Can’t Even

~scorpio, cello~ dealing with it, TW // 5’10”—sw I’M :: cw GETTING :: gw STRONGER ...mine unless reblogged :) haven’t bitten my nails in : 11 whole days!!!

[skuunx]

[sun-sp0tss-blog]

WE MADE IT TO TWENTY YEARS OLD

I NEVER THOUGHT ID STILL BE ALIVE

LOVE IS EVERYTHING

[lubricates]

i’m ok

i’m ok

i’m ok

*starts crying*

[avosoph]

being mentally ill is so tiring even when you’re not doing anything like damn I’m just sitting here and my brain wears me out

[slayomicuntbell]

Yamada Maiko

[onlycoffeethx]

i wish i knew what i looked like at my lowest weight. the first time i tried to recover i deleted all the pictures i had of my full body so i wouldn’t be able to trigger myself with them. (and this was pre everyone having a smart phone, so everyone took less pictures in general back then) but it’s so weird to have no context for how my body was, because i’ve felt like i’ve always looked the same even at my higher weights. i just have zero ability to picture myself physically with any accuracy, without the means to compare pictures. my weight is only a feeling to me.

[heavyweightheart]

A not-at-all-comprehensive list of possibilities for communicating distress around body image that are not the hurtful & nonsensical “I feel fat”:

I am afraid of taking up space

I feel exposed

I feel unsafe

I don’t feel heard

I feel rejected

I feel like I’m coming out of my skin

I feel the need to escape [my body, this room, this situation]

I don’t want to be here right now

I am experiencing overwhelming shame

I am afraid of not meeting people’s standards

I feel grief/shame that x aspect of my body is stigmatized

I keep hearing other people’s judgments of my body in my head

My judgments of my body are so loud right now

My eating disorder is being so cruel

I’m afraid of my hunger

I feel out of control

I feel that I’ve failed to do the “right” behaviors

I am feeling unable to trust my body

I feel grief, anger, etc.

I need to cry, yell, etc.

I’m afraid I’m unlovable 

I fear that I’m “bad” and my body must be “bad” too

I am angry at/afraid of my body for being the site of my trauma

[sun-sp0tss-blog]

*im a fkng iDi0t*

there we go losing two close friends, because of what u — (no, i ) — did

n this is how im coping aha getting sicker amirite death

[goldpixy-deactivated20230510]

[girlinlondon]

[sun-sp0tss-blog]

[namakte]

You have permission to eat. Even if you:

haven’t exercised

eaten too much yesterday

eaten too much today

don’t know the exact nutritional value of the meal

have gained weight

aren’t feeling hungry ‘enough’

feel like you don’t deserve it 

[cigsncoffees]

it’s actually so fucked up that i get proud when i don’t eat 

[todocorpogordo]

@momarchette on Instagram

[mlmgods]

fat trans boys be like………. handsome and just as worthy of love as skinny trans boys …… yeehaw

[sun-sp0tss-blog]

Progressing and meditating...

My bracelets are falling further up my arms and my rings further down my fingers...

[irishfolklore-deactivated201912]

Hey like full offense but diet culture is quite literally designed to manipulate women into destroying themselves physically and mentally and I have no patience for even a little bit of it