this is the third iteration of my introduction to the studyblr community because life got in the way twice before (I went to a different country for two months and saw so many cats it was crazy) and completely stopped posting both times lol
but now everything has settled into a routine (so far. not to jinx it or anything-) and I'm ready to return :D
I am officially a university student! no one is more surprised than me, trust me, but I'm here, a fledgling compsci engineering student, and I'm very happy about it!
I'm now in my third semester, and still thriving!! :]]
that's mostly the gist of it! here's more information!
about me:
he/they
south asian (indian)
pisces
pretty sure I have executive dysfunction and autism π
will offer up my soul for a Monster energy drink
really like the color yellow and pink, I think they're neat :]
interests, hobbies and everything in between:
i fucking love physics but im horrendous at it (and swearing im sorry in advance-)
drawing (amateur but I'm trying to learn via youtube)
reading (mostly fanfiction, I'm in so many fandoms its awesome, but open to every genre)
writing (again, fanfiction, huge procrastinator, unhealthy obsession with metaphors)
music (unapologetic swiftie, but I do listen to tons of other - mostly mainstream - artists)
why did I make this blog?
for motivation! I have a severe lack of it and am scrounging up multiple, different sources of it!
to keep track of things! I'm very scatterbrained, and despite having like two different facilities to remember stuff!
my best friend @somniphobicfox is a force of nature who also has a studyblog (@a-fox-studies) and I can't and won't say no to her
things to expect:
updates on my progress with studying and random rants about the subject matter
my subjects include: math, analog and digital electronics, java programming language, data structures in c and operating systems
pictures of my study space and the music I'm listening to.
the colors pink and yellow, because I'm kinda adopting the 'lack of aesthetic as an aesthetic' avenue with this - I'm really hopeless there - so you'll see a lot of posts with no structure at all or sometimes with too much structure
the lack of consistency is also an aesthetic - I blame the autism for both of these things
finally the weird punctuation pattern is intentional and I'm sorry if it bothers you
studyblrs that inspire me:
(still) pretty new here, so I only know a few, @a-fox-studies @notetaeker @problematicprocrastinator @ckmstudies @rambles-in-stem @thestudywithmeblog @studydiariesofaru @math-markers
Thank you for reading, and I hope my posts are consistent and able to inspire!! I'm sure I'll have a lovely time in this cozy community :)
(if you're confused that some of the reblogs talk about NEET its because this is a repurposed intro! for context, I started this blog when I was studying for a medical entrance exam, and when that didn't work out I'm now doing uh, engineering! classic desi pipeline honestly-)
(I'm claiming the tag #axythings for my posts and my main blog is @tazlory [there might be nsfw beware] where I'm chaotic and wild)
Another day another opportunity to get stuff done! Today is a beautiful day and on the way to the library I saw so many tourists from all over the world, hearing all kinds of languages while walking the streets and it was very nice. A lot of them have been visiting the library too ever since I got here
π steps: 3715 / 3000 β
π productivity: 12h / 1h β
π prompt of the day: β
I've been so busy with final exams that I completely forgot about posting lmao. I studied so much, pulled all nighters for literally every single exam it's so exhausting.
My birthday happened! I'm 20 now, and honestly birthdays don't feel special anymore. I guess that's part of growing up, it's just another day. Mom got me new plants though, so I guess I'm a plant mom again haha (the pic is from when I was trying to unpack the pots in my balcony, we ignore the almost dying plant in the background, I tried my best T-T)
I've been chugging so much coffee I hate it. But I don't think I would have survived without caffeine I'll be honest. It tastes so bad but desperate times call for desperate measures i guess T-T
At this rate I've given up on getting good grades, I just want to pass all my subjects. Chronic illness and burnout does that to you. I can't wait to get over with uni next year. Final year is sucking my soul out frfr
Well that's all the updates for now! I still have a couple of exams β on the dec 26th, jan 1st, 3rd, 10th, 12th and the 27th (yeah i know it's a lot the burnout is gonna be baddddd) but I'm honestly so done with this semester and can't wait for the next one even though I'm dreading it just a tiny bit (final year project, finishing two certificate courses, internships, etc) but I got this! I'll focus on getting through exam season rn.
Prompt of the day: something I could do for myself is...
I could give myself some grace. I don't have to bear it all alone and I can ask for help. It's okay to ask for help and communicate differences and misunderstandings without keeping it all to myself in fear of being dismissed. I need to be gentle with myself and listen to my body's needs. Oh, and also eat less kitkats coz goddamn I forget I'm diabetic sometimes XD
robotics is kicking my ass today. also i have a lab christmas dinner tomorrow and i have no idea what to buy for my secret santa π chat we are so cooked
in other news, spotify wrapped arrived and my results suprised absolutely no one. short entry today, bc honestly my day was just kinda uneventful
prompt of the day: habits that helped me go through the year
coffee and meds LMAO. but really, im not a person who can stick to habits, maybe the thing i can count as a habit was reading more. i tried to do it on a daily basis, and while i didn't achieve that, i know i managed at least once a week which is already great
β¨οΈ Daily Card: 5 of Wands
π Read: 6 pages of Knight and the Moth
π Productive: Linux Exam!
Today my only goal was to finally do my Linux exam so I can move forward with other classes. I passed!
Still about a class behind, so next up is to meet with my instructor about QA and start advanced java.
Prompt of the Day: habits or routines that helped me get through this year
my sleep schedule has been mostly steady on my current meds and that's let me make appointments a lot easier, makes plans, have a bit of structure
I really don't have much routine or habits overall though, hoping that's something I find in the upcoming year
awful no good horrible terrible stupid day. its only been two days since this started. it is what it is
highlights:
I woke up at 8:30am π. I did get ready in less than ten minutes though and actually arrived in time for my first class so that was a win.
but then again all I did today was attend my classes. that's all I had in me to do lmao. 8 hours of uni today π
my brain didn't let me get out of bed so I just slept at 7pm and woke up at 2am lol
statistics:
prompt of the day: habits or routines that helped me get through this year...
I am genuinely too mentally ill to be consistent with any habits or routines so my answer for this is like. all of them. all of them in some form or way has helped me get through the year lol
unfortunately I still need to figure it out, because this past year has been alot of working myself to burnout and then survive burnout and then rinse and repeat because life doesn't wait for you to recover.
fun day today. had class, went to the lab, hung out with a lot of people. Overall it was nice, tho im kinda going insane over one specific software that's not downloading to the new computer, and i don't understand since it worked fine on the other one π
prompt of the day: my life improved last year thanks to:
a lot of things honestly. finally opening up to my sister about some of my struggles and letting her help me, prioritizing doing things that i love and working hard not to feel guilty for not being productive all the time. also my friends ofc.
oh and started to put myself out there and not fear getting rejected - that's how i got my research fellowship! (another great improvement in my life for sure πΈlmao)
β¨οΈ Daily Card: The Star
π Read: 25 pages of Annihilation (Finished!)
π Productive: 1hr class, errands, psychiatrist apt
I worked a little bit on class but I was stuck so I finally sent an email asking for clarification. Mostly, I went out to run errands and get drinks with a friend. I tried one of their seasonal drinks, and early grey with white chocolate that I thought was pretty good. I also went on a walk while we have nice and cold weather.
Tomorrow, I hope to finally take my linux exam. I've been waiting for a good time to take it and I will be glad to get it off my plate. I also need to meet with an instructor about said class I'm stuck on (QA) so I can do the the two tasks for it. A bit behind pace, but I'm sure I can catch back up.
Prompt of the Day: my life improved this past year thanks to...
Honestly, my meds win this category in a landslide. It was like my brain was on fire, and they slowly put it out. Not crying all the time really is a life improvement. Technically I got on both of them sometime in 2024, but they did a lot of work in the first quarter of this year.
I've been able to play games often (which is genuinely revolutionary), read a lot, worked a bit on crochet and sewing, just overall engage in hobbies again. And like actually being able to talk to people. And do things that are scary without having a meltdown.
getting my steps in (-) my period started and my tummy hurted so bad
vitamins β
reading for leisure βοΈ
avoid junk foodβοΈ
administration stuff βοΈ
the ICU is blessedly empty so i can do my administrative stuff without worry. when thatβs done i read my cousin rachel and wow, this guy is such a manchild. i took one (1) phone call from the operation room and thatβs it. i still feel so tired when i end my shift at 9 pm so idk what is it thatβs going on with me.
day 2 reflection: my year improved thanks to no longer being a student, i think π i love my university and i love the city i spent such a long time studying in, but as a worker i have an upper limit of work hours. and it turns out that i looooove doing nothing
π steps: 1914 / 3000 β
π productivity: 6h / 1h β
π prompt of the day: β
Today i got to my desk two hours earlier than yesterday which is a win lol. I also had a sore throat which was frustrating. But eh.
I finished one chapter in data mining! I was able to focus because I taped @nanthegirl to my wall and she was watching over me XDDD. I also read some more of my book, I'm loving it a lot!! The characters are perfectly flawed and very lovable, and the stakes are satisfyingly high. Love a book like that :))
Prompt of the day: my life improved this past year thanks to...
Its hard for me to recollect the "improvements" that I've had this year, but off the top of my head I'm having more will power to face the challenges in my life. And obviously, that's all thanks to my lovely friends who never fail to support me and be there for me when I need it. I also want to thank myself as well, because I made the conscious decision to make my life better. And I'm proud of myself for it.
woke up at 5:30am again wooo!! I was really groggy but I worked on a very easy assignment for an hour which woke me up properly
I was apparently the only one to do the assignment in my class so my professor was proud of me :D
I baked oatmeal today for breakfast! it was meh? I mean it is meant to be eaten with toppings and I didn't have any except for peanut butter so that's on me
only 4 hours of uni today thank goddd
I live in bum-ass nowhere town so I had to go to a very specific grocery store to get imported things such as lettuce. there was no lettuce. I have been craving a chicken sandwich with lettuce for weeks. pain
that was the beginning of all the disasters that followed lmao
so I got into a very stupid accident that dented and ripped out the bumper of my car (its a lot less dramatic than it sounds) and dealing with it was stressing me out
while I was dealing with it though, my housekeeper dropped my CPU. like it went splat on the floor really hard. it didn't switch on and started beeping. my computer guy was on vacation and said he wouldn't be back in 3 days. i may have had a mental breakdown anyways-
I handled it though!! I looked like a deer in headlights most of the time but I dealt with it!! all alone!!
and then fixed the CPU with my dad on call!! I didn't do much, just poked around on the inside but it worked so that's a win in my book!!!
all of that tired me out though so even though I had like an hour left in the day to study I was just chilling instead so I didn't reach my study goals π
statistics:
similar hours as yesterday but not enough time spent studying π
prompt of the day: my life improved this past year thanks to...
a major change to my life this year was that I began living alone, with my family a country away.
yes it was incredibly daunting and lonely at first but it genuinely gets so much better
it was kind of a dream-come true because the independence I got from it was something I've been craving since my teen years and I knew it would make my life alot easier and happier which it did!
look at her doing another challenge even tho she gave up on the last one after 2 days XD. but this is a special challenge, bc it's the first one im posting with my new laptopppp (yes, all my posts are written on my laptop, sue me). so it's going to be way easier now for me to post
today was pretty chill, studied some maths, finally finished moving everything and installing everything to my new laptop, and worked a little on my thesis project. and did a lot of sudoku's, this is becoming a real problem lmao
prompt of the day: something im looking forward to
until the end of the year im really excited for some plans i have with my friends (both irl and online), as well as the new season of percy jackson coming out next week!!!
as for 2026, i don't want to jinx it already, but im so excited for so many things! especially finishing my degree, which feels like a lifetime away rn, like wdym this all is going to be over soon?π
β¨οΈ Daily Card: Page of Cups
π Read: 22 pages of Annihilation
π Productive: DMV appointment to renew my license
I had to go to the dmv today to renew my license and that took most of my strength. It was just emotionally really draining because I was really nervous, and then had to wait like 1.5hrs while nervous. But I survived and now it's done.
also included is the prompt list I curated. I did pull a lot from one list, but softened questions to be less personal so we can share, and also added around 10-14 questions.
Prompt of the Day: something I'm excited for...
I'm planning a trip for my birthday in January! It's going to be hobby themed, so reading, board games, crochet, etc. I got really inspired by seeing people do book retreats, and then went wait I can do that myself. just a weekend with close friends doing hobbies together :)
avoid junk food (-) the coffee cream soda was on discount ....
administration stuff will be done on 2nd dec when i have no ER
day 1 reflection: what am i excited about? this month mostly the newly found thrill of independence in clinical setting. and i do really love the art of diagnosis!
