Hi! I’m doing this as an anon cause maybe other people might like to hear your answer as well!
I thought about the previous lover CAYA Louis had, if I remember correctly his name was Daniel? I was thinking if you never considered writing a reencounter, maybe with Harry as well.
There was never a closure between them and I thought how hard must have been to Louis, to leave carrying this grief alone, people that he connected and could not keep in his life for external reasons… I think there was a childhood friend he had a similar situation with?
I haven’t read CAYA in some time, so maybe I am wrong in some info… All this was prompted by listening to “Mr. Loverman” ft. Chloe Moriondo and it made me picture this scene of him missing Daniel back in that time, having to marry Emily and etc… (sharing this cause I think it must be nice to hear someone listen to a song and remember your story out of the blue! Hahah)
Hi! Thank you for your question!!
I have, in fact, envisioned Louis running into Daniel in the future! I've pictured him either with Harry when it happens or maybe with their child or both, always at a grocery store for some reason. I haven't actually considered writing anything about it just because I don't think of Louis as needing closure with Daniel, although as I think through it now, I'm realizing that maybe that's wrong. I think Daniel stands out in Louis' story a) because he was in Louis' "band" and b) because of the parallels between him and Harry. Like the fact that he asked a lot of questions like Harry later does. And that fact that Louis sort of let Daniel down in a way or disappointed him, which Louis doesn't want to repeat with Harry by revealing the sordid complicated truth of his relationship with Emily.
The truth of it is, though, that I think Daniel had deeper feelings for Louis than Louis had for him? I think Louis at that age, and with the complications of Emily and being closeted back home, wasn't looking to get too close with a man and likely kept Daniel at a bit of a distance, emotionally. I do think he probably felt the shame of how their fling ended and how everything in New York ended in general, so like I said, now that I think through it all, I do think that's grounds for some closure.
I do think Ray, the childhood friend you mentioned, was probably more significant in terms of Louis' development as a person, since he's the first boy Louis has a crush on, I think. But I've honestly never imagined them meeting in the future. I think of Ray, and feel that Louis thinks of Ray, as a figment of his formative years. I feel like if I were to meet a middle school or high school crush in my adulthood, there would be such a sense of disillusionment. I like keeping Ray confined to the sort of dreamy mystical past. But you've given me a lot to think about tbh and I reserve the right to be wrong lol
As usual, this turned into a longer answer than intended. But all this to say, I really think it would be interesting to write more about Daniel and about like Louis' ~band and just who he was in New York back in the day and maybe exposing Harry to more of that too. And thank you very much for the song rec! I listened to it and think it's beautiful, although it's really just making me think of Louis after Harry initially moves to New York!! 💔
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