summary: you and suna has been friends till your childhood, you started to liked him in grade school but you are Afraid to tell him what you feel until it waa too late.
warning: broken hearts, angst, one sided love.
â rintarou! â you called.
Suna turned his head in your direction knowing who is the one calling him.
â oh hey y/n ! â he greeted you back while he was smiling. The smile you are always happy to see.
you always liked him since grade school, you liked him the way he smiled at you.Â
Even though thereâs a lot of boys in your first year of highschool liked you and confessed to you. You rejected all of them, because thereâs only one man who makes your heart flutter and that man is Suna Rintarou.
You never knew what he felt about you, but youâre never curious about how he felt to you because after all you never confessed to him.
You have reasons why you never confess. One of the reason is you are afraid to lose him but youâre not afraid that heâll not love you back.
you are happy if heâs happy, thatâs all you need his smile.
â Do I have practice today? â you asked him
â yeah, youâll wait for me?â he looked at you while fixing his stuff.
â duh.. of course iâm always waiting for you, besides my mom will get mad at me if i wonât wait for you â you sigh
yes, your mom gets mad if youâre going home without rintarou. You still donât get the point why but she told you once and she said itâs for safety.
so it became your routine with rintarou. You always wait for him.
you and suna went to the gym
â hello! kita-senpai â you greeted the captain as he was the only one there.
â where are the others? ``Rintarou asked his senpai.
â Theyâll be here in a few minutes, itâs still pretty early, â kita replied.
you went to the bench and sat while rintarou went to the changing room.
While you sat on the bench you saw the other team enter the gym.
â hello aran-kun, akagi-kun â you greeted the first one who entered.
â hi tsumu and samu" you greeted the twins.
â oh hi y/n, itâs nice to see you again â Atsumu greeted you while he put his arms on your shoulders.
youâre kind of used to this because heâs always this touchy and you guys are pretty much close.
â Tsumu stop that why are you always touchy to y/n, you know she likes someone else â samu told his twin brother.
â Oh shut yer trap â he said as he removed his arms from your shoulders.
â okay letâs get started now! â aran called the teams.
you went to the bleachers as you always do and watch them practice.
when the practice is done you went down and went outside to wait for rintarou as you always do.
â letâs go â rintarou went out of the gym
â kayyy â you followed him
He walked you home and he went to his home as always.
you woke up and went to do your morning routine.
âbye mom! i love youâ you told your mom goodbye
âbye darling! I love you too! goodluck!â youâre mother waved bye to you too.
you arrived at your school and went to greet rintarou first.
but when you saw him he was talking to a girl, who was unfamiliar to you.
you ignored it and just went to your room
in the morning classes you felt so drained as if you donât want to move or listen.
itâs now recess time and you donât have the appetite to eat so you just put your head on your table. As if you are waiting for rintarou to go and call you for recess but nothing.
recess is now done and you felt someone approach you table to see atsumu.
â hey y/n did you eat yet? â he asked you
â no, I donât have the appetite to eat â you put your head up to atsumu holding a box of milk and a green tea pocky stick.
â what come y/n, here at least eat somethingâ he offered you the food
âthank you, you can just leave it thereâ you still donât have the appetite.
all of your classes are done now and youâre just waiting for rintarou.
you saw him and went to him.
â hey rintarou letâs go, you donât have practice today right? â you said to him
â yeah â he replied to you while looking at his phone.
the girl passed by, the girl whoâs rin talking to earlier and you felt something weird.
you looked at rintarou, heâs now looking at the girl instead of his phone.
he looks at her as if sheâs brighter than the blue sky.
heâs mesmerized by her while youâŠ.
this is it, this it the time you realized that itâs time before itâs too late.
too late for rintarou to love you back.
you went to school as early as possible to wait for rintarou.
when you saw a familiar lemon shaped hair, you quickly went to him.
ârintarou!â you called him
ây/n? why are you here already itâs still early.â rin asked you
â I just need to talk to you, I need time so I came here as early as possible.â
you grab his hands and took him to the gym, itâs still early so no oneâs there.
âwhat do you want to tell me? Did I do something wrong?â rin asked you as if heâs nervous.
âno no you didnât do anything wrong i just need to tell you something importantâ you told him.
âuhmâŠâŠ i liked you rintarou, no i love you rintarou since grade schoolâ you confessed to him and you donât know what to feel but what u are feeling right now is sadness.
you donât know why you felt sadness that you already confessed your real feelings.
Is it because you already know the answer?
ây/nâŠâŠ.â rintarou looked at you with worried eyes.
âno itâs okay you donât have to tell me anything i already know your answerâ you talked as tears slid through your cheeks.
ây/nâŠiâm sorryâ âiâm sorry i like you too but i like her betterâ âiâm sorry i donât want to lose youâ he holds your face and you see tears in his eyes.
you were shock, you pushed him off and told him
âwhy would you even kiss me! if she was better! and Iâm not even half, as pretty!â you shouted
âim sorryâ these are the word that only come to rintarouâs mouth
âsorry? is that the only words you can say?â you sigh
ârintarou, do remember when you gave me your sweater because it looks good on me more than you do? funny that i still have the sweater you gave me, i kept it till middle schoolâ you just laugh of the pain.
rintarou just looks at the looks you never wanted to see. Sadness.
Now itâs time to go home and you went out of your room to see a familiar sweater and you went to see whoâs wearing it.
Itâs the girl whoâs rintarou talking yesterday.
âhey Heatherâ you heard a very familiar voice
you watched her as she stands with rintarou, Her holding hands with the guy you liked. The guys who can only make you happy.
You wish you could hate her, but you canât. Sheâs such an angel no wonder rintarou liked her.
you ran as far as you can to them as if you are avoiding them.
you went to see youâre at park, an unfamiliar one.
â I hate this, I donât want to hate her but I want to now! I hate her! i hate this! i wish she wes dead!â you shouted as you cry
you heard a very familiar voice, the voice you always wanted to hear.
you saw him, you saw rintarou, the guy you love and only care for.
youâre shocked, not because he hugged you because you feltâŠ.
you pulled aways and just smiled at him
âoh rintarouâ you giggle
âi see you gave her your sweater just like you did to me at middle schoolâ you looked at him
âyou know what? itâs just polyester, but you liked her betterâ you smiled at him
âI wish I was heather.â
again you show him your wide smile as if he wonât see it again.
tears stream through your cheeks as you say your last three words to him.
Hello itâs my first time writing a story like this. tbh my heart aches when i was writing this because i donât like sad endings. But i just gave it a try and it hurts.
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