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Updated muse list !!!
Marvel: Logan [Wolverine] , Wade Wilson [Deadpool] , Frank Castle [ Punisher] , Thor Odinson, Bucky Barnes [Winter Solider], Steve Rogers [Captain America], and Robert "Bob" Renynolds [Sentry/The Void]
Stranger Things: Eddie Munson, Billy Hargrove, Steve Harrington, and Jim Hopper
Walking Dead: Rick Grimes & Daryl Dixon
Misc. Muse: Dean Winchester & Din Djarin
"I love women. I've...always loved women."
9-1-1 | 7x05: You Don't Know Me
"I love women. I've...always loved women."
9-1-1 | 7x05: You Don't Know Me
ANALOG HORRORļ½OFFICIAL STATEMENT FROM HAWKINS
well, the sequel is steve found him and took him home.Now theyve got each other, they can fix each other. Live happy ever after(winkwink
MUN: Might be sporadic replying this week. About to be taking on extra hours at work. So might not be on as much. But I really need the overtime. Just wanted to let everyone know.
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Retirement and Romance [ closed with @star-spangled-rogers ]
Bucky bites his lip. " Are you sure about this....It's really fancy." He said as he adjusted his suit jacket.
It was date night. They'd been together for a few months now. After years of pining and finally confessing their love. Steve and Bucky were together. As they had always wanted to be.
Tonight was date night and Steve had told Bucky tonight was a very special night.
Bucky groaned. He bites Steve's lips playfully. " You're so hot when you swear." He said kissing down his body as he laid him down. He moved to work him open.
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Marie had been going to the hospital alone for monthsā¦ different arrays of flowers in beautiful bouquets in her arms that always ended up going to the ward nurse instead of the intended recipient. ā youāre a stubborn son of a bitchā¦ you know that?ā She murmured softly to the unconscious man as she sat down in the uncomfortable leather chair in the corner of the hospital room.
She had met Billy Hargrove in the spring of ā84.. he was new in town and every girl wanted a piece of new meat; especially when it was tan and utterly delicious. He had come into the florist by the VHS store and they hit it off immediately. Light chatter and bickering like they had known each other for years instead of just meeting. They were only friends thoughā¦ she didnāt know the turmoil in his chest and he didnāt know her own until he became harsh and closed off; inevitably pushing her away until the mall collapsed, nearly killing him.
She was his only visitor after a month. Max came in when she could but she didnāt stay longer than 30 minutes until she was running off. Marie would sit by his bed for hours though catching him up on all the gossip and his sweet baby camero which she had been slowly paying to get repaired. ā you know something crazy? Mr wheeler came into the shop the other day and brought some flowers for his wife. Does he even know she was going to cheat on him?ā
"Okay. I didn't want you to think you had to give us space." Billy tells her as Max nodded digging into her food.
" This is really good."
Dean blinked, taking in his surroundings. He had been hot on the trail of a witch that had been hurting people. He had almost caught her when there was a flash of light and he rushed through a ---portal?
He looked around; sun bright and in his eyes. He squinted not noticing where he was. He ends up running right into someone. . " Shit! Sorry!" He blinked, eyes going white. " You're Captain America!?!"
Dean takes a step back. Where was he? How was this possible! Captain America was just a comic book...he wasn't real.
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" Oh man...There's: Guns N Roses, Mƶtley CrĆ¼e, Def Leppard, Bon Jovi,Poison, Ratt, Warrant, Skid Row, Whitesnake, Metallica."
He snarled, blood on his muzzle. How could he have been so fucking stupid! He'd been alive for eons; only to fall on his own trap.
Blood pooled in his fur, he had gotten the blade out but the wound was deep. He managed to make it a good distance but his vision was swimming. He collapsed as everything went dark.
@fan-maddson
" You don't need to worry. He's happy.." Daryl assured her. He moved placing a kiss to the top of her head. " Drink then rest."
@stuffandthangsandangelwings starter
Marie had been going to the hospital alone for monthsā¦ different arrays of flowers in beautiful bouquets in her arms that always ended up going to the ward nurse instead of the intended recipient. ā youāre a stubborn son of a bitchā¦ you know that?ā She murmured softly to the unconscious man as she sat down in the uncomfortable leather chair in the corner of the hospital room.
She had met Billy Hargrove in the spring of ā84.. he was new in town and every girl wanted a piece of new meat; especially when it was tan and utterly delicious. He had come into the florist by the VHS store and they hit it off immediately. Light chatter and bickering like they had known each other for years instead of just meeting. They were only friends thoughā¦ she didnāt know the turmoil in his chest and he didnāt know her own until he became harsh and closed off; inevitably pushing her away until the mall collapsed, nearly killing him.
She was his only visitor after a month. Max came in when she could but she didnāt stay longer than 30 minutes until she was running off. Marie would sit by his bed for hours though catching him up on all the gossip and his sweet baby camero which she had been slowly paying to get repaired. ā you know something crazy? Mr wheeler came into the shop the other day and brought some flowers for his wife. Does he even know she was going to cheat on him?ā
The red head slowly pulled away; looking up at her stepbrother. " You had me really scared, Billy. I'm sorry I didn't visit more. But I'm really glad you're okay."
" Hey it's okay. I don't blame you...Max. I want to apologize for everything. For what happened. For what I did." She glanced over at Marie. Not knowing he'd told her in a way what had happened.
Max hugged Billy again. " It's not your fault. None of it. I'm sorry I didn't know--that we didn't get to you sooner....that that thing got to you."
He shakes his head; quick to assure her this time. " Max. Don't--okay? I don't blame you. I'm not --What happened to me--I wasn't--the best guy around. It was only a matter of time something happened to me." He bites his lip. " Come on...dinner is ready. Come sit down." He tells her.
Max looked over at Marie again. " Need help ?" She offered.
Marie had stayed quiet and didnāt listen in as they reunited. She focused on dishing up dinner and pouring out some glasses of water before Max spoke to her. She turned her head and gave a warm smile to the red head, shaking her head no, ā itās okay, you guys chat. Foods ready anyways.ā She assured.
She set two plates down for them and their glasses before nodding towards her bedroom in the back of the trailer. ā let me know if you need anything? Iāll be back there.ā
Max frowned. " You don't wanna eat with us ? We don't mind."
Billy nodded. " There's no reason you can't join us. "
Max nodded. " Besides it's your house. We're just guests." The redhead stated looking to Billy.
" Marie. Eat with us. Please? " He asked hopeful. They'd caught up, said what needed to be said.
The Hawkins High gym was packed tightātoo many bodies, too much breath, not enough air. Faces blurred together beneath buzzing fluorescent lights: neighbors, classmates, strangers who had lived parallel lives until the town broke open and shoved them into the same room. Some had lost people. Some had lost homes. Some had lost pieces of themselves. Hawkins had been fractured twice overāfirst by whispered deaths no one could explain, then by the night the earth split wide and swallowed what it pleased.
The gym was supposed to be a refuge. It felt more like a holding cell.
She was one of the lucky ones. She always had been. A house still standing. A family still breathing. A smile sheād been taught to wear like armorābright, practiced, reassuring. Everyone assumed sheād be fine. That she was fine. But tonight wasnāt about her neat survival. It was about stitching something broken back together, even if the seams showed.
She stood behind the donations table, fingers absently sorting canned goods, eyes drifting instead. The crowd moved in uneven wavesāmurmured conversations, flinching silences, people glancing over their shoulders as if the walls might listen. Everyone was searching for something. Or someone. Proof that the town hadnāt taken everything.
Her gaze kept lifting, betraying her.
She was looking for the boy they whispered about.
The one teachers avoided saying aloud. The one whose name had turned sharp in peopleās mouths. Sheād known him long before the rumors, long before fear rewrote him into something monstrous. She knew him as loud laughter echoing down hallways, as wild hair and band shirts and a presence that felt too big for Hawkins to contain. He had never looked at her long enough to really see herāwhy would he? Sheād been just another cheer uniform in a sea of them.
But she had seen him. For years. From the margins where curiosity felt dangerous and sympathy felt like rebellion.
And when the gym doors finally opened again, she held her breathābecause if he walked in now, everything would change.
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He moaned lowly, hands resting on her hips. " That it does....but we should stop for now. " he said the water from the tub splashing.
Honestly, it was a wonder he'd made it out this far. He was pretty banged up. He had a deep wound in his side that he'd made a make shift bandage for. It wasn't like he could go to any hospital.
Frank had alot of people after him. Currently, he was laying low. He'd cleaned up the streets but everyone was looking for him.
That's how he found himself ten states away, pulling his truck off the road into a heavily wooded area.
No one would find him here and he could rest for a little while.
He turned off the truck, moving to stretch out in the cab. He winced, planning on his next move. He checked on his side. " Damn it..." he grumbled seeing some of his sitching had popped. With that he moved to get out of the truck.
@fan-maddson
Frank kissed her. " I won't. I know you're not. I'm ready....I'll miss them. I'll always miss my baby girl and my boy---But it doesn't mean I don't want a family with you."
"Winter, it's ok you can stay you know this Steve likes you. I haven't met him yet but I know he won't hurt me. Are we close to his apartment?" The redhead ask quietly
"Yes, it is this building here. But, remember hydra said Steve might hurt you Stevie." Winter whined softly
"Sweetheart, he didn't hurt you he helped you as did this universe's Bucky." The redhead Steve took Winter's hand as they walked into the apartment building.
Stevie rang the button for Steve's apartment
@broken-rogers
Steve peeked out smiling as he saw Winter. His eyes widened as he saw the other Steve. " Hey Winter! Who's this...?" He smiled at him. " I'm guessing your Winter's Steve?"'
" I mean...I'm glad you're both happy about it. And if he's talking like that--he must feel better." He moved to kiss Winter's cheek.
Bucky looked away; not wanting his eyes to linger on the other for to long. His love for Steve had been building since they were teens. That loge love was still there.
He ducked his head, looking away. There was no way Steve felt the same way about him.
@artistssteverogers
He nodded. " I was feeling bold so I put popcorn in your mouth. "
I remember when you did that m face burnt dark red. I wanted to be bold of dripping to my knees unzip your pants and suck you off. I had to hold myself back. *as I tuck Bucky hair behind his ear* I hope you didnāt take offense when I pulled back. I had to hold back or I was going to attack you
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Bucky blushed leaning into his hand. " It didn't offend me. I just worried I was doing too much."
*I wish I had my camera at this moment seeing how cute/vunulable/soft you are right now I grin. As I bend down and kiss your lips. I lean back and shakes my head* never! I would love for us to continue that but I didnāt want us to get kicked out or banned for life there! @
" Or arrested." He said in a soft tone leaning up to give you a kiss.
exactly my point! *I opened my mouth to ramble some more but when you kissed me I melted into the kiss. I cupped your cheeks to deepen the kiss* I am just glad we live in this era were we can be free to be ourselves!
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Bucky flushed and nodded. " I love that I can be with you like this."
you are cute when you blush babby *as I kiss him all over his face* me too! Want to snuggle ?
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Bucky nodded. " Yes please." He said with a soft smile.
*I smile as I pull Bucky closer to me his head leans on my shoulder as I lay down on the couch. I pull her blankets to us* better baby?
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Bucky beamed and smiled. " Yes very."
*I grined as I lean down kiss Buckys head as I snuggle him close to me* I am glad to have you back in my arms where you are supposed to be babby
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" I'm glad. I always wanted this." He said happily leaning to kiss Steve.
I have always wanted this too babby *I lean down kiss Bucky cups his checks as I grin*
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Bucky leaned into the touch so in love with him. Absolutely enamored with the other super soldier.
When I saw the young man jump turn to look at me. I put my hands out to calm him down* sorry sexy rockstar I didnāt mean to scare you. My name is Steve yes *my hand rubs my neck* I am lost well more like my car broke down *my thumb points behind me* back there and I was looking for help. I donāt have service and I donāt know where I am at. *my hand slaps my face* Where is my manners what is your name cutie? (private rp with Eddie)
He raised a brow. " Sexy, huh?" He asked in an amused tone. " Oh well--I can help. We might have to leave your car but my trailer is in walking distance. I don't know how you did it but you are on the backside of the trailer park.
Eddie chuckled. " It's okay !" He said with a soft smile. " Uh...You've never heard of a trailer park ? It's a bunch of trailers on the same space. Come on." He said giving him a warm smile as he takes his hand and walked further imto the trailer park with him.
*I see Eddie smiling gives me peace of mind as I smile back to him. I shake my head as I rub my neck* no during my time we didnāt have trailers let alone a trailer parks. So like a trailer is a home and park is like a subdivision? *Surprised as my face burns as I follow Eddie. As we hold hands I squeeze his smile* thank you Eddie for your help
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Eddie nods. " Yeah something like that.. Your time?" He noticed what he said. " What are you some, handsome time travel ?"
*I blush as I nod my head* you really donāt know who I am. I am Steve Rogers aka captain America an Avanger! I am really from the 1930s. Thank you sexy
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Eddie blinked looking at him. He took in his whole appearance. " No way...Holy shit!" He can't help but smile. " I uh --didn't recognize you. You're not really in the suit." He said as he leads him into the park and to his trailer. He parked out front and immediately moved to open the door for him.
" Sorry about the mess." He said shyly as he leads him into the trailer.
*We stopped I felt my cheeks burn as Eddie looks me over. I bit my lip but when Eddie smile I stop and smile back. I nod my head * I wanted to get away for a while. Iām in disguse as Nat calls it. *as I follow him into his home. I smile looking around* I like your trailer and such a gentleman *as I walk in * no worries I dropped in unexpectedly
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' No wonder. This is so crazy..." he said. ' Can I get you anything to drink ?" He asked trying to clean up a little more.
Some water would be nice *I watch him try to clean. I get up and bend down to help* let me help you clean. @stuffandthangsandangelwings
Eddie blushed hiding behind his hair as their hands brush against each other's. " I...okay." he moved to get Steve water. He soon returned with the glass.
*I smile seeing him blushing and hiding behind his hair. I grab my phone out and take a picture. Put my phone away walks over as my hand holds his. I move his hair from his face as I kiss his check. I lean back winks at Eddie* too cute sexy *as I accept the glass* thank you *drinks then sets the glass down and go back to help cleaning*
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Eddie blinked surprised by the kiss but he welcomed it. He quickly moved finishing tidying up. " Right...uh so this is my home. It's not much but it's home."
Blood Deep Roots
The tow truck rattled like it was being held together by prayer and nicotine.
By the time it rolled into the gravel lot behind Hawkins Auto & Tire, the July heat had already melted the edges off the afternoon. Cicadas screamed from somewhere beyond the tree line. The air smelled like motor oil, sunbaked asphalt, and incoming rain.
Perfect.
She pushed the passenger door open with the heel of her boot and stepped down slowly, silver rings catching sunlight as she swept a curtain of dark curls away from her face. Black lace fluttered at the sleeves of her blouse. Too many necklaces glimmered against sun-bronzed skin. Every inch of her looked expensive now ā not in the polished Hollywood sense, but in the Stevie Nicks-at-midnight, pawn-shop-gold, smoke-on-vinyl kind of way.
A far cry from the quiet Hawkins girl she used to be.
āThink your alternatorās cooked,ā the driver muttered around a cigarette before wandering toward the garage office.
She barely heard him.
Because behind the shop, half-shadowed beside the open bay door, stood a man she was almost certain had once died.
Or maybe that was just how Hawkins remembered him.
Eddie Munson leaned back against the brick wall with all the careless gravity of someone who never learned how to belong anywhere else. Shirt tossed over one shoulder. Grease streaked across his hands. Tattoos she didnāt recognize winding down his arm. His head bent toward the glow of a phone in his palm like the whole world hadnāt just tilted sideways.
For one impossible second, she forgot how to breathe.
No newspaper clipping. No whispered hometown rumor. No blurry tagged Facebook photo from years ago couldāve prepared her for the reality of him standing there in living color beneath the Indiana sun.
The screen door slapped shut behind her.
Eddie looked up.
And suddenly she was seventeen again, all sharp elbows and unsent love songs.
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" Really? You want me in a video? I'm not to hideous and scary ?" He smiled flashing his fangs again. " Truthfully I would love to leave here. Chase my dreams but uh there are some obstacles in the way of that." He looks at her. "The thirst for blood, my allergy to the sun ---and the deal your father made. Hawkins is my prison." He stated sadly.
"Eddie, you've never been hideous or scary...okay, maybe once you were scary when you came to school sick, looking like death, but I was more scared for you than anything," she grinned, placing their plates on the table, returning quickly with her glass of wine.
"My dad is an obstacle I can move," she mused, sitting down, leaving him the seat at the head of the dark, antique table. "And you could have fooled me, considering I saw you out back of the shop. Thought I'd seen a ghost, but you kinda are, aren't you? Looked more like a dream, really." She pulled another pin from her skirt, allowing the slit it'd held closed to open to just below the waist, exposing her pale thigh as she pricked her finger again, this time dripping the blood into his glass of wine. "You, Eddie Munson, are the standard by which every man I have ever met is measured against in every respect. Some have come close...but if I have the opportunity, and you're willing, I want you. And, you don't have to pretend with me. I'll protect you and work out new rules with my dad."
Eddie listened to her eyes glued to her as she moved about the room. The moment she dripped blood into his glass he took it from her. He downs it, eyes glowing. " A dream? I think I'm more of a nightmare." He can't help but lick his lips. Her blood so much better than the blood bags he'd grown accustomed to over the years. " You know ---I saw you even then. But I never thought you wanted me. How could you...." he shakes his head dark curls falling into his face. " I want you. I just don't want to disappoint. You have me on a pedestal. I'm just a man--well that's not accurate." He makes eye contact with her. " Should I start at the beginning? I'm sure you want to know about this. " he said waving his hand in a vague gesture toward himself.
He opened his eyes, gasping for breath. Everything hurt. Something beeped loudly, he tried to move --to get up. There were wires everywhere. He moved trying to tug at them. The beeps got louder.
" Billy?!?!?" The redhead exclaimed, hands coming to touch his arm. How did he not notice her?
" Shit bird?" He croaked out.
" Let me get someone; okay ? Try not to move." And with that Max rushed out of the room.
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Billy grimaced moving to put his arm around her. " Yeah but I had the chance to get him for what he's done over the years."
