I wish I had more to give to the world and the people I love

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I wish I had more to give to the world and the people I love
A Date So Bad, I Made A Tumblr Post About It
I'm sorta just listing events from the date off but its not entirely in order, and I most certainly forgot a few details bc it was all so stressful and chaotic
Mostly posting this for myself and my friends to gawk at (hi! đ)
We met on the hellsite grindr. They're conventionally attractive, a bit odd and confusing through text, but were nice and seemed chill overall. We exchanged socials prior to meeting up and they had no local friends or much online community at all despite living in the area their whole life but I chalked it up to being newly trans.
These were the red flags I shouldn't have ignored, if you're keeping track lmao
I agreed to come to their place and my boyfriend dropped me off
First off I aint judging, but their house was completely empty besides their room even tho they claimed to have roommates and werent moving/recently moved?? unrelated but justa odd vibe and potential red flag lol
They were so erratic from the moment I met them they just kept talking n talking, and were clearly not all there bc I couldn't understand alot of what they were sayin. It made conversation so hard.
We sat on the floor of their bedroom and smoked wii'd
They got very emotional about everything and would like jump up and like grab n shake me by the shoulders to emphasize the shit they were babbling đ
Throughout the date they gave lil signs that they were a volatile person like they explained how they have had frequent fall outs w friends and family, their exs have called the cops on them on numerous occasions(explained in bits n pieces throughout the date during their semi-coherent rambles), and they had spicy reactions to me, just like, saying anything.
Thoughout the date they said the R word 3 times even after i told them it upset me, both to be funny and because they were mad at someone in their head, they made fun of muslims(amongst many others), told me "i dont go too far left, my political opinions will get me in trouble" and didnt elaborate when I tried gently asking about it.
They asked if I wanted to have sex like 4 times like out of nowhere in different ways and I had to say "Ive told you no 4 times, absolutely not, please stop" and kept pushing questions about my kinks. They also really hammered on how confusing polyamory was and made it clear that they thought it was dumb and funny that I have an asexual partnership w my fiance even though I explained it all to them prior ro meeting. :')
Like 6 times throughout our 4 hour date they made themselves so mad from talking(basically to themselves) about their traumas that they were like yelling at themselves while staring at the ground??
Surprisingly the thing that made me text my boyfriend to pick me up ASAP was they asked me to buy them food like over and over and made me explain why I didn't want to do that it was so creepy and weird and upsetting, ik it sounds dumb but just the way they were saying shit n pushing it really triggered my anxiety đ
(obviously manipulative voice that i notice immediately): "aw you know I could really go for some icecream but ive been broke recently and i have no food in my fridge"
me, knowing whats coming, already so sick of them: "Ah I feel you I love icecream, and I've been nearly broke recently too"
"..please buy me icecream?"
"uh no im sorry not today"
"please?"
"uuuuh, what? I dont really feel like it i already bought us snacks and i dont have alot of money"
"you said *nearly broke*. Can you please?"
"no"
"why not you have money"
and just kept going and was like asking how much I had in my bank account đ
i try to ignore my phone when im w people to be respectful so the first time i texted my bf was to get rescued right after they begged me for food money and they just stared at me silently for like 15 seconds while I was texting before angrily saying "Oh so do you talk shit to your boyfriend when your grindr dates aren't going well? Is that it?"
for my safety I had to pretend like I was willing to go on a second date but I blocked her everywhere except grindr before I was even out of her driveway đđ
its hard to fully explain how fucking weird and bad this date was
One last small thing lmaooo when she put a youtube video on for us to watch she just straight up unblinkingly stared directly at my face to gauge my reactions to it FOR THE ENTIRE VIDEO I STG IF THAT ISNT SERIAL KILLER VIBES DUDE
Im tired, I just wanted headpats but I put myself in danger instead uuuugghhh
Part of it was absurd and almost-funny, I couldn't believe what was happening at times, but it was also mostly just super stressful. Lots of thoughts n anxiety swirling through my silly kitty brain đ
Im not judging them for being clearly mentally unwell and I really hope they heal and get help for the stuff they're going through.. but also they were an objectively bad person who I need as far away from me as possible!
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American Shorthair Knight
Abyssinian Bard
Norwegian Forest Cat Shaman
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Sphynx Fighter
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Bengal Archer
Turkish Angora Healer
Maine Coon Berserker
Siamese Magician
Russian Blue Thief
Kyoung Hwan Kim - Army of Wool
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Literally the greatest post ever.
Excuse me, why the fuck isnât this an MMORPG Iâd play the shit outta this.
do u have a daughter
Yes, her first words were âbedroom popâ. So beautiful đđđ
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