Independent roleplay blog for Izumo Kusanagi from K Project. Multi-verse // Multi-ship Please read over the rules and muse pages before shooting me an ask or something!
—-{♔} : There is a presence approaching and whilst him knowing that their belonged to a rivalry clan, a strong aura that is, he wouldn’t turn around until merely a few steps would distance the two individuals. A faint breeze stroking his cheeks, disheveling his hair, blowing strands into his vision while he proceeded to turn around. When his amethyst gaze finally met the other’s eyes, there was a faint smile forming on his lips, a rare sight, considering— everything.
                                    All that has been happening lately.Â
«’s been a while since we last stood on a roof together, ne?» Warm voice speaking to him, the way the blond’s lips would curve up just a bit mirroring his own, yet the facade was different. Whilst Reisi was able to show off some true emotion for once, being honestly delighted to see the other, even though the feeing was faint and about to die away just like everything else… on the other hand, Izumo’s expression was faked almost completly, hiding the fact that he had forgotten how to smile properly. And with the way the blue froze for a moment, it was obvious— they had both become bitter.
For a moment longer the silence would stay. No words spoken whilst reminiscing about past days, when both were younger. A short lapse of time where they shared the same high school, early morning when clouds were starting to fill the sky, announcing rain yet being completely ignored by the older male. Instead, he had dragged the other along, the roof of their school to skip a lesson even though complaints were made. However a short squeeze of the hand he was holding, a short peck on the cheek and a light chuckle were enough to convince the other party to come along. The younger one would, silently, curse himself for giving in, for having such a weakness considering everything that was about the other male. And by the moment they had taken a few twists around the roof, using dance steps to move along, first slowly, getting faster with every turn done, before ending with a Viennese waltz, rain would start pouring down on them, heavy enough to drain them within a few seconds, no time given to find a good shelter.Â
——«It certainly has. Are you indicating to have missed those moments?»
I don't... I don't think I have a good reason for doing this, and I'm honestly not entirely sure that I want to do this to myself... but it's happening now, and it seems like today, this matter has just been pressing more and more on my mind.
I think I need to quit trying on this blog. I'm so lost now... I don't know how I should be writing as Izumo, I don't know who to talk with anymore, and I really don't know how I'm supposed to be having fun now. It just seems like, recently, I've been pressuring myself so much just to get something out and written into a post, that I don't even remember I should be having fun while doing it. I... I don't know how to have fun writing anymore, if all I'm going to be doing is pushing myself towards something that I don't want.
I see so many people leaving for their own reasons, and I can't help but to feel a bit selfish for using this excuse as my reason, but... I feel like having fun is the one reason why I started roleplaying. And now? There's no fun... There's no point to keep roleplaying, if I can't manage to have fun with my partners and myself.
Honestly, I really did cherish all the people I met online whilst writing as Izumo, and I still cherish the memories we made together. I'll always remember this experience -- I'll remember everyone and everything involved.
To put it simply... I really do love all of you, whether we spoke or not. I appreciate the chance I had here to make new friends, most of which seemed to understand me better than anyone outside the online world did, and I truly do want to keep you all with me while heading for the future. I love our interactions together, our stories, our out-of-character talks, our video chats, our regular chats, our threads, our ask memes, our rants, our ramblings, our ideas, our headcanons, our ships, and our everlasting memories.
If I could stop time to keep all of them here with me -- to keep all of you here with me, in the same moment... then I would. But the fact of the matter is.... I'm not magic, and I can't do that. I couldn't stop my friends from leaving the fandom, I couldn't bring myself to continue writing, I couldn't always be there for some of you when you needed a friend, and I couldn't keep in contact.
I need to leave.... At least, I need to take some sort of break. I don't know if this is a hiatus, or a final goodbye, or even just another month where I don't stop by. Honestly, I don't know how to explain my reasoning for this... But I just need it.
Please believe me when I say I love all of you, and it really hurts me to have to do this. I don't know if we can keep talking together, or even if we'll be able to have the same sort of relationships we did in our primes... I just... I really just want to do something to express how I feel, for each of you who mean something personally to me.
strongarms-softheart: Ahhh, Lucas, my bae. I think you were the first person who I saw on video chat, and the first person I showed my face to via video chat. I believe we met on my other account, but if not, we must've first met on this one. Anyhow, I was really excited and flustered and happy whenever we spoke together (also I may not have acted really flattered whenever you told eme I was pretty, but I was), and it was really awesome to get the chance to talk to your friend Alex, too, whenever she was with you! I just have to say, though, your laugh and your smile are really adorable, so please show them off more often. Also, you've got a rockin' booty, and it can't even compare with such a lowly peasant's booty such as my own. P P P PORN STAR DANCING
(CHECK THIS SCREENSHOT OUT THOUGH. Also Agnete is in this but no one really cares about him tbh:
Can't remember what you guys were talking about...?)
fushimiofannex4: Omelette. I think you were also one of the first people that I saw on video chat (maybe it was during the same one that Lucas was on...?)... ANYHOW, I can distinctly remember you trying to make an analysis about "If you were in Manhattan, and you were searching for America...", so (honestly that still makes me crack a stupid smile now, when I think about it), yeah. Also, you make really fucking horrible puns which I love, and I'm 99% sure that your little smirk is going to be the end of all mankind. (AND another side-note.... Look at this screenshot right here:
Hell yeah.)Â P P P PORN STAR DANCING TOO
smoking-fire: mY FIRST LOOOOOOOOVE, KAY. Okay, so, I know I mentioned in an earlier post that I was really nervous to talk to you at first, and I can really confirm that now. You're such a great writer, and an even better Chitose at that! I'm really glad to have wrote with you (even though I still regret that we never did any sort of AU threads together... haha...)! When we first chatted on video together, it came as the biggest surprise to me that you knew about Sucker Punch/Sin City/Deus Ex, and were willing to watch the trailer again with me! (In fact, BAM have a screenshot of that:
All in all, you're super rad. I'm so amazed that we had a lot of the same movie types in common (even though I'm pretty sure that we didn't ever get to talk about movies all that much). BUT YES. SUPER COOL CHICK.
ao-no-eishi: Stacy, my dearest sugar-plum. I think I've been actively speaking with you for the past two months or so now, despite the fact that I'm hardly ever on my blog here. Even in Skype, I'm really glad that we can talk together (though most of our discussions ultimately end up with cute IzuRei stuff cough)! Hopefully, even after I leave this blog, we can continue to bug each other with that nice and fluffy ship stuff (though I don't know what'll become of our HS thread...? agHH). Anyhow, ok, you're really cute and akgjdk and I really need to give you a little hug ahh.
These next people are those who I really should've spoke to more, but I feel as though I can convey (telepathic?) feelings to with just a single word (or two) that relates to our interactions.
restless-arrogance: SAXOPHONE or CROTCH KISSU KISSU.
daisanokensha: A LIL' EAR ON YOUR MAN or D-SWIZZLE.
ANONâśż dearest: JOSE KUSANAGI or SALSA. I need to find out who you are, too. :((
Imagine person A is a god(ess) who fell from their realm, and became injured in the process. Person B finds them and takes them in and the two fall in love. Person A then reveals their divinity and offers person B the chance to live with them forever. // ooc. Reisi should be A, tho.
reisi is a goddess. no doubt.
i mean he literally rides a pegasus how can i argue with that
Imagine your OTP accidentally getting their minds linked -aka hear each other’s thoughts and feeling their strongest emotions- how do they react? How long does it take them to understand what’s going on? Will they try to fight it? Or accept this close link?
Imagine Person A and B of your OTP moving into a new house together. But they haven’t bought any furniture yet, so they’re forced to sleep on the ground in a giant pillow fort snuggling in tons of blankets.
Person A of your OTP comes home to see the house clean and darkened (or dimly lit). Person B has gentle, romantic music on and holds out a hand with a smile, asking if A would like to dance. Person A is totally surprised.
—-{♔} : As much as the young sophomore enjoyed talking, in classes during practices or private discussions with friends and acquaintances, showing his skills on a linguistic level as well as general knowledge, there are times when he prefers to stay silent. Not everything has to be said, he would keep quiet when the subject would turn on a emotional level (especially the negative ones) considering himself— or simply because the movie he was watching appeared to be interesting.
Latter had been the concurrence at the very moment, even though the film hadn’t started by then. Instead, there was an rather troubled looking blond complaining about an un-bearable silence that would occur and Reisi couldn’t do much as raise an single eyebrow at him. «I always assumed you would enjoy every dark place that could offer you an opportunity to do things other than talking to your company.»
Talking big— because even though he was aware of what most of the youngsters did in such a place, he himself was far away from sharing their hidden agenda, and instead indeed being interested in the movie that was about to start.Â
«Why is it then, that you agree to such a date even though you simply cannot stand the though of it.» By then, he was answering the senior’s gaze, his own eyes glimmering with the faint light the white screen offered. For a sixteen year old teenager, the blue had already acquired quite a fancy vocabulary, already indicating that he would end with a job somewhere on a high position, maybe even politician, considering his skills. Yet, it was mostly an act to create some kind of distance towards the individual he was talking to, and while being around Izumo for a while, his style of speaking would slip into a more casual one bit by bit. However, for now, he would keep that distant tone, almost scolding the other for making such an illogical decision.
«Where do you want to go instead? The tickets are payed, it would be a shame to leave now.» He then lowered his gaze, reaching out for the hand that still rested on the gear change, intertwining fingers in a way that could almost be associated with shyness. «We can change or locations for now, the backseat appears to be a more comfortable place to spent the hours, maybe you’ll change your mind then.»
"Eheh," there was a nervous laugh which appeared from the blond, his eyes darting to the side out of habit, "don't jus' assume things like that... 'm not that bad; an' 'm guessin' there's a lot of other guys who're worse."
To be honest with himself, it was -- of course -- just expected of any average teenage boy to want to do those 'other things' in the dark, rather than just lounging around in a car watching a movie. However, Izumo had to remind himself that not everyone was specifically set out to go on a date just to get some; he was at least making an effort to act normal, be it through forced attention or conversation.
For him, it had often occurred that spending time with another person and using that time to get to know each other would end up being a much more interesting situation than one where his actions were primarily based off of what his teenage self wanted. Not only was he someone to respect and care for his dates -- not being too bold as to suggest such a thing with them straight away -- but Izumo was also someone to keep himself at a sort of distance from them. He was not about to ruin an evening doing something that they didn't want to do; and it was because he was genuinely interested in Reisi, that he didn't want to ruin one of the dates they could go on together.
"'s it too much t' jus' ask for a date with you?" Izumo ran his fingers through his hair in mild exasperation, letting out a sigh as if to prove that. "An' I mean a real one -- I jus' wanna do something, except for sittin' here, 's all."
Though he had at least made his opinion known, it appeared that such was shot down by Reisi's simple comment -- that the tickets they had already bought were non-refundable, and therefor would be a bit of a waste should the pair of them drive away right now. Perhaps the blond could be at blame, or even considered to be immature at how he'd handled the situation, but now was certainly not the time for him to be thinking of leaving. To waste money on tickets to a movie he never even got to see -- now that was plain idiocy.Â
"Hnn," despite being a bit unsure of the situation and now realizing that he should just keep quiet, so he wouldn't disrupt Reisi from the movie, Izumo still found himself rather upset at the outcome. Of course, it had to have been his passenger to notice that, and have acted upon it; after feeling a slight tickle stray against his hand, he immediately snapped up in surprise.
Now that was unexpected in itself -- Izumo's eyes trailed over the other male's form, taken aback by the suddenness of his suggestion. For someone who had always been seen as sophisticated and composed in the eyes of his 'date', Reisi was surely heading in a direction never thought to have gone in. It was only natural for suspicions to arise, and then bluntly be pushed aside for the time being.
It was, to say the least, amusing and slightly tempting.
"'m sorry...?" an eyebrow raised, and a small smirk formed. "Did you jus' say what I think you said, or are you tryin' t' make me feel better by makin' use of this? Y'know, you're the one who acted like usin' movie time for other things was bad... Can I ask where this 's comin' from?"
