This has been a ridiculously long time coming. I’ve been meaning to write and record some specifically acoustic songs for so long, but for whatever reason it’s always been put on the backburner. I bought a new acoustic guitar recently, with the specific intention of writing and playing more solo stuff, but again it just wasn’t happening. I think the main reason for that was that I was determined to not just write sad songs about breakups and feeling down. But ultimately, when that’s all that comes out, that’s all that comes out.
So this is a sad song about breakups and feeling down. I’m hoping that with this out of my system I can start writing some more fun songs. But still, I like it. The recording is real rough, I haven’t slaved over the musicianship or the production, but it’s nice. If you for whatever reason decide to listen to it, it’d be nice to know what you thought.
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I thought about you today
And i wondered what i'd say if i should see you in the street: i'd probably just stare at my feet
I'd wave the white flag, and i'd hastily retreat
Come to think of it, i doubt you'd acknowledge me
But we were close
Just not as close as you think
For all the things we had in common we were never quite in sync
And you were so naive to think that things would just work out
As if taking three steps backwards wasn't a valid cause for doubt
And i'm still here, and you're still there
And i'm sure you still don't care
About my health, my future plans, or the condition of my van
But i'd just like you to understand
That i know what it's like to feel lost and alone
To start losing your friends with no place to call home
But i keep myself to myself
Because i know i won't let myself down
I keep myself to myself
But it's starting to wear me down
I threw all the cliches at the wall that day
Like 'i still love you, just not in that way'
You were too focused on the how and not the why,
You said you never knew me and i think you might be right
Just not as right as you think
For all the things we had in common we were never quite in sync
And you were so naive to think that things would just work out
As if taking three steps backwards wasn't a valid cause for doubt
And i'm still here, and you're still there
And i'm sure you still don't care
About my health, my future plans, or the condition of my van
But i'd just like you to understand
That i know what it's like to feel lost and alone
To start losing your friends with no place to call home
But i keep myself to myself
Because i know i won't let myself down
I keep myself to myself
But it's starting to wear me down
Maybe it's time i stopped asking 'what else could i do?' and shout 'well what else would i do?'
If i had to do it all again, i'd make the same mistakes and end up in the same dead ends
With the same old van and the same new friends
Telling myself that we'll live, we'll learn and we'll make amends
For the bridges we've burnt, and the people we've hurt,
You asked me how i sleep at night: i said i don't
But i'm learning to be happy with myself
And realise i'm not a man of spiritual wealth
But a man content to enjoy the life he leads
So i don't need you to tell me that i'm lacking self belief
Because i'm not
I'm all i've got
And that's just fine
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