summary: you and suna has been friends till your childhood, you started to liked him in grade school but you are Afraid to tell him what you feel until it waa too late.
warning: broken hearts, angst, one sided love.
“ rintarou! ” you called.
Suna turned his head in your direction knowing who is the one calling him.
“ oh hey y/n ! ” he greeted you back while he was smiling. The smile you are always happy to see.
you always liked him since grade school, you liked him the way he smiled at you.
Even though there’s a lot of boys in your first year of highschool liked you and confessed to you. You rejected all of them, because there’s only one man who makes your heart flutter and that man is Suna Rintarou.
You never knew what he felt about you, but you’re never curious about how he felt to you because after all you never confessed to him.
You have reasons why you never confess. One of the reason is you are afraid to lose him but you’re not afraid that he’ll not love you back.
you are happy if he’s happy, that’s all you need his smile.
“ Do I have practice today? ” you asked him
“ yeah, you’ll wait for me?” he looked at you while fixing his stuff.
“ duh.. of course i’m always waiting for you, besides my mom will get mad at me if i won’t wait for you ” you sigh
yes, your mom gets mad if you’re going home without rintarou. You still don’t get the point why but she told you once and she said it’s for safety.
so it became your routine with rintarou. You always wait for him.
you and suna went to the gym
“ hello! kita-senpai ” you greeted the captain as he was the only one there.
“ where are the others? ``Rintarou asked his senpai.
” They’ll be here in a few minutes, it’s still pretty early, “ kita replied.
you went to the bench and sat while rintarou went to the changing room.
While you sat on the bench you saw the other team enter the gym.
” hello aran-kun, akagi-kun “ you greeted the first one who entered.
” hi tsumu and samu" you greeted the twins.
“ oh hi y/n, it’s nice to see you again ” Atsumu greeted you while he put his arms on your shoulders.
you’re kind of used to this because he’s always this touchy and you guys are pretty much close.
“ Tsumu stop that why are you always touchy to y/n, you know she likes someone else ” samu told his twin brother.
“ Oh shut yer trap ” he said as he removed his arms from your shoulders.
“ okay let’s get started now! ” aran called the teams.
you went to the bleachers as you always do and watch them practice.
when the practice is done you went down and went outside to wait for rintarou as you always do.
“ let’s go ” rintarou went out of the gym
“ kayyy ” you followed him
He walked you home and he went to his home as always.
you woke up and went to do your morning routine.
“bye mom! i love you” you told your mom goodbye
“bye darling! I love you too! goodluck!” you’re mother waved bye to you too.
you arrived at your school and went to greet rintarou first.
but when you saw him he was talking to a girl, who was unfamiliar to you.
you ignored it and just went to your room
in the morning classes you felt so drained as if you don’t want to move or listen.
it’s now recess time and you don’t have the appetite to eat so you just put your head on your table. As if you are waiting for rintarou to go and call you for recess but nothing.
recess is now done and you felt someone approach you table to see atsumu.
“ hey y/n did you eat yet? ” he asked you
“ no, I don’t have the appetite to eat ” you put your head up to atsumu holding a box of milk and a green tea pocky stick.
“ what come y/n, here at least eat something” he offered you the food
“thank you, you can just leave it there” you still don’t have the appetite.
all of your classes are done now and you’re just waiting for rintarou.
you saw him and went to him.
“ hey rintarou let’s go, you don’t have practice today right? ” you said to him
“ yeah ” he replied to you while looking at his phone.
the girl passed by, the girl who’s rin talking to earlier and you felt something weird.
you looked at rintarou, he’s now looking at the girl instead of his phone.
he looks at her as if she’s brighter than the blue sky.
he’s mesmerized by her while you….
this is it, this it the time you realized that it’s time before it’s too late.
too late for rintarou to love you back.
you went to school as early as possible to wait for rintarou.
when you saw a familiar lemon shaped hair, you quickly went to him.
“rintarou!” you called him
“y/n? why are you here already it’s still early.” rin asked you
“ I just need to talk to you, I need time so I came here as early as possible.”
you grab his hands and took him to the gym, it’s still early so no one’s there.
“what do you want to tell me? Did I do something wrong?” rin asked you as if he’s nervous.
“no no you didn’t do anything wrong i just need to tell you something important” you told him.
“uhm…… i liked you rintarou, no i love you rintarou since grade school” you confessed to him and you don’t know what to feel but what u are feeling right now is sadness.
you don’t know why you felt sadness that you already confessed your real feelings.
Is it because you already know the answer?
“y/n…….” rintarou looked at you with worried eyes.
“no it’s okay you don’t have to tell me anything i already know your answer” you talked as tears slid through your cheeks.
“y/n…i’m sorry” “i’m sorry i like you too but i like her better” “i’m sorry i don’t want to lose you” he holds your face and you see tears in his eyes.
you were shock, you pushed him off and told him
“why would you even kiss me! if she was better! and I’m not even half, as pretty!” you shouted
“im sorry” these are the word that only come to rintarou’s mouth
“sorry? is that the only words you can say?” you sigh
“rintarou, do remember when you gave me your sweater because it looks good on me more than you do? funny that i still have the sweater you gave me, i kept it till middle school” you just laugh of the pain.
rintarou just looks at the looks you never wanted to see. Sadness.
Now it’s time to go home and you went out of your room to see a familiar sweater and you went to see who’s wearing it.
It’s the girl who’s rintarou talking yesterday.
“hey Heather” you heard a very familiar voice
you watched her as she stands with rintarou, Her holding hands with the guy you liked. The guys who can only make you happy.
You wish you could hate her, but you can’t. She’s such an angel no wonder rintarou liked her.
you ran as far as you can to them as if you are avoiding them.
you went to see you’re at park, an unfamiliar one.
“ I hate this, I don’t want to hate her but I want to now! I hate her! i hate this! i wish she wes dead!” you shouted as you cry
you heard a very familiar voice, the voice you always wanted to hear.
you saw him, you saw rintarou, the guy you love and only care for.
you’re shocked, not because he hugged you because you felt….
you pulled aways and just smiled at him
“i see you gave her your sweater just like you did to me at middle school” you looked at him
“you know what? it’s just polyester, but you liked her better” you smiled at him
again you show him your wide smile as if he won’t see it again.
tears stream through your cheeks as you say your last three words to him.
Hello it’s my first time writing a story like this. tbh my heart aches when i was writing this because i don’t like sad endings. But i just gave it a try and it hurts.
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