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My recent menhera-chan cosplay o(>ω<)o

I got asked if I was P-chan lol ଘ(੭ˊ꒳ˋ)੭✧

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I love this leg warmers ≽^•⩊•^≼ I have them in two other colours 💗💚🖤

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Still all old stuff, but!! Maybe tomorrow I'll have something new since I've got to look nice for an outing ˚₊‧꒰ა ♱ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚

I really dislike the top. It's so scratchy, not nice to sleep in, but it's too cute not to wear (¬ ´ཀ` )¬

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I'm so tired, I dont even do anything

Hurting myself feels like a chore

Eating feels like a burden

I dont even want to sleep

I just want this to go away

I'm not sick enough for anyone to say anything

But I'm so tired of living

I don't want to live any longer

but I dont want to die

Why does everything feel so big

I actually really liked this one. It's one of my favourite outfits ˚₊‧꒰ა ♱ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚

Old pics ˚₊‧꒰ა ♡ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ I wanted to post more but I really can't will myself to dress pretty recently

(ﾉ>ω<)ﾉ :｡･:*:･ﾟ’★,｡･:*:･ﾟ’☆

I'm finally going out to actually interact with people ୧ ‧₊˚ 🥩🦴🦷🦷 ⋅

I...spend way to much time rotting in my room

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I hate this overwhelming feeling of not knowing who I am.

I love pastels, I love dressing cute and feminine and yet there's this overwhelming guilt i feel for not presenting full masc.

I want to be the rugged man, shedding any femininity from my body. I want to be a masculine man and yet I can't give up my femininity.

I love how i look in my cute clothes, my cute room decor, my love for cute things.

But I want so deeply to be rugged, masculine and boyish, to be the kind of boy I never got the chance to be

Why couldn't I just have one solid self? Why do I need to make it complicated with having opposing selves?

Most days I debate selling anything cute in a bid to sooth this self loathing but I know I'd regret it

I have no clue what I'm doing. So here, a picture from like..three weeks ago ﾟ.+:｡∩(・ω・)∩ﾟ.+:｡

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seb