im shiloh, but i also go by danny (please call me by both). i use he/they pronouns and sometimes shark/sharkself neos. i am a minor.
basically no dni, if I see you're a nazi ill block you, otherwise we're probably chill. One addendum to this is "men dni" blogs, I am a trans man and if you interact with me while having men in your dni I will take it as you misgendering me and block you.
i kin danny phantom from the series of the same name. I don't ask for sourcemates and doubles to not interact but to tread especially lightly. subspace fictionkin doubles dni i feel really bad about telling y'all to fuck off but if i don't ill be hostile as all hell to you and i don't want that. i also heavily syn kagamine len the vocaloid and sora from kingdom hearts.
this is a sideblog, my main is [something I shouldn't keep public because of The Raptures]. I also have a blog specifically for more dark things so that I don't lose all my other accounts along with it (you'll know it when you see it). i made this blog so that my regular followers wouldn't have to be burdened with my bi-monthly mental breakdowns over never being good enough to accomplish my dreams.
update: sometimes i hoard asks for a rainy day and a lot of times i don't spam back because i didn't know you were supposed to spam back (and im often busy unless it's like midnight in my timezone)
PLEASE BLOCK INSTEAD OF REPORTING.
im a self-identified "jirai" boy, but I don't quite feel like I truly belong there. i feel like im not... traumatized enough? but also I feel like im just not enough in general. if I am a landmine, im the pitiful kind that only really detonates after a few punches/kicks and the explosion barely leaves a scratch on you but im completely evicerated by my own explosion.
im a bit of a hikkikomori/shut-in, at least id like to be if my parents didn't keep dragging me everywhere, and that's actually how I found the jirai tag. in about mid- to late-october my parents finally let me start leaving my door closed and it's all been downhill from there. i spend most of my time on the internet nowadays and it's how I picked up the dream of being a famous Vtuber. for some reason i can't kill that dream so im stuck depressed until I figure out how to be a normal, productive member of the machine again.
i am endo/willo-neutral, in the sense that i am a singlet and in no way have enough information to make a full decision. from what i can tell/have been told, splitting is a direct response to trauma and cannot be done without it, however i believe that systems should be able to label themselves and their nature as they wish. i strongly believe that systems that call themselves endo/willo are still systems. that is the only thing i am settled on. again, please please please take this with a huge grain of salt as i am a singlet and overall should not have any say in this. tl;dr: I don't think the science lines up but endo/willo systems are probably not faking being systems.
I used to have tags here but I almost never used them so im repurposing this spot to talk about some coping mechanisms I've picked up
I may or may not have a minor candy addiction I've developed to prevent myself from s/h. it hasn't worked much cause I go through chocolate faster than a mouse through cheese, but I haven't left any lasting marks on my skin because I ran out so that's good. (not like I haven't tried.)
there's also Me Killing Minecraft Paper Dolls Of My Vtuber To Punish Him For Being The Representation Of My Deepest Hopes And Dreams, aka the other thing I've been doing instead of selfharm. Yay for """healthy""" coping mechanisms!
appropriate tw's will be used for corresponding posts and if I forget please remind me!!!
no one will ever see this but please don't ever kill yourself. you are more valued in this world than not. you would be missed by so many even if you feel otherwise. everyone always misses someone and is always missed by someone. that's the way life works. please. stay.
I’m not even gonna bother remaking my entire intro post again, but here’s the basics ig:
Call me Amethyst 🪽
>it/he
>17 (‘09)
>aroace
>agender (masc n neutral terms pref)(masc n cheese😋😋😋)
>angelkin nd dragonkin
>Giyuu, Albedo, nd Edgar Allan Poe (bsd) kinnie (i basically kin all the autistic mfs lol)
>diagnosed w MDD, GAD, OCD, C-PTSD, ESNOS/OSFED, and autism
>chronically ill (diagnosed w dysautonomia nd some other stuff… saving fr a cane🙏🙏😭)
>pro-recovery (anti-forced) just haven’t gotten there myself yet
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DNI:
Kaelucs/Luckaes, pedos/MAPs, zoos, T.R.A.S.H., anyone under 14 (no hate I just have some pretty heavy stuff in my blog nd I don’t want you to get hurt ❤️🩹/gen/nm)
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Btw trigger warnings for su1 ideation, mentions of abuse, maybe mentions of $h, etc etc
Please click off nd block me if you are uncomfortable with any of that, your safety and comfort matters and I espulsioni hate to contribute to your discomfort ❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹 /gen/nm
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I’m really depressing nd this is my vent blog
Gonna try to keep it less ‘heavy’ ig for now
Not sharing the doc anymore bcz I don’t wnna get t’d again, not sure anyone really viewed it anyways, but if you want it you can dm me ig
Like if it's a good idea to recommend getting into homestuck? Or like how you would get into it? Or how I would sell someone on the idea of getting into homestuck?
I've been trying to get into homestuck for a while, but i keep getting caught around act 3 because my reading stamina kills itself. how does one finish reading homestuck?
