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sheepfilms
Sade Olutola
@theartofmadeline
The Bright Sessions
Fieri Frames
PUT YOUR BEARD IN MY MOUTH
if i look back, i am lost
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todays bird
art blog(derogatory)
Cosimo Galluzzi
occasionally subtle
Jimmy Eat World
Mike Driver
EXPECTATIONS
Interview Vampire Daily
Cookie Run:Kingdom Official!
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@sunk-sew-sad
What the fuck! You fucking turd!
Iâve been working hard on not depending on Mikey - whilst still trying not to tell him how shitty I feel about him so he keeps living in the house
Like the goal is to manage my feelings alone because itâs never helped sharing them with him
I hate him so fucking much. Iâm trapped in this house and I hate it I hate myself I hate him.
I only had a beautiful life because I had tricked everyone - I want to fucking calm down I donât want to be here everything is fucking pointless I hate mikey so much
U gotta shoot your shot every couple of years in case theyve had mold growing in the house
when someone asks me what i've been up to lately and i say "just chilling" i mean this
this makes me feel something totally indescribable
Baby girl Iâm blocked by people Iâve never heard of
My life is a baseline of everything sucks and I was tricked :: I hate myself for being so foolish to fall for mikeys lies and promises - I feel foolish for not being smart enough or mature enough to reject him and understand that me and sean did have love?
I feel ashamed that I am so angry - that I am my mother and father
I think itâs some sort of divine justice that I end up like her - everyday stoned trapped in a bad situation with no effort for change. Picking at my skin with belly. I hat this body and I want back the body I had when I was insane and thin and not eating. I know she was miserable but she feels closer to god than I am now.
Mikey softly drips in his judgement and dissapointment of me - it must be something to see a woman give up? He still needs to believe in the fallacy of our love in order to think things are okay or he is okay - he pretends for the both of us most of the time (my tight lipped kiss, not hiding when heâs being boring and rude, he pays for everything) and I just watch his performance and try not to feel sad or angry. Aiming for apathy (I wonder if this is how it happened for my mum)
Itâs stupid to feel proud of myself for not screaming at him every-time heâs awful and for not waking him up with YOU RUINED MY LIFE screaming through the door - he doesnât hear me when I say those things
He is all I have. And responsibility I canât handle (nala, the house, working, my health)
Just treading water - I donât want to see my nan die - I donât want to be alone. I donât want to hurt anymore.
I donât know how to talk to people or go outside or do anything????? I donât want to spend the rest of my life in bed crying.
Why did god send him to me? My divine curse and punishment.
scaring the hoes with rare wisdom and knowledge
Look man, I may be a handful, but so is this ass
i donât flirt i just say weird shit until you tell me iâm pretty & wanna kiss me
Having a traumatic childhood means you cannot talk even objectively about your basic foundational experiences without it being "venting", even if you're not actually venting. You just straight up have a huge chunk of your life you can't talk about, full stop, without it being trauma dumping.
And it not being socially acceptable to talk about your own childhood is super alienating. Sometimes people want to know why, and any answer you can give them is going to be off putting.
It's to the point I get irritated when something I said is framed as venting when I'm literally just talking about my life experiences, doing my best to keep emotion out of it.
when I was in high school, I overheard two older students talking about a friend of theirs.
One of them said something like, "it doesn't bother me that [Friend] was in residential mental health treatment, I just wish they wouldn't talk about it ALL the time".
The other replied, "Well, that was all of last year for them. So when they say 'when I was in treatment,' it's like when you say 'last year'."
I try to remember that any time someone says something that sounds Shocking to me. sometimes one person's scary special crisis is another person's last year.
Forcefully conscripted into the Lord of the Rings Set of '01
hey guys if youâre planning on making a vaguepost on the dashboard can you message me with the details and some of the lore behind the vague post youâre making. a vaguepost for the dash and a detailedpost for me. because i like to know whatâs going on. if you do this i will automatically take your side because youâve done the right thing by letting me know whatâs up. thanks in advance â€ïž
2024 AFFIRMATIONS
YOU ARE NOT UNIQUELY HORRIBLE
DESIRE IS THE ROOT OF ALL SUFFERING
KILL THE MAN IN YOUR HEAD
YOU HAVE TWO GOOD HANDS
COMPARISON DESTROYS PERSONALITY
CHANGE OR DIE
