[stutteringmyway]

ive been stressing out about finding a job for the last month all the good stuff i found are call centers and i CANT do that

[yesididstutter]

Everyday I Stutter

I have woken up everyday for 23 years. I have stuttered everyday for nearly as many years. I will, hopefully, go to sleep tonight, God willing, I’ll wake up tomorrow, and guaranteed, I will stutter then too. It won’t go away as long as I don’t either. As much as I may hate it, my stutter is apart of me. It’s apart of my story but it will not be the period at the end of my sentence. It’s just a comma, telling me to take a break. A semi colon saying, hey pause and start again. As long as I’m here, my stutter is too. But there are worse places I could be, worse things I could have. I wake up and so does my stutter but that does not mean my confidence gets to sleep.

[stutteringmyway]

i was feeling so good about myself and my stutter during therapy but im done now and i feel SO bad and i dont know what to do

[stutteringmyway]

i had a doctor appointment today and i stuttered a bit but when i was done i just couldnt manage to say thank you or anything so i just left without even saying bye and i feel so so bad he was the nicest and he probably thinks im so rude and terrible

[moved123456789999-deactivated20]

me, expressing my experience with speech disorders:

someone: oh yeah sometimes when I talk too fast I have a bit of a speech impediment too

You either have one or you don’t. You don’t have “a bit of” a disorder/impediment. Making a few slip ups is not a disorder. Having a constant battle with your mind and mouth is a disorder. I understand people are trying to be supportive but please refrain from saying you “have a bit” of something when someone who actually suffers and deals with it tells you an experience

[stutteringmyway]

“i know how you feel i stutter when im nervous”

um???????

[stutteringmyway]

im starting to be in peace with my stutter and not overthink and hate myself because of it but its really hard for me to believe that people will still love me and listen to me and i know that its a journey and that self acceptance doesnt happen over night but i really worry that i wont ever get there

[littlemissviolin53-deactivated2]

OH MY GOD we are literally the same person. I too got so good at hiding it that everyone I tell they’re like “you do??” It’s so frustrating especially because I’m finally comfortable enough to be open about it. I believe in us! Acceptance is so so so hard but it is worth it!

[stutteringmyway]

ive started therapy lately so i became so aware of that and im just now realizing how much effort im putting into hiding it?? like my mind is always over working and thinking and i just want to be able to TALK without feeling bad?? and i really hope we’ll get there !!

[stutteringmyway]

im starting to be in peace with my stutter and not overthink and hate myself because of it but its really hard for me to believe that people will still love me and listen to me and i know that its a journey and that self acceptance doesnt happen over night but i really worry that i wont ever get there

[stutteringmyway]

ive been feeling really bad lately which affects my stuttering which affects my mental health which affects my stuttering which affects my m

[stutteringmyway]

i love everything about this film

Stutterer

As the Oscar-winning short film “Stutterer” shows, communication, like love, is never easy.

[dysfluentsuggestion]

speech therapy, for me, was an attempt to get me to dig through a boulder with a spoon every time I spoke until it became instinctual. I feel that this metaphor applies to everyone who undergoes speech therapy. The ones who were successful might have been equipped with a pick axe instead. For those people, it might be better to break through the obstacle to get somewhere, to reach your goals. That’s what most speech therapists, in my experience, try to teach you. I’ve found that that technique doesn’t work for those of us with different tools. My speech therapists and I dug through my speech impediment for almost a decade. Much of it did whittle away, but not as quickly as other people’s boulders. I was encouraged to continue like this, until I noticed a different route. I broke it down far enough, i could carry it with me now. 

I’ve been “carrying” my speech impediment for a couple years now, and it’s only made me stronger. It’s becoming less of a burden and more of a trait. I wear glasses. I’m genderqueer. I’m a lesbian. I have a stutter. Some see me dealing with this obstacle that I’ve carried all this way and question if I want to go back to waiting until I finish digging through it to continue down my path. It would indeed make it easier in the long run, but as of right now I have bigger fish to fry. 

so, i’ve been learning that the “impediment” in speech impediment can mean just that; an impediment to my speech. I was convinced that it had a double meaning and was an impediment to my life as well. For me, for all of us, it isn’t. it is simply additional weight to the world we carry on our shoulders. whether or not you choose to break it should be your choice.

[stutteringmyway]

being made fun of as a kid for having a stutter really fucks you up like im 20 and still got the idea that people wont like me so inherented in my mind that im genuinely scared that my friends will suddenly leave me if they really hear me stuttering

[lilacfarm]

im honestly so sick of ppl showing me actors and successful people who had stutters but overcame theirs and became famous like that’s really cool and good for them but like i wanna know about famous ppl who stutter in their work because telling me “oh they overcame it so you can too” translates to me as “you will not make it unless you overcome it”

[stutteringmyway]

today i ordered iced coffee and i stuttered like HELL but its ok cause now i got iced coffee and thats what really matters

[stutteringmyway]

so i started seeing a speech therapist but it’s so different from everything i know. i was always being taught how to control my voice and hide my stutter, but now im learning how to live with it in peace instead of letting it control me. it uses psychological methods more than the follow-the-line-while-you-speak ways, and i feel like it messes with my head so bad. i think it just brings up things that i burried a while ago and i dont really know how to handle all of it. i always felt like my mind was “fucked up” but i dont think i ever felt like this. i know that i need to stop ignoring how i feel and get professional help, but im just so scared of what i’ll hear. but hey its 2019 everyone has depression now right

[stutteringmyway]

stuttering on my name always broke my heart and made me feel so bad. it didnt happen very often but when it did, it felt like the whole world was collapsing on me. how can i take care of myself when i cant even say my own name?

today i got asked for my name. i got stuck and couldnt even make a sound. the lady kept asking for my name, laughing and telling me i dont have a reason to be nervous cause its only my name. its only my name. all i could manage to do was awkwardly smile and try to get to words out.

its only my name.

after that she took my id, i thanked her, left and moved on. normally i would spend all day (and a couple days after) thinking about that moment and hating myself.

but a part of acceptance is letting go. so today i stuttered on my name and the world didnt stop. today i stuttered on my name and it was okay. its only my name.

[dysfluentsuggestion]

you never have to love and accept your stutter for your voice to be beautiful and worthy. if you can’t accept it, that’s okay. it’s okay to not like it and to wish you didn’t have a stutter. your voice is still worthy of being heard and it is still amazing and perfect.