- and Louis stumbles into him, water going everywhere, and he buries his face in Niallās neck and his breath is ragged and he says, what the fuck am i going to do with me when this goes wrong, and Niall thinks, I loveā and he holds on, he holds on even though he doesnāt know if heās holding Louis up or if Louisās holding him up, because this wasnāt ever supposed to happen, this was supposed to be lads having a drink at festival and being mates after, this wasnāt supposed to be the sun and the moon and the fucking stars and the whole world expanding just to fit Louis alongside him, this wasnāt supposed to be him having to rediscover everything heād thought heād known about himself all this timeā and Louis shudders in his arms and Niall thinks, I canāt, I canāt anymore, Iāll fucking explode with it, so he pushes Louis away and Louisās face is caught in a weird half expression of bewilderment and fear, and Niall grabs him again, grabs him so that heās pulling him in, one hand to his neck, another to his cheek, and then his mouth is on Louisās and Louisās kissing him and his heartās going to rocket out of his chest as he kisses him back, as the world changes and he says, Iāve neverāĀ but Louisās shaking his head, me neither, not ever, but his eyes are bright and heās trembling, and smiling, and Niall says, not for the first time, I loveāĀ but this time he ends it with you.