Sturgis Elias Podmore

recently released from Azkaban

[karoondas]

sturgiepod:

“why would you hate yourself over this? you didn’t do anything wrong.” it didn’t make sense to him. none of what had happened had been out of malice on any of their parts. Not his or hers or Tristan’s. 

“This is why I didn’t want to be here.” She moves to grab her bag and hoist it over her shoulder despite how unlikely she knew he’d be to actually move so she could leave. “I don’t want to talk about it with you or – or with anyone.”

[sturgiepod]

“Fine. If you don’t want to talk we don’t have to talk” he said continuing to block the her from leaving. “but you’re not leaving. There isn’t any reason for you to go somewhere else and give up your home. If you don’t want to see me we can work something out, but I’m not about to let you be without a home. I can go back to living in my parents’ old place if I need to.”

[karoondas]

sturgiepod:

“You can bare-” he swallowed a little, shaking his head “of all the things you shouldn’t be able to look at me for, this is the one you choose?” there was something that hurt more about that than if it had been about him when he was with Amycus or because he’d been in Azkaban. “Look, Lucy, I haven’t seen Tristan since and - and if you don’t want me to see him again I won’t. I care about him, but I care about you more. You’re the only family I have.”

“Sturgis, no.” She finally looks at him properly, this time without averting her eyes the moment she looks at him. She wants to reach for him because the heartbroken look on her face makes her chest ache and she knows that she was the cause of it – something she never wanted to be. “I don’t mean that I can’t look at you because of what you did. It’s – it’s because of me. I don’t hate you. I don’t even hate him. I hate myself.”

[sturgiepod]

“why would you hate yourself over this? you didn’t do anything wrong.” it didn’t make sense to him. none of what had happened had been out of malice on any of their parts. Not his or hers or Tristan’s. 

[karoondas]

sturgiepod:

“I don’t want - of course I want you here, Luce. I - things are different right now, but that doesn’t mean I want you to go away.”

“Things aren’t just different. They’re fucked. I can barely look at you and – and I don’t even want to think about that day. How are we supposed to live around each other?”

[sturgiepod]

“You can bare-” he swallowed a little, shaking his head “of all the things you shouldn’t be able to look at me for, this is the one you choose?” there was something that hurt more about that than if it had been about him when he was with Amycus or because he’d been in Azkaban. “Look, Lucy, I haven’t seen Tristan since and - and if you don’t want me to see him again I won’t. I care about him, but I care about you more. You’re the only family I have.”

[karoondas]

sturgiepod:

“Getting a few things for what?” he asked, though it was pretty obvious. It wasn’t that he didn’t know, it was more that he wanted her to say it. “You know you don’t have to leave, Luce” he let out a sigh. 

“  … I shouldn’t be here.” She doesn’t want to admit she’s leaving because staying with him had been her idea in the first place. It seemed like a dream, all the way up until everything turned to shit. “Not after what happened with … you know. Not after that. You don’t want me here and I can’t be here.”

[sturgiepod]

“I don’t want - of course I want you here, Luce. I - things are different right now, but that doesn’t mean I want you to go away.”

[karoondas]

sturgiepod:

“Lucy?” It was strange saying her name like a question, there was no way it wasn’t Lucy. She was the only other one with a key to the place after all. Still, he hasn’t actually seen her since the incident with Tristan. “Lucy what are you doing?” he asked hating that she felt she had to sneak around. 

She froze as soon as she heard his voice, standing still for a moment with her back to him. She knew she couldn’t hide forever, that he was right behind her and there was no way out of the room with him blocking the door frame. She slowly turned to face him, embarrassment flooding through her as soon as she laid her eyes on him, so much that she had to avert her eyes. “ … I’m just … just getting a few things. That’s all.”

[sturgiepod]

“Getting a few things for what?” he asked, though it was pretty obvious. It wasn’t that he didn’t know, it was more that he wanted her to say it. “You know you don’t have to leave, Luce” he let out a sigh. 

[karoondas]

She ducks into the house, stuffing her key back into her pocket before she quickly moves towards her room, making sure to be quiet. She’d carefully checked that Sturgis had work – of course, she could’ve been wrong but she swore she’d gotten it right – because she couldn’t take another confrontation, another example of a relationship she’d ruined. She was going to be quick – all she needed was some clothes for the hotel.

[sturgiepod]

“Lucy?” It was strange saying her name like a question, there was no way it wasn’t Lucy. She was the only other one with a key to the place after all. Still, he hasn’t actually seen her since the incident with Tristan. “Lucy what are you doing?” he asked hating that she felt she had to sneak around. 

[tristan-mckinley]

Consequences//Tristan, Sturgis, Lucy

[tristan-mckinley]

karoondas:

sturgiepod:

Sturgis looked back at Lucy and then back to Tristan. There was plenty to explain and he let go of Tristan’s wrist as he began to. He noticed the way he looked at Lucy when he emphasized that he’d said he didn’t do relationships. Sturgis had always known where they stood, but - “I think maybe it’s best we not see each other for a little while” It pained him to say it, but right now he didn’t know what else to say or do. 

She felt like such an idiot. Her arms crossed tight across her body, she averted her gaze the entire conversation, willing herself to stay silent until Tristan finally left, until she could just gather her thoughts and not say something she’d regret. She could feel her anger boiling though, her temper getting the best of her as it always did, and when Tristan spoke her gaze immediately snapped to his.

“Don’t say stupid shit or you’re gonna make me say something you don’t wanna hear.” She snapped, fists clenched as she tried her best to keep the anger at bay. It wasn’t his fault, wasn’t hers, wasn’t Sturgis’s – but she was angry, ashamed, she felt stupid and it all translated back to anger. She trembled, hot tears stinging her eyes and she quickly wiped them away, turning away to preserve what little dignity she had left.

Tristan felt like shit, and it was just made worse when Sturgis told him they should stop seeing each other, and then when Lucy started crying. His chest ached, the pain sharper than anything he’d really felt before. He took a step back, his own eyes filling with tears, as he realized he’d ruined everything.

“I-I’m sorry,” he said again, grabbing the door and opening it to escape, pretty sure he couldn’t take anymore of any of it.

[sturgiepod]

He watched as Tristan turned and made it to the door this time to start to open it. He hoped he knew he didn’t hate him and he sure despite her reaction that Lucy didn’t either. Even so he didn’t say anything, only looked over at Lucy unsure of what she would say or do

[tristan-mckinley]

Consequences//Tristan, Sturgis, Lucy

[sturgiepod]

tristan-mckinley:

“I don’t need or want anything. What’s there to explain?” She groaned, leaning against the wall opposite the door to distance herself as much as possible. She felt awful, part of her, to see Tristan fleeing and part of her knew this would ruin the friendship – the whatever it was that they had – but a bigger part of her wanted the whole mess to disappear. To not have to deal with it, to not have to explain it to Sturgis.

Tristan glanced down at Sturgis’s hand on his wrist, before looking over at Lucy. He didn’t know what to say or how to explain himself. He didn’t plan for this to happen. He was just having fun and avoiding any true feelings while also indulging in feelings he’d like to have. But how did he explain that?

“I-I like you both,” he said, glancing between them. “I really do. I care about you both. I just …” He looked helplessly at Lucy. “I told you I didn’t do relationships.” It was a lame ass excuse and he knew it, he just didn’t know what else to say.

Sturgis looked back at Lucy and then back to Tristan. There was plenty to explain and he let go of Tristan’s wrist as he began to. He noticed the way he looked at Lucy when he emphasized that he’d said he didn’t do relationships. Sturgis had always known where they stood, but - “I think maybe it’s best we not see each other for a little while” It pained him to say it, but right now he didn’t know what else to say or do. 

[tristan-mckinley]

Consequences//Tristan, Sturgis, Lucy

[sturgiepod]

tristan-mckinley:

“Does it matter?” She snapped, unintentionally of course, but she wasn’t in her right mind. Somewhere in the back of her mind she knew rationally that she’d feel guilty for snapping at him, for reacting like she was, but at the moment she didn’t care about rational responses. 

She knew that he couldn’t have known that they were – they weren’t even siblings, they didn’t even look alike and yet it still stung. Of course, it stung because she’d been developing feelings like she promised herself not to do. Like she swore to herself she wouldn’t do. 

Tristan ran a shaky hand through his hair again. He didn’t know what to say. He never told Sturgis or Lucy that their … interactions were exclusive. But he still felt like he somehow two-timed them both. And now to find out that they were related in some way … that was just icing on a big mistake cupcake.

“I’m sorry,” he said again helplessly, moving hurriedly toward the door to escape.

“Tristan” Sturgis called after him as he watched the other male starting for the door. “Tristan what is going on?” he asked following and reaching out to grab his wrist. “I just - we deserve an explanation” He knew that Tristan slept with other people. They weren’t a couple after all, it was more that Sturgis wasn’t sure if Lucy had known this or not, and after everything that had happened before he didn’t want her to be hurt again. 

[tristan-mckinley]

Consequences//Tristan, Sturgis, Lucy

[sturgiepod]

tristan-mckinley:

“What —“ She began to ask, not even able to process everything that was happening. She saw Tristan fall from the couch when she turned, saw Sturgis reaching for his shirt and it didn’t take a genius to figure out what was going on.

She felt sick as she looked at them, trying to calm herself. “It — the game got cancelled.” She replied absently, looking from Sturgis to Tristan. “You — you and him. You …” she trailed off, turning away. “Fuck! Seriously? Are you fucking kidding me?”

This couldn’t be happening. It was like something out of his worst nightmare. See Tristan? This is why you’re not supposed to have sex more than once with the same person. Look at the shit you got yourself into!

“Lucy,” Tristan said desperately, stumbling over his feet as he hurried to her. He stopped short of touching her, however, remembering Sturgis and looking back at the guy helplessly. How did he explain? He cared about both of them, more than he knew how to say, really. “I’m sorry,” he finished lamely, running a hand through his hair in agitation. “I didn’t–fuck. I didn’t mean–I didn’t know–”

The game was cancelled. That explained Lucy coming home, but it didn’t explain her reaction or Tristan’s. He heard Tristan say her name though, in a way that had a familiarity to it. “How do you two know each other?” he asked, having a feeling he already knew the answer. He wasn’t sure what was going through either of their heads right then, but he was going to try his best to keep things as calm as he could for as long as he could.

[tristan-mckinley]

Consequences//Tristan, Sturgis, Lucy

[sturgiepod]

tristan-mckinley:

Tristan was greatly enjoying himself, losing his confusing thoughts in the familiar arms of Sturgis, eager to go further. He’d gotten their shirts off and was feeling up Sturgis’s chest as they remained hungrily lip-locked, when the door opened and he heard a strangely familiar voice calling out for Sturgis. He had a roommate? What? Since when?

Popping his head above the couch, his eyes widened when he saw Lucy there. “Oh shit,” he muttered, going completely pale as he fell off the couch, frantically grabbing his shirt to pull back on. This couldn’t be happening. Since when did Sturgis and Lucy know each other?? Wait, was this Lucy the Lucy Sturgis mentioned was his sister??? What the fuck????

Lucy wasn’t supposed to be back for a while now. It’s why Sturgis hadn’t thought twice about making out on the couch. If it was to go any further he would have moved to the bedroom, not in fear of being caught so much as not wanting Lucy to have so sit somewhere where he’s had sex. 

Things were coming a little more heated, clothes, though only tops, were removed. He hadn’t noted the door open, too lost in making out, but then he heard Lucy. 

“I thought you had - what are you doing home?” he asked reaching for his shirt to pull it out

[tristan-mckinley]

Consequences//Tristan, Sturgis, Lucy

When Tristan returned from his trip with Jeremy, he was full of confusing feelings. And the best thing to do with confusing feelings was to fuck them away. His first choice was Lucy, just because he felt they hadn’t done it in a while and he missed her, but he read in the paper that she was at an away game. So instead he went to Sturgis. He’d heard through the grapevine that the guy had gotten a new place, and he was rather impressed with it. Still stuck in a hotel room, Tristan couldn’t help but wonder what a place like this cost. He didn’t waste time with much small talk, though, before he had Sturgis on the couch and was passionately making out with him.

[sturgiepod]

Sturgis hadn’t seen Tristan in what felt like forever. He’d known the other had gone out of town, back to his family home if he could remember correctly. He was both surprised and excited to see Tristan show up at his door. The surprise mainly coming from him showing up to his new place when he hadn’t seen him since his return to the city. There were a few hellos and other quick words exchanged before they were making out on the couch, Sturgis’ hand moved up under his shirt, feeling the warm skin against his hand

[sturgiepod]

karoondas:

You do know that I’m not gonna stop bothering you until you tell me what’s wrong, right?

Yeah, I know, it’s just not important, so you don’t need to bother too much

[sturgiepod]

karoondas:

You better. It’s in your job description.

Why the hesitation? What’s wrong?

It’s nothing Luce, you just focus on playing your best and winning those games.

[sturgiepod]

karoondas:

It’s okay. They’re not all that interesting right now anyways. I’ll get you tickets to the big game later on. 

They’re good. I scored that big win during the last game and everyone’s still ecstatic about that, so I think we’ll do fine in the next one, too. What about you and your job? 

and I’ll take you to celebrate after you win the big game

work’s - it’s umm it’s good

[sturgiepod]

karoondas:

Really? [ Her insecurity seems to melt away and she grins, tugging his arm towards the place. ] Good, because it’s already set. We each have our own space and everything and I’ll be away sometimes because of games or whatever I need to do, but it’ll be nice to see you a lot more. Kinda like how it was in school.

Really ( he smiled, letting her tug him towards the cottage) how are those going, by the way? I’m sorry I haven’t been to any

[sturgiepod]

tristan-mckinley:

[leans forward to kiss him gently]

(leans in the rest of the way to meet him in the kiss before pulling away)