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i still wanna die

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the concept of my own roommates not even liking me woahh!! 😂😂😂

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i’m still miserable. i hate it here so much oh my god

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i’m miserable i’m miserable i’m miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable im miserable

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and for my next trick i’m gonna saw my head off

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i have lost everyone cause of the way i act. i can’t trust when people say im fun to talk to or interesting to be around because if it were true, i don’t think id be alone. Especially when everyone leaves bc im annoying or weird. I haven’t kept a single person and im too upset and depressed all the time. I talk abt my weird ed and rant. My mood swings are so drastic. idk why people say they like talking to me, everyone says that the first couple months tho anyway. i guess i become less digestible after a while. i don’t know. people say i don’t have to change and others think im everything negative. i hate myself enough already so i don’t know what to change, or if i even want to anymore. i don’t wanna get close to a guy again bc im scared ill do something wrong. maybe if i had friends it’d be different but it’s like my 3rd time losing everyone. I don’t believe it’s the last and i don’t know if id want to keep trying. i hate being alone but everytime im around people im weird, if not high. i dont have anyone and i get immediately jealous. I can’t look at ppl without envy at times and i get so triggered. i’m genuinely miserable, it’s lowkey killing me. i can’t imagine id be fun to be around

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left two months ago and he is still haunting me i want to die

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hey youuu 내 맘 아고 있나요… 💔💔💔

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wow

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i don’t believe anyone will ever love me the way i want. i am too weird and that’s okay. im really contradictory so id just confuse people. im socially inept and thats okay!!

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relapsing is so embarrassing when u have no one to talk to abt it

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i just wanted him to stop laughing. i hate how weird i am with people. i don’t know. maybe he does really care and he said everything cause he was mad. or maybe he fully meant it. though it wouldn’t matter because we don’t talk. i won’t be confused about mixed signals anymore at least.

i have truly lost like everyone, but it’s okay and i’ll be okay. i willingly decided to cut off my relationships and so i shouldn’t be sad about them. it’s so stupid. i’m so stupid lol.

[n0turg1rlfr1end]

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hii, I've been following you for a while. We've never interacted, but I see you on my fyp all the time. I've noticed that you've been going through a lot lately, and people on here aren't really being understanding, so I just wanted to reach out. I just wanted to lyk that people care about you, and you are loved. You're really important, and what you're going through is totally valid. I've seen you talking about suicide recently and I hope your joking, but I really enjoy seeing you on my fyp and I'd feel terrible if anything happened to you. I really really hope I'm not intruding, because we don't interact, but just know that there's someone on here that values you. You're amazing and deserve good things. I really do hope you feel better.💌🪽

thank u so much 🙁💔

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kill yourself

oh okay well 😭

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how do i kill myself 😭 i need to hurry up honestly idc abt guilt anymore im genuinely gonna die alone 😭

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loll