behind these accounts, there is human with real feeling and heart.
let just start it with the basic question, have you ever block someone because you think he(or she) is annoying?
i have been knowing internet for almost half of my age, i am 22 right now. i have been meeting different kind of people, my current boyfriend was the guy i met on internet a year ago. internet changes how people communicate with each other and how we interact across the countries. internet helps people. but somehow, it also changes the way people behave.
maybe before the era of internet, people rarely know other people from another countries. no whatsapp, no line, kik, or any other messaging apps. they were dating guys they met on parties, or maybe just small gatherings they usually attend. no, they wont be having any thoughts of dating someone who live thousand miles away, because the phone bills will be thousand dollars everyday. not like right now, you have facetime or skype. before the era of internet, i assume that people who have problems will try to face it, talk to the other people about it. if they find them annoying, well, they will just probably suck it up. but no, to get the closure, they will talk. explain, talk and talk. i rarely find my mom got upset over small matters that did not have the closure before.
however, things get so different right now. i have been meeting some good and bad people. guys, i also talk to a lot of guys. one of the guy named cody eller, i am not gonna hide his name because this is the fact. we talked, for almost a year. he said he loves me and i did love him, it was just not in the same way like with my ex. i cared about cody, cody was like a person i could talk with. he had issues and problems, i knew how it feels like when you just wanted to run away. he was that kind of guy, talked to him soothe me. he made me feel beyond comfortable, he made me feel happy for some reasons. he left me, but he would come back after few months. i did not know why but what didnt change, he would say the same thing over and over again, “i love you”. what i knew about cody, or lets just say what i thought i knew, he had ex wife, and they had been arguing about the custody of their son. she won it but he kept seeing her once in a while. he admitted they had sex after they went into divorce but then he said he would never come back to her. in february, he stopped talking. but this time i got so worried. let me warn you, i am not a person who holding back, so i messaged his mother. she told me that her son is married and happy with HIS WIFE and son. i was in shocked, a guy like cody could do that to me? no its not about i was blind about people who lied on internet, its how he lied about it. so i texted him, no he didnt respond. i found his instagram and yes i got very upset so i asked for explanation and threatened him that i might post his nude. what he said? he instead just responded to how i got so pissed and threatened him, not that at some points we used to talk and cared for each other. atleast thats what i thought. he blocked me.
another guy i talked, he called himself as angel. turned out he was just some kind of depressed kid who wanted to be with girl, he claimed to be built and from australia. he was adopted and this and that, as if he was survivor. turned out? he was just a depressed kid. a fat depressed kid from a loving family. he wanted some kind of attention. he didnt explain anything to me, i went forward to talk to his mother about it. he blocked me.
and when i was with my current boyfriend, last year we had arguments and he blocked me everywhere. he claimed it was easier than had to explain all of it. it took one phone call to make this starting again.
what i was so surprised that those guys (other than my boyfriend) not realize that there is someone behind those accounts, a real person with feeling. a real person who probably grows some strong feelings, who cares, genuinely. they did not care if we deserve some kind of explanations or not. one block, they thought, could solve everything. it shut me up, but it did not stop me from wondering why. atleast, when we all had some kinds of moments, we all deserve the explanations probably.
maybe i was just an idiot, who thought that there are some people on internet who will be real about things. who will be honest, who atleast respect others feelings. i am not talking about those who stop talking to me, because lets just say we all will have life and start to driven away by that. but i am talking for those whose not being real, who thinks that well this is internet.
yes honey, its internet but behind these accounts, there is a human who has heart and feeling. if you are human, you will be hurt at some points no matter where the people who hurt us living at. whether it is on internet or not, everyone deserves some kind of closure, some answers for all the questions. please, stop using block to shut the fuck up people who got hurt by us. we have no rights to tell them that they shouldnt be hurt by us. please, think once again, if you think you ever hurt someone talk to them. explain.
and for those fuck boys, come on. be a man, atleast explain. why and ask for apology. thats it. sometimes you gotta live your life and be selfish but sometimes you also need to think that you dont live alone in this world
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