Sorry I don't really post at all anymore..
I've been pretty busy these past couple of weeks and I've been finding it a hassle to keep up with this. I plan on keeping my tumblr for my little "need to express" moments. Like now for example.
So I got promoted to the next class level in Joffrey for next year and they'll be putting me back on pointe for the summer. I could not be more excited. Seriously. It only took me 4 months of super hard work to get promoted. However, this weekend has opened my eyes to something I'm not sure I'm comfortable with. In the past, people have told me that my attachment to my boyfriend was too extreme and unhealthy. For a while he was the only thing keeping me happy. Now that he isn't here all the time, it's harder for him to be my sole source of happiness. I have fallen irreversibly in love with ballet. I am a "bunhead." And frankly, I'm happy about that. I've always wanted to be one of those girls.
Being Memorial Day weekend, Joffrey didn't have classes. My usual weekend class is Saturday's at 10:30. I feel like an insane person because I didn't have a class. I only have one more week of classes for the spring semester. I need it. I'm even considering going to one of my outside classes early in the morning tomorrow. I'm scared that I'm becoming too dependent on ballet now. I guess it's better than being that dependent on a person but I get frequently injured and I'm worried something will happen and I won't be able to dance anymore. Ballet is my life and it's everything I've ever wanted. Is needing it this much a bad thing? I need some help..