Hi, it's been a long while since I stop posting here. Now, I'm here again.. I thought before, I don't need this kind of stuff anymore but yes, my mistake. I need this again, I feel so alone again, alone in my own everyday fights. I have to write again. Yes, I am now in the confusion of 'in between'.. in between the 'what is right and what's my wants or even my needs. I have to write again coz' this time it's the worst. I have to protect my child, her feelings over mine. This.. Have you ever felt like you have your own family and still you don't feel like home? I felt everything we built, suddenly turning into dust. Fading.. dreams, happiness, laughter.. romance. All of them suddenly fading. And it's exhausting, very heavy. If ever I don't wrote about this, I don't know how long I can still handle it. I'm so helpless now. I can't imagine, this will be this worst. I want a family that is full of love and understanding, helping each other, communications not secrets. I want a partner who will understand me over he wanted to understand him. I want a stronger partner than me. I wanted to have someone that can love me still at my worst. Cares about me, still baby me. I still want clingy one. I thought I already have the one but it turns out the other way around. Yes, I still love him, I still love the family we have right now, it's just that, I just need something to be better. I don't want another man, I still want him. I just want some changes. I'm praying for a better tomorrow. I still want my dream family, will be this same family I have right now. I hope he still love me like what he promised. I really hope.
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