Studio_Aro_Ace

Trying to express my feelings about being Aro Ace though my art

[studio-aro-ace]

A Different Kind of Ever-after Part 1: Denial

[studio-aro-ace]

A Different Kind of Ever-after

Part 2: Bargening

[studio-aro-ace]

A Different Kind of Ever-After Part 3: Acceptance

[fence-time]

I think the worst part about being on the aro-ace spectrum is knowing you’ll probably never be anyone’s first choice. Like. I love my friends and I’d like to think they still love me, but compared to their partners (current or hypothetical future ones) I’ll always be at least second. And it’s fine, I don’t expect to be above someone who they love so much they want to spend the rest of their life with, but just knowing every allo person is a first choice to someone else and I never will be? ,,, kinda sucks,, :/

[aro-culture-is]

neurodivergent aro culture is "Am I hyperfixating on them or is it actually a crush" (you're hyperfixating on a person)

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[studio-aro-ace]

Cupioromantic: Someone who desires a romantic relationship but does not experience romantic attraction.

I have always been a romantic growing up. Watching so many movies and series for the relationships in it. I have probably read over 5x the amount of fanfiction as I have read books total. I have been a major shipper since I knew what that was.

I always wanted something like they have. But looking back I could never picture anyone. I was never imagining my own wedding. I have no image in my head for who I would see at the end of the aisle but always what it would feel like. I am in love with the idea the love. The concept of it. How it would and should feel.

It took a while for me to realize and even longer to accept it. I’m still struggling to accept it. The realization that I don’t feel these feelings hasn’t changed that I do still desire them.

I do not know what my future will look like. No matter how hard I wish I can’t make a time machine into the future. But I would tell my younger self that every is turning out alright and to not stress so much. So I’m sure my older self would do the same for me now.

[studio-aro-ace]

This is one of the first pages for this project.

It’s based on the kind of relationship I wish to have in the future. I don’t want grand romantic gestures and makeout sessions. I just want to be the first person they think to tell when something happens. Doesn’t matter how insignificant it is. Every cute bug they see on a walk, every annoying person in the bus and every cup of tea.

That I the kind of love I want.

[crystalline-clangen]

ok i gotta complain rq

I mentioned that i’m never gonna date anyone (im aroace) and my parents were like “you can’t say absolutes like that at your age like you never know!” and i asked whether they’d say the same thing if i was lesbian and said “i’m never going to date a man” and my dad couldn’t answer and my mom said “that’s not the same thing”

[studio-aro-ace]

Recently i have read the book Loveless from Alice Oseman. I never expected for it to resonate so strongly with me. For the first time in years i felt like i knew who i am and what i felt. I felt so understood reading it.

This painting is part of the zine I made based on a quote from the book I heard myself thinking way too often.

“I didn’t even know what was wrong. Everything. Myself. I didn’t know. How come everyone else could function and I couldn’t? How could everyone live properly yet I had some sort of error in my programming?”

~ Alice Oseman, Loveless

That feeling like you’re not normal. That something is broken. That you lack something the rest of the world does have.

Finally having the words you can use to describe these feelings is so powerful. The realization that you aren’t broken and have a whole community around you that can see you for who you really are and what you feel.

This is why representation is so important

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[studio-aro-ace]

Hi! Welcome to my Acc!

My name is Aidi! I use they/them pronouns and I am Aro Ace!

I have had a lot of mixed feelings during my time of figuring out who I am and that I’m aroace and I want to out those thoughts and feelings through my art.

I’d love to hear everyone’s thoughts and feelings on the topic. And if you have any specific experiences you would like me to make let me know :))