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Hello, Im Oleen and I like to explore old places and keep outdated and forgotten things. | South

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Been idle here for 3 months. 

This semester has been a really tough one and grades aren't out yet so I'm still kind of worried about it. There was just so much to do every week, especially read. I'm losing time for my friends because I just want to spend my weekends for rest and family which I only come home to at the end of every week but everything's over now and I just feel so free from stress. 

Anyway, like before, sembreak will be spent to do things I haven't been able to do for the past few months which I am really excited about and the perfect time to organize our annual Christmas reunion (i still don't know why this job is mine). The semester ended with a party with my block whom I've grown closer with from the past few months and a trip to Tagaytay to see the sunrise which was so breathtaking. 

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i just absolutely love nights like this at home. just sitting beside the christmas tree scrolling through endless things that make me laugh or watching my favorites while my mother's in the kitchen and i wait for her to call me for dinner sometimes passing by in front of  me, cleaning whilst listening to our television. or maybe i just like vacations at home and christmas season. yes, that's it.

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I have forgotten how much I loved mornings and having a decent breakfast. How most of the people looks so alive at this time of the day and how the air is colder than usual. How you would hear birds from a distance and how busy people can get just to prepare for the day's work. How you feel more productive when you wake up earlier than usual. I am definitely not a morning person but waking up to a room with the sun creeping in makes me feel so alive and happy.

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Life's been pretty eventful with the in betweens of complaining and ranting about how exhausting school can be  but compared to the past semesters, this sem's workload were okay and bearable. 

One of my traits that troubles me on a daily basis is I don't seem to have the guts to participate in which I have to keep in mind that it would eventually lead me to nowhere so I have to speak up and be more involved. Joining new orgs and hoping that I'll have the will to be active on it is I guess a step towards this new goal of a better and more responsible self. 

Oh and as much as I want to write in my journal everyday, I just can't seem to find the time or the willingness to complete a month's entries in which there are days I have already forgotten. I have done 4 years of consistently writing in my journals and putting it to a stop is definitely hard but so is continuing it.

Lately, I prefer spending my weekends with family and relatives and in return I miss my high school friends because being away from home and having 6pm class every Friday lessens my time to hang out with them. 

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Thoughts when I feel down

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colegio

Vacation has come to an end and I'm still not used to going to school everyday (its just our 2nd week!!!) and I just want to get the 1st day phase over; meeting profs for the first time, seating arrangements, dispirited feelings because of 3 hour breaks and introductions. It hasn't sunk in yet that I'm already in my third year and god I only have one year left in college and it kinda sucks.

We played UNO for 2 hours while waiting for profs on our first day. It was fun until you get so tired when you reach the verge of winning but cards get added to your deck again. We were supposed to have no Tuesday class but oh well life is a bitch. The rest of the week consisted of waiting for electricity to come back, tv series, unhealthy food, friend staying over for the week which made the room a bit livelier, typhoon Glenda, cute neighbors, attending a wake and drinking games.

Hoping that it would take a little more while before all the stressful days come running at our faces because right now I just want to think about things to look forward to throughout the year.

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Red Tour MNL

Luckily, we were still able to buy tickets for the Red Tour a week before Taylor's concert and I couldn't be happier. Taylor Swift's Speak Now tour was my very first concert and to see her live again was so thrilling. 

I loved how she would stop performing for a while and just look at the crowd in awe. 

Concerts always leaves an exhilarating experience.

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Normally, I'd be in the unit right now waiting for the next school day to come but this year would be the longest vacation I would experience. Summer just ended and I'm not sure if I'm going to miss those terribly hot days where I would complain most of the time but its amazing how much time I was able to spend with people I used to see almost everyday before college started. Most weekdays, I would go out, meet up with people and go to places while my nights are just spent finishing tv series, appreciating new music, starting a new book or doing hobbies I've barely had time to do before. Weekends would be spent with family or to some place to escape the metro's heat.

Its the rainy season again and I missed how the sound of the rain would cradle us to sleep. Summer also left me a horrifying feeling of how unsure I am with my future but to keep my mind sane I would talk to people about plans and all the possibilities of life and that someday, I know that I'll be doing a job that I love. I have 2 years left in college and I'm mostly scared but I'll get by. A new fandom to officially end my summer and how odd it felt to be so hooked to them.

Also, I had time to disconnect again and be with my relatives! Disconnecting even just for a while always felt good!

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I've always hated how its so normal for us to feel this burning inspiration then suddenly leave you flat in your face questioning everything and its absolutely not a nice feeling. And sometimes it all happens so fucking fast.

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Can I just say that it has been a while since I last finished watching a film in my laptop, I would always end up falling asleep because I'm just too tired after going out or sometimes just not in the mood to watch something more than an hour long so I would just settle for tv series. 

I miss the feeling of being so affected and moved by the stories and moments of people and how afterwards it gives my mind something to think about. There's just something about really good films that makes you want to reflect on what you've done so far with your life. And also I haven't finished reading a book in months which is another sad part.

So I'm now trying to rekindle my love for reading and watching films and how I badly need to spend more time indoors doing these.

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daylight 

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sometimes everything looks better at night