> It's a rather long read...
Well, It's a fresh start for little old me... Things were... Kind of dark before but, maybe now I can move on from that little incident.
So what if I kinda went a little loopy... So what if he doesn't love me, Doesn't mean we can't still be friends.... Besides, I have my best buddies here so. Maybe things won't be so bad.
Every time I see those two together I just want to... That was the happiness I was supposed to share, but of course mister perfect took it away from me. God look at me... I'm so petty and pathetic...
It's been a while since I last wrote here but... Somethings happened. I met this girl today... She seems pretty nice... Somehow she knew what I was feeling... She called this feeling despair... It's not pleasant but, this girl, let's call her H for now... she told me there were others like me that felt this kind of despair... She offered me a chance to join her in some crazy plan, and honestly, I'm thinking it might be a good idea. H said that maybe I could find a way to get back at... "Him" for making me feel this way. It's certainly a good proposition. But I think I'll ask my BFF if they wanna join too, besides, I gotta make sure they're safe from whatever it is she's planning.
They Called me Crazy... Hell they wondered what I was even thinking! I asked them not to tell anyone but... But they said they had to, for my own good. I told H about it and she said she'd have it all taken care of. But I don't even know what they means! I hope to god she doesn't do what I think she's gonna do.
I... I haven't heard from them in a while... I have no idea where to-
I just heard some students running in the hallways... They were saying something about a body...
No... No they couldn't...
No.... No no no no no no no no no no no no no
NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO
She said she wouldn't... She was just...
No... I just... Why... Why why WHY!?
They were the last great thing I had in my life... And now they're gone...
This.... This is what Despair is... what it truly is....
.... This feeling it's so... So....
I know exactly what I'm going to do now... People thought they could step all over me, but not any more. All I need to do is get "Him" out of the way, and get that head over heels in love little twerp to help me.
Just gotta pull the strings a bit with H but... If all goes to plan, I'll have my way.
The world will know my name.
They will know my fury, my hatred.
They'll feel my TRUE DESPAIR!!!