|B|

You can call me B ✌🏼 | Trying stuff | It's never too late to do the things you love | ✍🏼 Amateur writer and painter 🎨| Minors DNI 🔞

[stupidly-be]

Hi I'm B (not pun intended but I'm also bi)

About me:

I don't know really, the more I know. The more I don't know and I'm just trying to enjoy the hobbies or the things that I wanted to be more than hobby growing up. But it's never too late to regain your joy

Amateur painter and writer ✌🏻

(probably to be edited later)

[cheglok-art]

Kākāpō believes in you ☀

[lemontongues]

shoutout to slow growers, late bloomers, people whose plans got derailed by circumstances beyond their control or their own choices, people who never had a plan to begin with, people who have had to start over when theyre too old to feel like theyre supposed to be where they are, people who cant pretend theyre built for the environment theyre in, and everyone who's not living the life they thought they would. im proud of you for making it this far and i hope you keep going until youre happy ♡

[visualeffex]

why are you so nervous avatar

[stupidly-be]

How many Celine lovers (that didn't sound very well) are out there? We need to create a community. I love polytrix but I don't want to spam the community with Celine.

Are we enough?

[queerofthedagger]

heyyyy so this is so random but in one of ur reblogs you mentioned ellipsus being untrustworthy... do you mind talking more about that? i know very little about it but use it frequently for little drabbles as opposed to google docs or word.

Hey, yeah of course.

So my problem with ellipsus is that it's very, very hum about how it finances itself. If you dig through the FAQ, you will eventually find this buried under "How can I support Ellipsus:"

This is not transparent. This does not tell me how it is financing itself right now. Now, when you dig a bit through google, you'll find that it's venture capital backed (which means through investments) as a start-up. It's not entirely clear who backs it, but it's listend on SpeedInvest, a venture capital fund. Further, PitchBook—which lists data on companies and startups— has this data on Ellipsus:

Now, none of this is inherently shady. But it tells you that this is a for-profit company, that together with its investors will eventually expect to, well, you know. Make Profit. And the aforementioned paid tier is, in my opinion, probably not going to cut that. Which too would be fine, but taken all this in the light of how they market incredibly aggressively to fandom, present themselves as just "writers and nerds" with "dachshunds" etc etc. is... not trustworthy, in my opinion. So—what if the paid tier does not pay off enough? What's the plan now? Why, if none of this is An Issue, do I not find any of this information transparently and easily on their own goddamn website? I'm not saying anyone should run a writing program for free. I'm saying if you pick your market in fandom, I don't think it's too much to expect very straight-up information beyond a lot of promises ("we won't sell your data/we won't use AI/we won't do anything weird just trust us broskis").

I said this various times before but: if you don't know how a service pays for itself, and you're not paying, then you're the product. And beyond a "oh we're so fandom family uwu" messaging with no substance or proof, Ellipsus has given me literal subzero indication to trust them of this not being the case.

Which isn't to say that gDocs or whatever is better. But I'd deeply, deeply recommend using LibreOffice for a free alternative, or Scrivener, which is a one-time/lifetime purchase. It's also not to say not to use Ellipsus at all; use something else as your main software, then use it if you need something for on-the-go, or for easy draft-sharing or whatever. Like, all I'm saying here really is: don't just trust it blindly. Historically, things marketing themselves this aggressively to fandom with any lack of transparency are. Well. yk. Pretty often Not That Great.

Also, minor addendum, but I do have two (2) drafts on Ellipsus for editing at work, and when amazon's servers were down I could no longer log in. You know what worked? Scrivener. Scrivener fucking worked. So you know.

[stupidly-be]

Not me searching for more info about Ellipsus and this being the first thing I see. Does anybody have more info about this?

🤔

[quentims]

Zoey portrait

[rumismira]

What do you mean this isn’t canon (10/?)

[stupidly-be]

This is the movie

[imvec]

[stupidly-be]

They're in love, your honor!

[aymmgreen]

the 2-second new rumi clip is enough to feed me for a year 😩🙏🏽

[stupidly-be]

OMG what's this? I've been blessed ✨

[stupidly-be]

These last two weeks have been exhausting so thus Polytrix angst, enjoy:

The girls do their duty. Like soldiers following the wrong orders. It's not the way you think.

They turn the honmoon gold you know and the new shinny golden barrier, shinny like fool's gold feels oppressive and suffocating. Celine told them before (a little drunk) how brutal her own training was, how alienating, how stifling...

They were trained to fulfill a duty. Rumi concluded that's why her mother falling in love with a demon, was traitorous and preposterous for the other hunters. It's also why there's no third sunlight sister in sight. Celine stayed, even with her faults and fears. Celine loves Rumi more than duty.

She doesn't want to hide but she knows this, so she follows her guardian orders to cover up.

Still she came clear the night before the Idols Awards. Rumi just told them.

Rumi was prepared to die.

If Zoey and Mira were going to do their duty, she would only beg to make the honmoon gold and nothing else.

She was so tired.

Rumi was a fool.

Did she really think less from her fellow hunters (she didn't, really, but duty is a heavy burden)

They cried, hugged, and asked for explanations and clarifications. They talked all night, they were angry, happy, sad and all in between.

Mira and Zoey love Rumi more than duty.

They promise to make the honmon gold as Rumi requested.

They did it.

It was gold and beautiful and so, so wrong.

Rumi still has the marks.

The next thing she felt is Zoey pushing her out the way like a car wreck.

The new golden honmoon is wrong or most likely is right. It feeds from all the hunters before them. It's rigid, angry, duty filled and not fulfilled. Hunters who died from demons claws are demanding demons blood.

"Fulfill your duty! Fulfill your duty" they chant in the hunters heads. Even the demon spawn can hear it. Half hunter and half demon. She's the best of both worlds and it's bitter. The advantages that she can get.

Rumi looks at Mira, Gok-do summoned. She would be impaled in her fellow hunters weapon but Zoey just pushed her off the way.

Mira looks like she's in pain. Fighting with the angry voices in her head. Zoey can't help anymore. The maknae is fighting her own battle and losing. Shinkals bares, like fangs... In warning.

The urge to summon her Saingeom is there but she still can fight it.

What she can't do is see them suffering like that.

"Rumi" Mira is even struggling to speak "I can't resist it" the Gok-do is trembling in her hands.

"Rumi run" Zoey isn't in a better shape "please run" she begs

Rumi just stood before them. Smiling very sadly and sweet.

It's kind of ironic. Celine taught her to hide and if she was ever discovered she taught her to run and not look back.

She couldn't hide anymore and now she can't run away.

She was born to be... A lamb to the slaughter, and she would too, fulfill her duty.

The new golden honmoon feels her intentions.

Mira and Zoey stopped trembling in shock and realization "Rumi no" they beg and it's so sweet and so sad at the same time. Rumi thinks maybe in another life.

"I love you, both of you" She said looking at each one of her girls "and I'm ready"

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P.s. I'm sorry

[stupidly-be]

A hater: Fuck Huntr/x

The hunters posting a lot of I volunteer as a tribute and other variations of this stuff.

Zoey from Huntr/x: Quoting the post with man I'm trying!!!

[telumendils]

thinking about how extremely gay xena: warrior princess was and the fact that there are baby queers out there who think they were queerbaiting??? like honey no, they did literally everything they could to make it clear these women were fucking offscreen without offending the censors. it's magical. learn your history. enjoy it.

[ficauthor]

[stupidly-be]

When your day was hard and you see a day later the notification update of the dark romance polytrix fanfic you're following and AO3 is down:

[stupidly-be]

I didn't even know AO3 was down in the first place because today was freaking awful and I've been working all day. And apparently it was up again and now it's done... Again. And I missed all of this???

[eldergoblin]

Unsung heroes, unseen sacrifices

[stupidly-be]

My tired babies 🥹