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STXRMSTAINED an independent, private, selective roleplay blog for Baldur's Gate 3 original 'Tav' character Seira — carrd, interest checker
loved by draco (she/her, 25+, UTC+1), also found on @wvrlock @vilecelium & @oathtorn
This post will get rather long, please bear with me while I post all three parts of it.
People have blocked me in the past few days, and I'd rather it is for my own words than by association. I owe that to my mutuals here who have not heard from me in a while, especially those who like to form their own opinions. And I owe it to myself, because I won't keep being hypocritical thinking and talking about how people should handle things like adults but not do it myself and fade without a word.
Racism isn't petty drama, but the way it is handled can be, as it works with everything. I am not here to defend Bunny, or the other person, whose name was not stated "for the sake of their privacy" but King @ anyway — I will keep their name private as for their wishes, and call them X.
The issue with X is a different thing, that I have witnessed from people close with them, as I haven't been close to them myself.
That is my opinion, and has always been my position regarding callouts, so I am making this post and leaving for the time being, simply because I don't want to interact with a RPC that believes that shaming and publicly humiliating people is a mature way of dealing with things. I don't want anything to do with self-appointed saviors and protectors who enjoy being morally superior more than they are willing to make the RPC a safer space. Yes, even for the unlikable, or the clingy, or the mistaken, or the uneducated people who make harmful claims but can be corrected.
Since words will be put in my mouth after this, I would like to end addressing causality. The people most involved in this situation from the beginning have been people of color — that makes sense, since the initial claims about Bunny that started this were about racism. And they have been the most vocal about it, as they deserve to be, because a white person posing as black doesn't hurt white people remotely as much as it hurts them. Until recently, I can't think of a single white person who spoke about it with more than a vague mention like "racism is bad please don't be a racist". If you can, I don't follow them.
So, disagreeing with the way the callout was handled is, necessarily, disagreeing with the POC who made it and endorsed it. That is a fact. It isn't blaming them for raising awareness about issues that affect them, it isn't charging against them specifically for being POC or being regularly vocal about race and racism, or pointing fingers at them instead of at the white people involved (because if they exist, I don't know them).
(an aside before moving on, just to cover my back because I have seen accusations like "you blocked my muse of color but not my white muse because you are racist" and I don't want those. I used to follow raphaeni, I even wrote a bit with the muse. I unfollowed — I believe softblocked — because I ran an interest checker and they didn't fill it. I didn't like their blog that much because they reblog too many pictures for my personal liking, so I did what people do and used the chance to cut ties, as I did for many others. The character being a man of color had nothing to do with it)
I think you can defend a right cause, even one that has personally harmed you, and still be an asshole and a bully about how you do it. And I think that is precisely what has happened here. It doesn't have anything to do with "mean ethnics" as it is the expression used in the callout to create the narrative that finding grays in it instantly makes you a racist. It has to do with mean people doing things that I consider toxic, to the point where I would rather not exist in the same space as them.
I wanted to be crystal clear about where I stand, so if people choose to cut ties with me, at least I know it was due to my own words and opinions, rather than someone else's. I will be stepping back for the aforementioned reasons, in hopes that people will learn how to solve issues like adults meanwhile.
If anyone wants my discord to chat or roleplay, my DMs are open. If anyone wants to offer further context or correct me, my DMs are open. If you come to me anonymously in my inbox, please don't do that — we're all adults here.
Everyone, have a lovely day.
muses with a high pain tolerance where, very rarely, the pain tolerance can actively become an issue. they don’t notice when they’re injured, or if something is going on in their body and it doesn’t pass the threshold of ‘this is something I urgently need to do something about’ - muses with a high pain tolerance because they learnt to ignore their pain, so they don’t readily recognize it and can even make it worse without realising, while the people who love them scold them for not saying anything / “lying” about it (but they just didn’t notice, it wasn’t on purpose –)
He GRIMACES just slightly at the mention of their little stowaway. It was tragically easy to forget it was there if it wasn't for random bouts of uninvited visions. He chuckles, the sound humorless, "Oh, shit right let me just transfer all my knowledge PSYCHICALLY to you. Maybe you'll see me grabbing a pot straight from the hearth and not even feeling it."
One of the only benefits to having a dead ass arm. The bitterness fades from him quickly seeing the delight on Seira. His tail was making him OBJECTIVELY adorable, something he would keep to himself.
"Onions are inherently flavorful even a little burnt, my dear, you don't have to do too much to them." He kicks the sack by the first, a little SHOT OF WIND lifting another onion up to his hand, "Come over here, you seem like the type that needs to eat more than that if you don't mind me making the assumption.
"I mean—" Seira swallows the rest of the onion, and raises a hand with a knowing smile. It's a tiefling's hand, with short nails growing naturally in the shape of claws, and covered in thick, resistant skin. Made even thicker by callouses and scarred tissue. Burned and healed, time and time again, very likely to the point of numbness.
Then again, where does a farm boy get all of those injuries from?
"Yes. I mean— I guess. Ah. Thanks," he tries to conceal a moment of sheepishness hitting Brail's shoulder with his fist playfully, only to regret it an instant later. No, that was awkward. They aren't friends. They barely know each other.
He clears his throat and settles for just eating.
Only to speak again merely a couple of seconds after that. He can't handle silence. "So you are self-taught, then...? What made you want to learn?"
How would a fandom actually treat you
Angst magnet. OHOHO YOU ARE SAD. YOU ARE SO SAD. PLEASE GET HELP. Good news- you're a GREAT outlet for queer kids in fandom spaces who need some way to express their problems when no one irl will help them! Your number one fanfic tag is hurt/comfort, some of it actually pretty well written, and all your fanart is either the goriest or saddest thing to ever be created. Please get therapy <3
i should nOT BE tuRNED ON BY THAT
// posting these two here for reasons
// college au seira though
Reblog if you are into Polyamory Shipping/Ship
It can be your OT3, or maybe your OT3+
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Send me "§" if you'd ever consider shipping our muses
// OH maybe? I think there could be a heavy "I can fix her" aspect to it, which... may or may not be a good thing, though? Trying to drag people into becoming his idea of their better selves can be problematic especially with someone with such a strong personality.
// seira when he finally comes clean about his past and all starting act 3 and can now walk shirtless around camp
Send me "§" if you'd ever consider shipping our muses
// scar talk? seira's butt's a little scarred too from the burn. also. he barely has any sensation along his back and tends to overuse healing magic whenever it still hurts
//✨ healing magic ✨
// do not ask Seira why he is good at hunting or why he knows how humanoid meat tastes
❛ the morning will always come. ❜
Sounded like a phrase over top creatures told themselves to experience the hardships of night. Attributing the bleak blank space of void with something negative , something painful. His fingers trailed the ground beneath him to bury the tips into the cool soil. To feel grounded , and connected to these words as he speaks. ❛ In my home , the morning did not exist. We did not have a sun to miss. ❜ He looks to the tiefling , and the flat expression carries a genuine aura. ❛ I do know it now , and I see why people miss its presence. ❜
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"Do you miss it?" He has gone long periods without sun himself. Living by night, sleeping by day when he was younger. The dull, ever-present reddish light bathing the scorching wasteland that was Avernus. But the morning always came — whether he saw it, or not.
Seira turns his gaze to the sky. Filled with stars, and an almost full moon. And some scattered clouds, the kind that would gather and bring rain. He can feel under his skin.
"And what of rain, do you like it? I used to know some drow from the Underdark. They usually complained about one or the other."
// thinking about seira's "companion quest" and how you can spare xevran's life and recruit her for the final fight, but doing so earns MASSIVE disapproval from seira + a scene where he yells at you for your decisions and breaks up with you for good if romanced similarly to how astarion can break up with tav after being forced to drink the drow lady's blood 👁️👄👁️
If you encounter her without seira (if you fail to recruit him or hurt the tieflings at the grove and have to kill him), she just seems like a badass, soft-spoken and polite lady who's tragically been mind controlled and will be thankful to be freed from the absolute
// this is seira