.

After we got the food, she instructed me to drive until we reached a secluded place, which was over looking the city. The air was fresh, far from the city's pollution.

"I often go here when I feel like my life is useless..." she stated. We were both sitting in my car's hood, looking at the city lights, "this place is like my sanctuary..."

She continued to speak without inhibitions, "When we were in our last year of middle school, I felt the pressure. I started to change without even knowing it, until it came to the point that I got lost, and I didn't even know who I was... and after talking to you today, I was reminded of how happy I was back then... so thank you."

Dumbstruck was the perfect word to describe me at this moment, I didn't know what to say. This was the person that I fell in love with before. She was the Serin that I knew... the one I’ve always admired.

"Why are you looking at me like that?" she tilted her head, her clueless expression was so inviting.

And this made me realize that I never really stopped liking her. I just became contented with looking at her from afar.

"Nothing..."

"Oh come on!"

"It's just that..." I didn't finish my sentence, instead I touched her cheeks, then slowly lowered my face to hers and kissed her. I can tell that she was pretty shocked at first, but she slowly reciprocated.

"I've always wanted to do that..." I admitted, "but I never had the chance."

She rested her head on my shoulder, "you should've done that before... I needed a wake up call."

"Are you kidding? You were so high and mighty in school, I even thought you've forgotten about me."

"Well... not really, but the people around me made me feel like I had no life back then. I hate the idea that I had to give in with the peer pressure."

"It's okay Serin, at least we're good now... I wish we could jut stay like this."

"Idiot, we can't. We still have to go to the prom..."

I frowned, "Why?"

"Because I want to show you off!"

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Time passed by so quickly that when we got to the prom, it was just in time for the announcement of the prom king and queen. The school principal was the one who announced it, but it wasn't Serin.

We were standing in the middle of the crowd, giving an applause along with the rest of the students, I initially thought that Serin would be disappointed, but I was wrong--she was smiling from ear to ear with the look of contentment plastered on her pretty face

"Serin! I thought you wouldn’t' make it!" one of her friends approached us, "what are you doing with him?" The said friend looked at me from head to foot, repulse evident in her eyes.

"Well, I'm here, aren't I?" Serin snapped, "and Niki is my date. Now if you'll excuse us."

“Was that okay?” I probed as she dragged me to the dance floor, “I mean she’s still your friend…”

“Ah, the friend that spreads baseless rumors about me.” She then wrapped her arms around my neck as we found our spot and started slow dancing as Butterfly by The Boyz started playing.

She tiptoed a little and gave me a kiss on my right cheek, and gave me a smile. I panicked internally when I realized that we were in front of the whole senior class, and I was right when I saw Jay hyung and the others looking at me.

“Jay hyung is going to kill me!” I muttered, when she heard she looked around instantly finding her brother staring at the both of us.

“Oh he’ll live with it!” she rolled her eyes and gave me another kiss, this time on the lips. “I want to see him try though!”

This is going to be the most interesting summer of my life!

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A Stolen Glance

I've liked him since God knows when, and I feel that he likes me too... he does, right?

Lee Juyeon x OC | Drabbles | Oneshot

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Juyeon… his name just gives me goose bumps, but in a good way. I have nothing but dislike for this guy, yet, as time passes, these feelings have changed to something of the opposite.

When we were younger, he would always make fun of me, which made me loathe him, but now, I somehow wish that he’d still do that, as I’m looking forward to the attention.

“Hey Mina, I missed Calc earlier. Could I borrow your notes?” he approached one Monday, and I gladly gave him my notes, no further questions asked.

“Thanks, I can really rely on you.”

Now I’m blushing again. Good thing he’s no longer here and he wouldn’t see how smitten I was. Nobody knew that I’ve been crushing on him since God knows when, well except for Sunwoo. Hell if I know it would end this way. Oh this pathetic one sided crush, the hate that turned into admiration. Seriously, I think I might even be in love with him.

We have been classmates since the fifth grade and each time I catch him staring at me, I would quickly stick my tongue out or probably give him childish threats and he’d just laugh. And now, I’m actually longing for those stares and the exchange that comes after.

How I’m moving on from this, I did not know.

Things are different now that we’re in high school, he ended up as one of the popular kids in our year, I, on the other hand was like a commoner.

“Why won’t you just tell him?” Sunwoo asked me as we were walking to the staff room of the school paper. “You are very good with words, I’m just not sure why you’re suddenly at lost for words when it comes to Lee Juyeon. I don’t think that there’s anything special in him anyway.”

“You don’t understand.” Neither did I, actually. Sunwoo was right with one thing though, I don’t know what the fuss is with him, but I’m infatuated, unfortunately. “You’re just as bad as Hyun Ji.” Oh yeah, Hyun Ji’s is my cousin, she’s the popular one.

Before I can come inside the room, I felt a hand on my shoulder. I was a bit stunned when I looked at the person who did, it was him! “Mina… Can I talk to you… alone?” I signaled for Sunwoo to go in without me.

“Be quick, you know the meeting won’t start without you.”

“I know.” I waved my hand dismissively. This is one of the moments where I hate being the editor-in-chief for our school paper.

I followed Juyeon meekly, and when we were completely isolated, I prompted. “Well?”

“Uh… yeah. This may seem awkward…”

My heart was beating faster now, is he going to confess? Is he going to tell me that he has been admiring me since before? I’m out of air.

“Yes?” I calmly asked.

“Well… you see…”

“Just say it.” I couldn’t hold on the suspense any longer.

“Okay… here goes. Can you…”

“Yes.” I blurted.

“You’re agreeing? I didn’t even say anything yet!”

I laughed at my stupidity, “Sorry! What is it.”

“Thank you.” He handed me a piece of folded paper, “can you pass this on to Hyun Ji? I really wanted to ask her out.”

A letter. I was dumbfounded, I think my mouth have been hanging open.

“Please tell her that I’ll wait for her call. Thank you, Mina, you’re the best!” He gave me a quick hug then he left, not before giving me the most adorable smile. I hope he can’t hear my heart breaking right at this exact moment.

My feet were glued to the ground, I didn’t know whether to laugh or cry because of my delusions! Oh well, Juyeon – 1, Mina – 0.

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Why I like you

A year into the relationship when Yeoreum starts to doubt everything, and now she wants nothing more than just to end it.

Jake Sim x OC | Drabbles | Oneshot

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18 months and counting, I've in this relationship for that long, but I've thinking about ending it today. When you think about it, there’s no perfect relationship, but the one I’m in right now is something that one would never want, not in this lifetime.

Jake and I met when we shared a class in Maths, never saw him as someone whom I’d date as I had my eyes set on his friend, Park Jongseong.

When he asked me out to have coffee, that’s when things changed. I was smitten and couldn’t stop thinking about him after that.

The guy was hilarious and I never thought that we’d have so much in common, plus we always had fun whenever we went out, no awkward silence, no boring moments. When he asked me to be his girlfriend after a few weeks, I didn’t hesitate, I instantly said yes.

The relationship started to feel dry, noncommittal and stagnant. It now feels suffocating to be with him, until it came to a point where I wanted to end things with him, I just didn’t know how. The lingering feeling of wanting to be single again has been ongoing for almost a couple of months now.

As we speak, I’m making my way to their shared apartment, where he was expecting me and I don’t think he has an idea that I’m about to break up with him. I’m going to take my time going there, I wanted to be sure that this is what I really wanted.

You ask me why?

Here are the reasons:

1. He annoys the hell out of me. I’m not a morning person per se, and he calls me every damn morning just to be sure that I’m already up and ready to go to school. He even acts like I’m a damned kid that he has to take care of. Please, I have my own life and I know very well that I can take care of myself. Is it even right that the first voice I hear in the morning is always his?!

2. He’s not serious. Every time I want to talk about something important or something that is really grave, he’d always, ALWAYS make fun of the situation, or me. He says I’m taking things way seriously and I should lighten up a bit. I get that he’s playful and light hearted, but he should know when to be serious.

3. He never backs me up! I swear, he just doesn’t. Every time I had to face my biggest fear – which is speaking in front of thousands, or fine, hundreds of people, I freak out… if not, I freeze and end up humiliating myself. But since we started dating, things started to be different, as he acts like it’s not a big deal I end up getting so annoyed that I forget how I did with the speech.

4. His friends are weird! I know I shouldn’t involve his friends, but it’s just too much! There’s Sunghoon who’s also one of his roommates, and he’s like Jake’s go to person, but whenever those two are together, you can expect that nothing good will come out of it. There’s also Sunoo who has this unhealthy fixation for all things cute, and Jungwon who always starts arguments because he’s just too tactless for his own good. Niki who’s so clingy and couldn’t do anything without Jake, Jongseong and his unmatched temper, and Heeseung who can’t keep a secret to save his life – HIS FRIENDS ARE TOO MUCH! Yet, I don’t have the heart to tell him to stay away from him just because they make him happy.

5. I hate his smile. Yeah, I hate it. Before it was one of the reasons why I fell for him, but now he uses that smile to woo me, I sometimes have this urge to wipe it off his face, maybe because it makes you feel weak and helpless. If he smiles at you, you wouldn’t have any strength to say no, and it’s true – especially when he smirks, God that lovely smirk!

The elevator dinged and it broke my thoughts. I’m a nervous wreck as I stepped out to the hallway and made my way to their dorm.

I stopped for a few seconds before ringing their doorbell, I sighed. This is it.

Jake was the one who opened the door, and he wasn’t smiling either. “Do you want to come in? Is there something wrong Yeoreum?” he asked, for some reason, he too looked tense.

I shook my head, he took it as a sign and stepped out the door, lightly closing it behind him… I have to say it. I called him earlier and told him that we needed to talk, I don’t know if he had an idea though.

But then I looked into his eyes and analyzed his worried expression, all the reasons why I hated him started to flood me.

He annoys the hell out of me because of his morning calls – this makes me smile every morning. This makes me look forward to my day. The exchange of the sweet nothings is what fuels me to do things with a smile.

On him not serious, if he didn’t make me laugh the first time we talked, I wouldn’t even be interested in him. Plus, the way he handles the relationship, it was fun. Up until now, I wouldn’t even realize that we’ve been together for year, because time passes by quickly when I’m with him. He makes me enjoy life more, regardless of the fact that he’s not taking things seriously, I know he still listens to me and he’s never let me handle any of those problems alone.

This is like a wakeup call; how can I even think that he’s not supporting me? He had always been there for me; Jake is the reason why my confidence grew. The way he cheers me on to do thing that I never once dreamt of doing, I’ve succeeded because I knew I had him with me, and I felt so powerful and so self-assured, because at the back of my head, I know he’s there and he will always be there.

I’ve always loved his friends, and I know they are an odd bunch but everyone has their own things, my friends not so different. And why do I even question their existence? They love my Jake like family, like a brother, they do take care of each other – I should be thankful for that!

Lastly, his smile – that one thing that made me fall for him…

There’s no way to fool myself, I love him, and it’s been growing ever since, I never have loved him less. The problem was just me; I am scared to be contented. A lot has changed in me because of him.

I looked at him again, anxiety is still obvious on his face. Who am I kidding, I could never break up with him, I could never hurt him – I love this guy to death, even if he’s full of imperfections, he’s still Sim Jaeyun, my Jake. I love him because he’s he.

He pursed his lips together and again, it showed his almost smile, which I couldn’t resist – I flung my arms around him and hugged him, I felt his whole body start to relax.

“Yeoreum… I had this crazy thought that you would break up with me…” he said and returned my hug.

I hid my smile… Jake, you never knew what hell I’ve been going through since last night thinking that I’m going to end things with you today.

“I’m just glad that it’s not that…” he continued and laughed.

“Don’t worry, there’s no way I’m leaving you…”

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