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Does anyone else have “filler” daydreams? Like you daydream about an event that takes place in your paracosm but it’s not really canon? I’m not talking about a scene that’s a little too OP or an unnecessary death. I mean like a fashion show all your paras take part in or a beach day kinda thing? Like it COULD happen but your not sure if it “OFFICIALLY” did.

#when i have killed my paras of multiple times in a row #sometimes i just need break yanno?#it’s not like i can go to a beach anyway with corona #but tbf even without corona i would prefer to daydream it #actually madd #maladaptive daydreaming #madd #daydreaming

When you stop watching a show because the plot is getting too complex for your paracosm to handle and you can’t enjoy it because you can’t stop thinking about how tf your gonna fit your paraself into it

#i am spiraling #actually madd #maladaptive daydreaming #madd #daydreaming #paracosm

Not me reading a fanfic for the first time in years only to catch up and see it hasn’t been updated for a long ass time, thus making me remember why I hadn’t read a fanfic in years.

#i crave death #it wasn’t even that good #but i need to know what happens #i have a stack of published books to read #but no i have to know how this au internet story ends #fanfiction making me cry but not in the way u want

me: happily listening to audio edits and daydreaming about my paracosm

audio edits: adds a loud weird booming or slicing sound effect halfway through

me: dies

#it gives me a fright every time #why is it always so much louder than the music #soul has left both my paracosm and this world #actually madd #maladaptive daydreaming #madd #daydreaming #paracosm

My ear has been aching from listening to music so much with cheap ass earphones I decided not to listen to any music that isn’t out loud today and on god I have been awake for one hour and I am already struggling-

#feels like i’m on a daydreaming detox #or more like daydreaming rehab #actually madd #maladaptive daydreaming #madd

figuring out my paras are filling in areas of my life I never had but needed knocked me out for like a week

#is this why i have so many big brother figure paras #all my brothers couldn’t care less about me #BUT WHY DO I KEEP KILLING OF CHARACTERS I LOVE?#actually madd #maladaptive daydreaming #madd #daydreaming #paracosm

I LITTERLY JUST SAID “that’s so tragic” OUT LOUD TO MYSELF BECAUSE OF A BACKSTORY I MADE FOR ONE OF MY PARAS IM-

#actually madd #maladaptive daydreaming #madd #daydreaming #paracosm #paraself

Next level daydreaming is listening to a podcast which reviews the story your paracosm is based on and then daydreaming about those people’s reactions to your paraself’s character-

#ngl it helps takes me out of my own head #like i’m seeing my para self more as a character than me #idk if that’s healthier but then again this whole post sounds crazy #actually madd #maladaptive daydreaming #madd #daydreaming #paracosm

Not having enough material to daydream about but spending too much time daydreaming to gather more material.

#does this make sense #like i’m reading the book too slowly #actually madd #maladaptive daydreaming #madd #daydreaming

I have been daydreaming so much today I’m at the point where I have nothing left to daydream abt and now I am very confused and struggling to take in my environment what is happening I feel ill and my eyes keep shifting help-

#actually madd #maladaptive daydreaming #madd #daydreaming

Can you sprain your ankle from pacing too much while daydreaming asking for a friend-

#the friend is me help it hurts #lmao it’s midnight i have been doing this all day #i cannot walk this is so sad how do i daydream #my paracosm was just getting good too #actually madd #maladaptive daydreaming #madd #daydreaming #paracosm

How does one write to the creator of a long running series, telling them I have greatly improved their story by adding just a few extra characters I made up in my head and daydream about constantly... 🧍‍♀️

#I would also add a few Picrew avatars so they have photo refrence #why did my daydream suddenly become so good #getting depressed because no one will see the masterpiece in my mind lmao #actually madd #maladaptive daydreaming #madd #daydreaming

Crying about fictional characters in my head is the only real way to start of a Thursday morning

#actually madd #maladaptive daydreaming #madd #daydreaming #paracosm

Regretting telling my parents I have MaDD - I get a vibe they don’t take it seriously and are even annoyed I have this “label”. I wish they would understand this “label” has helped me understand what I go through and that there are others like me and there is such a loving and supportive community that have even helped me in getting better.

#actually madd #maladaptive daydreaming #madd #daydreaming #paracosm

My paras @ me when I change a major plot point years into the daydream.

#this gif is much funnier in my head because i’m completely changing my paras family relations #actually madd #maladaptive daydreaming #madd

If you don’t randomly stay up till 3am making multiple Picrew avatars of your Paraself - do you even have MaDD?

#this is a joke but also a cry for help #i am so tired #maladaptive daydreaming #madd #paraself #actually madd

Not knowing if something in a show really happened or if you made it up yourself just adds more spice to MaDD.

#actually madd #madd #paracosm #daydreaming

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