stupid vent blog

any prns - just a vent blog - prof dx'ed and i don't care what your stance on self dxing is when you interact

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do you know how fucking desperate and lonely i have to be to vent on an unused blog of all places. jesus fuck. whats wrong with me. why is it just a feedback loop of feeling like shit so i dont talk as much. then feeling like shit because i didnt talk as much, but because i feel like shit i cant talk as much and i feel like shit about it i feel like shit about everything i just want to talk to people again without it feeling like 5000 tons of effort

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im crashing the fuck out i dont know whats happened to me i feel like im becoming more nad more and more distant from everyone i know and love and i dont know how to fix it when trying to talk to people feels like banging my head against a wall seven times even if i want to even if i really want to i m so scared i dont know how to talk to people anymore

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sorry

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Blood from the Concrete by The Scary Jokes is a DPD mood

What can I do for you?

I want to make you feel important

I'll give it up for you, cause

After all, you've been so supportive

Ooh, like, I get that trying to get affection from me

Is like trying to draw blood from the concrete

I'll prove that I can change, I'll rearrange my particles

Transform my heart into a tunnel over you

I don't know how I could get any lower, but

I can try my best for you, 'cause

If I can't be a good friend, maybe I can be good pavement

I can be your highway, you can walk all over me

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please take care of me im sorry i know im stupid and pathetic but you can make it all better you can make me all better i know you can i love you so much i hope you love me too please love me too

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my depended didn't say goodnight and now i ‘m very sad :(

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hello!!!!! pay attention to me or i will burst out crying right here right now this is a threat