fallen from grace

indie, mutually exclusive rp blog for ryu mi-yeong a nameless servant of gwi-ma

[sunlightlost]

#sunlightlost —

welcome to sunlightlost, an indie, highly selective, mutually exclusive and low activity blog for Ryu Mi-Yeong of KPop Demon Hunters — or what's left of her after the loss of her soul. former hunter and idol, current servant of gwi-ma. 21+ to follow, rules and notes below the cut.

a study in: losing your light, destroying what was once beloved, inflicting generational trauma, empty promises, unhealthy obsessions && more !

wow, hi, thanks for taking a look! spoilers ahead, obviously!

this is a terrible awful idea, and i’m a terrible awful cryptid for writing it.

despite her continued care for the sunlight sisters, it turns out that nine months of carrying your half-demon child is enough to take a significant toll on ones soul — and so it was that not long after Rumi’s birth that Mi-Yeong died, and Gwi-Ma was able to claim her with ease. after all, it was his child that had tainted her soul so thoroughly.

knowing memories of her life as a hunter would only make her less useful to him, Gwi-Ma stripped her of anything that had come before, lovingly cultivating the darkest corners of her spirit, bringing to light any wicked temptation she'd ever tried to hide. years of training to fight against demons has molded her into the perfect weapon to carry out his commands —

and if the Saja Boys fail? then Gwi-Ma may just have to send HER to clean up their mess.

tl;dr — when mi-yeong dies, gwi-ma claims her soul, strips her memories, and spends his time forging her into his perfect weapon against any new generations of hunters. rip.

Rules —

I'll keep it short and sweet: don't be a dick, don't be a bigot, don't rush replies, and other than that? we'll be great.

Triggers are tagged: _____ tw

[sunlightlost]

thank you so much to everyone who followed/expressed interest <33 i don't know that i get her right though — so i would invite you to follow my friend over at @fireinherfootsteps instead for a better portrayal ♥

[sunlightlost]

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[aminetko]

I’ll follow you down ‘til the sound of my voice will haunt you

[sunlightlost]

quietly slides a starter call across the dash —-

[neomsabyeok]

@sunlightlost asked: [ stitch ] sender stitches receivers wound.

❛i can do it myself─❜ rumi protests. the wound on her hand isn't all that troublesome - and definitely ACCESSIBLE enough that she can stitch the skin together herself.

but that isn't the point, and both of them know it.

she frowns, but allows the older woman to continue her work at her hand. ❛what are you trying to prove? one stitched wound isn't going to make up for─❜

make up for WHAT? perceived abandonment that mi-yeong couldn't AVOID? rumi's entire existence? her voice trails off into silence. she allows it to sit for a few seconds.

❛this doesn't change anything.❜

[sunlightlost]

“doing it one handed would be sloppy,” she notes, tone gentle despite the somewhat harsh content of the words. she doesn't doubt rumi's capabilities, trusts that celine has prepared her well for the life of a hunter. it isn't about whether rumi is able, though —- it may be selfish of mi-yeong, but it's important to her to be here now.

rumi's words ring true; nothing can change the past, nothing can make up for the fact that she wasn't there. but she's here now, and she wants to grasp every moment with both hands, hold tight to each second she's afforded with her daughter.

“i know.”

her hands are steady as she makes quick work of the sutures, muscle memory serving her well, even if it's been years since she's last done this. tying the thread off in a knot, she severs the tail with a sharp nail, dabbing at the wound with a damp cloth to clean it. “there...” a small smile, albiet not a particularly happy one. “nothing can change what's already done,” her tone is somber, gaze lingering on the freshly stitched wound, on rumi's hand laying atop hers. no apology could give her the childhood, the life she had deserved. “i can't make up for my absence then... all i can offer is to be here now — if you'll have me.”

[huntr1xed]

the hunters and protectors now hunted and attempting to protect one another. it brought a certain poetic irony, one rumi was not willing to entertain. others weren't supposed to sacrifice themselves for her. if anything, she was supposed to be the sacrifice. she'd always thought eventually when they sealed the honmoon, there was a chance it might take her with it, the forbidden demon blood running through her veins creating more and more marks with each passing year. then, came a greater complication—her mother or what was left of her.

"i can handle this. it's my—" she spotted the dark blood and ran to the other's side. "a- are you okay?"

[sunlightlost]

sharp teeth bare in an expression somewhere between a smile and grimace; pain was a familiar bedfellow to her, as any hunter — even if she could no longer call herself as such — and she wouldn't let it slow her. her time had already come and gone, what loss would it be for her to be cut down in her daughter's stead? her own life was a small price to pay, in her eyes, to protect rumi. there was nothing she wouldn't give — wouldn't sacrifice — for rumi's sake. she had already failed to protect her once; it wouldn't happen again.

“ it's my job to protect you, ” she counters, admittedly surprised by rumi's concern. after everything... “ i'll be fine, rumi — it wasn't a hunter's blade... ” 

[neomsabyeok]

rumi frowns, her features taking on a look of frustration and confusion mixed into one. ❛either you died or you didn't─ if you did... how are you back here?❜

her question trails into silence, her train of thought thoroughly derailed by the gentle touch of the other at her face. rumi's lips part as she tries to find something to SAY - she's searching for something that will make this stop, something that will push her mother away before she-

but mi-yeong's words come FIRST, laced with reassurance and a tenderness that rumi has never felt - not like this. she blinks, unaware of the tears that had welled in her eyes until she feels one slip down the length of her face.

❛then why do i feel wrong?❜

[sunlightlost]

what was dead should stay dead; she hadn't been granted that luxury. instead, gwi-ma had managed to sink his claws into her soul, ending her life in a way that wasn't quite death. it certainly couldn't have been called living either, though.

none of it mattered to her in that moment. someday, she would give rumi a full explanation; she owed her daughter that much, at least. and so much more, in truth, but she feared there were some things that could never be atoned for.

“ because i failed you. ” the words, while painful, ring true. she hadn't been here, hadn't been able to raise rumi as she had wanted to, as a family. rumi was living breathing proof of the power that love held, great enough to bridge even the gap between demon and hunter... the patterns were a sign of her demonic heritage, yes, but they were also a sign of love, and mi-yeong would have given anything for the chance to go back, to... to make things right. to ensure she grew up with love instead of shame.

“ you could never be wrong, 루꺼 ... ” as she speaks, she ever so gently swipes away the single tear from rumi's cheek with the pad of her thumb. “ i wasn't there —- ” not by choice, but how much does intent matter in the face of impact? “ i should have been there, 루꺼, my beautiful girl... ”

[sunlightlost]

➔ i told you not to do that! now look!

answered here!

[sunlightlost]

` * 𝐈𝐍𝐉𝐔𝐑𝐘 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐌𝐄𝐃 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒 -- accepting!

huntr1xed asked: ➔ i told you not to do that! now look!

and look she does, gaze falling to where the blade has pierced her abdomen, dark blood seeping slowly from around the blade's edges. it isn't a hunter's blade, though, so while the wound may appear jagged and deep, it could do her no lasting harm. not like it could have her. rumi... she wouldn't let him have her, no matter what it cost her.

“ he can't have you — ”

[sunlightlost]

quietly slides a starter call across the dash —-

[sunlightlost]

always pleasantly confused by new followers. like hi, welcome! but also where on earth did you come from?

[hollowprompts]

` * 𝐈𝐍𝐉𝐔𝐑𝐘 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐌𝐄𝐃 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒 : a mix of dialogue and action prompts. sent "+ reverse" to reverse the roles.

𝐃𝐈𝐀𝐋𝐎𝐆𝐔𝐄 :

➔ you're gonna be okay , just keep your eyes on me. ➔ don't move - you're going to make it worse. ➔ it's not that bad. ➔ you saved me once before , now it's my turn. ➔ you fucking idiot , you weren't supposed to take the hit for me. ➔ i told you not to do that! now look! ➔ you're lucky that i know basic first aid , or you'd be dead! ➔ stay with me, okay? stay awake. ➔ i'll be as gentle as i can be , i promise. ➔ you're bleeding - oh my god , you're bleeding. ➔ you told me it was a scratch , this is not a fucking scratch! ➔ there's so much blood. ➔ next time you want to play here , just don't. ➔ stop fighting me and let me help! ➔ you're banned from doing anything remotely dangerous. ➔ you could have died , what were you thinking? ➔ if you die on me , i'm going to be pissed off. ➔ you didn't have to be so reckless just to prove a fucking point. ➔ the wound will heal but you'll have a scar.

𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒 :

[ carry ] sender carries receivers muse to safety after finding them injured. [ stitch ] sender stitches receivers wound. [ hand ] sender holds receivers hand during a painful procedure. [ wound ] sender cleans receivers wounds with gentle and shaky hands. [ panic ] sender panics while trying to stop receiver's bleeding. [ patch ] sender patches receiver up using makeshift materials (i.e. torn shirt). [ fire ] sender drags receiver out of a burning building. [ pressure ] sender puts deep pressure on receivers wound while yelling for help. [ mouth ] sender gives receiver mouth-to-mouth resuscitation. [ change ] sender helps receiver change out of bloodied clothes. [ wash ] sender helps wash dried blood off of receivers face. [ shower ] sender helps receiver shower after an injury. [ broken ] sender tries to stabilize receivers broken limb with rope and sticks.

[ohisms]

✱˚｡⋆ ↪ 𝐔𝐍𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐋 𝐔𝐍𝐄𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐇 . ( a collection of lyric - based prompts based on hozier's album . adjust phrasing as necessary . )

i'm holding my world together with a bootstring .

i would do it again if i could hold you for a minute .

my life was a storm since i was born , how could i fear any hurricane ?

heaven is not fit to house a love like you and i .

i miss when we did not need much .

we didn't get it right , but we did our best .

when people say that something is forever , either way it ends .

i have never known a silence like the one fallen here .

there's money to be made , whatever is still to come .

i don't want to be anything like this at all .

there are some things that nobody teaches you .

we can celebrate the good that we've done .

if there was anyone to get through this life with their heart in tact , they didn't do it right .

all i needed was someone .

you only feel it when it's lost .

the awful things we do to make our heads feel quiet .

you may never know your fortune .

so far from home to have a stranger call you 'darling' .

i'm a butchered tongue still singing here above the ground .

if i was a riptide , i wouldn't take you out .

knowing that everything ends won't change our plan .

i feel lighter than i have in so much time .

i don't know how the feeling ended .

i know we want this to go easy by being somebody's fault .

how could i fall when i am lifted by every word you say to me ?

if i said that this was drowning , you'd tell me i'm walking on water .

who wants to live forever , babe ?

old and young are welcome to the meal .

how can something be so much heavier but so much less than what it seems ?

we had nowhere to go and every desire to go there .

if i fall , i only pray , don't fall away from me .

all our weight is just a burden offered to us by the world .

getting through still has a cost .

so much of our life is just carving through the dark .

after this i'm never gonna be the same .

some part of me must have died the first time you called me 'baby' .

are there limits to emptiness ?

i wish i was the sunlight , just sitting on the mississippi .

if you need to , darling , lean your weight onto me .

you can't buy this fineness .

some part of me must have come alive the first time you called me 'baby' .

the future's so bright it's burning .

i would do anything just to run away .

i heard once , it's the comforts that make us feel numb .

darkness always finds you , either way .

i know being reckless and young isn't how the damage gets done .

i haven't felt it since then .

i do not have wings , love , and i never will .

one time we would want for nothing , we knew what our love was worth .

i think i'll take my whiskey neat .

i'd still be surprised i could find you , in any life .

i don't need to know where we begin and end .

my name always hits my ears as such an awful sound .

i'm taking no orders , i'm gonna be nobody's soldier .

living the dream , benzos and gasoline .

i wish i could go along , don't get me wrong .

do you think i'd give up ?

i'm infinitely suffering , but fighting it off like all creation .

if you're drunk on life , babe , that's great .

what good would it be on the far side of things ?

i aim low , i aim true and to the ground is where i go .

i wouldn't sell the world , i would hold on for all its worth .

choose between being a butcher and a pauper .

i feel as useful as dirt .

it's the sound of it that brings me here .

when was the last time ?

i want to fade away with you .

whatever keeps you around , it keeps you around .

funny how true colors shine in darkness and secrecy .

when i was younger , i used to guess if there were limits to emptiness .

you know i'm good on my own .

one bright morning changes all things .

i'm sick to my skin , watching the news again .

how could you think i'd scare so easily ?

now that it's done , there's not one thing i would change .

would all things god allows remain above ground ?

i'd walk so far just to take the injury of finally knowing you .

you treat your mouth like it's heaven's gate .

could this be how every day begins ?

i can scarce believe what i'm believing in .

whatever you choose , you lose in the long run .

your reflection can't offer a word to the bliss of not knowing yourself .

the goal i was aiming for was the wrong one .

you're too sweet for me .

your heart , love , has such darkness .

let the sun only shine on me through a falling sky .

i don't wanna choose between being a salesman and a soldier .

how do you sleep so well ?

i wouldn't sell the world for all the gold and sterling .

the street is for the laughter of young women and men .

you can keep a dream in your mind only to find out it's the hope that's killing you .

each time i'm shocked by the light .

july is still coming , just knowing that gets me through .

maybe i have yet to venture out and see the places i dream about .

no closer could i be to god .

what you live in , it finds a way to live in you .

i want to be so far away from sight and mind .

you know the distance made no difference to me .

i thought you were like an angel to me .

i'd move so fast that i'd outpace the dawn .

all my love and terror balanced there between those two eyes .

i'm still glad i met you .

that moment i knew , i had no choice but to love you .

[ohisms]

✱ ˚｡⋆ ↪ 𝐒EALED WITH A LEAD KISS ... ( a remastered collection of dialogue prompts originating from syfy's wynonna earp SEASON 01. adjust phrasing / gendered terms as necessary, mature themes present. )

don’t go out there.

pretty AND smart. we’re gonna get along just fine.

if you hurt her i’ll kill you!

what are you doing here?

you’re late. as usual.

you’re in this with me now, [ name ].

no one else is gonna save you.

why don’t you slip into something more comfy, huh? like a coma!

i’m gonna put you in the ground like it’s my job.

you’re following me?

i noticed you already ‘borrowed’ all of my whiskey.

you’re supposed to be normal - you’re supposed to be SAFE!

of all the things i’ve ever wanted to call you? you’re such a coward.

wanna know how batshit i am? nobody shoots my family but me.

you stupid, crazy bitch.

you’re really staying this time, aren’t you?

this is blackmail, you dick!

how DARE you!

you owe me dinner. i’ll settle for tacos!

it seems i have settled among a commune of artists.

how about smiling, huh? you ever do that?

well, i like attention. i always have.

you ain’t one of us.

i’ve been meaning to introduce myself, i’m [ name ].

when i see something i like, i don’t wanna wait.

good thing you’re not some guy, right, or this would be really, really awkward ...

you don’t have to be nice to everybody.

i would remember a face like yours.

i’m an excellent judge of character.

you’re so not my type.

darlin’, i’m everybody’s type.

the dead don’t get a vote.

pfft, rookie mistake.

god, that’s super weird — what’s going on?

you need to hide.

run ! i’ll hold them off.

i am sorry, [ name ], but it’s you or me.

you’re a good man! you’ve got a code!

you don’t wanna do this!

you have no idea what i want.

buy me a round, [ name ]? seems like you’re just my type.

we can’t all settle down with our high-school sweethearts.

welcome to team ‘shut up and do what he says’. sometimes, we get donuts.

you should be doing this. you were meant to.

deal with that ... or i will.

we didn’t trust each other ... and now look what i’ve done.

you do not know what i am.

you’re supposed to be a hero.

pull your head out of the past.

the hell took you so long?

this is what our victories might have to look like.

look, if you’re about to propose a threesome, i’m tired and i haven’t shaved my legs.

this just doesn’t make sense to me.

goddamn, it’s you.

the problem with this criminal thing, is it’s kinda fun.

i can’t live like this, not anymore

don’t get your hopes up, we don’t know what we’re gonna find.

it wasn’t my idea to do this.

this is the only way to sanctuary.

you just could never help yourself.

vengeance is hollow, [ name ]. it isn’t worth a thing.

you’re not a monster.

i need rules. a code. otherwise i’ll end up just like you.

stop kidding yourself, [ name ], you are exactly like me.

i sympathize with your predicament.

leave, if you want.  go get ... dead.

only one death scares me, and it didn’t take.

ugh, ever heard of manscaping?

come on, he is just ... so beneath you.

what’s up, [ name ]? i never see you.

i’m the one with the vendetta, why are you gunning so hard?

we? there’s no ‘we’.

why should i help you?

you think an $8 bottle of pinot will make me listen?

i never liked you, you know.

am i in danger?

back then, you lived and died by what the seasons gave you.

shut up and help me.

can’t we just enjoy the moment for once?

[ name ], now is not a good time.

happiness is a myth.

would you like some company?

it’s gonna be a long night,  might as well make it fun.

you’ve done your worst.

how many tiny pillows does one girl need?

hold on a second, i want to record this so i can replay it to you when you’re being a dick.

you being here is definitely not selling ‘normal’.

there’s been a change of plans, i need to go away for awhile.

this is supremely cryptic, even for you.

say ‘pomegranate’ if someone’s got a gun on you.

this doesn’t seem healthy, [ name ].

i don’t really care where we are, as long as we’re all together.

are you sure you’re okay?

don’t be cross, i’ve got wood.

your ass is like ... top shelf.

dude, you’re like a walking bumper sticker.

is this strip poker? i’m not shy...

this kind of wound won’t heal, i’m dead already.

you save your vendetta for another night.

you suck at your job.

don’t shoot me, [ name ].

honestly, [ name ], you’ve gotten so weird.

that is NOT sexy!

nobody keeps booze in here, [ name ].

i think somebody’s trying to scare you ... toy with you. why?!

you of all people should know better than to try and make me question my sanity.

what do you MEAN you killed a stripper?

in my experience, dynamite solves all manner of problems.

haven’t you read a romance novel lately? heroes always win.

oh, you want to be a hero?

wanna tell me what that was about?

that was really brave. stupid, but brave.

i have something i need to say.

i’m starting to think sanity’s overrated.

i understand if you hate me.

you’re always, ALWAYS lying.

we should get some breakfast, i could murder a stack of pancakes.

you should know by now, i’m not most people.

well, you learn something new every day.

hey, no, you’re okay. lay back.

[ name ], i need you to listen to me.

okay, [ name ], we’re in serious shit here.

park your daddy issues.

i’m not like you, [ name ]. i’m not brave.

what was the last thing you saw?

close your eyes, take a deep breath in.

look at who the cat dragged in.

cut the bullshit. i know who you are.

you use humor as a form of self - defense.

answer my questions without any more guff.

what is it with psycho’s and talking in the third person?

you’re not really in the position to do any bargaining, are you?

you do look like you can handle yourself.

you want my help? you need to earn it.

i guess [ name ] wants you alive for something.

we should make it look real.

you know how to make someone show you where something precious is hidden? set fire to their house. it’s the first thing they go for.

don’t be irrational, [ name ].

you served your purpose, and now you are released.

i’ve had a lot of names, but you can call me [ name ].

you weren’t leaving without me, were you?

never touch my stuff.

you’re the sickest puppy in the litter.

you were dead ... and now you are not.

oh, aren’t you the master of deception?

let’s not kid ourselves, you’re not going to survive this.

[ name ], i always hoped that i would have this pleasure.

if you stand for nothing, you are sure to fall.

you do what you do best, [ name ], you fight.

you’re just like me. you’re broken.

i’m not lonesome, i just prefer to hunt alone.

you have to let go sometime, [ name ].

you continue to disappoint me.

let me make it up to you.

i thought i’d feel different. i thought i’d look different.

you release the rage, you might find there’s nothing left.

woah, wow, this is not what i expected the cat to drag in.

for the first time in ages, i woke up and knew exactly what i needed to do.

you can try, but i dare you to cockblock the drive i woke up with this morning.

i’ll sleep when i’m dead.

you’re not alone,  [ name ].

just once i want you to say it. that you care about me.

someone woke up on the wrong side of the bed.

why do i even get out of bed?

i lost you once, i won’t let that happen again.

[ name ], you are shakin’ like a leaf.

jesus, listen to me. maybe i am crazy.

i’m not sure this is the best idea.

you’re the one who told me i should blow off steam.

i’m not crazy, right? there’s something going on here.

you’re making fun of me ...

get in the car.

could everybody just stand still for one freakin’ minute?!

it’s gonna be okay.

i just screamed at you, you shouldn’t be nice to me.

we’re not dating.

i would never ask you to be someone you’re not.

yeah, sure, [ name ], whatever you want.

[ name ], what kind of a mess have you got yourself into now?

if you shoot, this all goes to shit.

your poker face is pitiful.

sorry, no speak evil.

who won’t you make a deal with, huh?

you can judge me all you want.

what do i care for some broken woman’s opinion of my character?

you can talk all you want. they’ll be your last words, anyways.

this whole time you’ve thought this was personal.

you shut your lying mouth.

what happened to being friends?

it’s not so easy to be brazen when the thing that you want, that scares you to death, is sitting right in front of you.

i scare you?

when i think about what i wanna do most in this world, it’s you.

jump in anytime, [ name ], because i really don’t know how to do this.

maybe you should make me.

i owe you a heap of thanks. and my life.

can i at least buy you a drink?

aw, [ name ], you really do care.

it’s worth dying to see the look on your face.

men are all the same. even the demonic ones.

[ name ], calm your tits. have a drink.

do me a goddamn favor and refrain from mentioning that name.

i think you would be very pretty in blue.

everybody knows... about us. the sex.

you tracked me?

what are you doing here, [ name ]?

if you’re keeping things from me, IMPORTANT things ...

don’t get all hard & forget that you’re human.

sun’s starting to go down, we should head back.

i feel a real connection with you, [ name ].

i do hate goodbyes.

look, we need you, okay?

can’t you at least try?

we can’t tell anyone. not until we know for sure.

i don’t want to be rude, but i don’t know any of you ... or what’s happening.

i don’t drink.

what kind of people give a kid a switchblade?

this is your home, [ name ].

how can you think this is funny?

i’ve been crazy, didn’t care for it.

i’ve been told i have character.

are you scared of me?

i need to start drinking less ... or much, much more.

how in the hell did you get this?

i lost control. i was angry at everything ... at everyone.

you promised to never tell anyone that.

it’s always been you and i.

it can be like it always was ... and different, too. in all the right ways.

you’re not alone anymore.

i think i got a little bit shot ...

i need you to tell me everything you know about [ name ].

i thought i was doing what you asked!

whatever you’ve got planned, i’m game.

now there’s a sight for sore eyes.

i don’t wanna hurt you.

why aren’t you more freaked out?

if there’s one thing i’ve learned this year, it’s that ‘good’ is a moving target.

what are you gonna do about it? tell on me?

who the hell are you?

you took it from me?

nobody’s getting hurt on my watch.

when are you gonna take responsibility for all that you’ve done?

i’m running out of goddamn time.

this isn’t over. i’m coming for you.

now you know how it feels when people take your things.

i know that you’re scared, so am i.

are you sure you’re up for this?

you might want to stand back.

you went wrong.

this one’s gonna hurt.

i’m ready for anything.

[sunlightlost]

a wip list of mi-yeong's verses, since there are a few now!

main verse: following her death, mi-yeong's soul was snatched by gwi-ma, who took her memory and made her a weapon in his arsenal. (sub verse for regaining memories also available!)

idol verse: mi-yeong's years with the sunlight sisters! takes place ~20 years in the past

demon mom verse: in which mi-yeong is still taken by gw-mi, but manages to slip her leash and fight her way back!

everyone lives verse: in which mi-yeong isn't successful in hiding her pregnancy from the other sunlight sisters, they drag her back and the three of them raise rumi together, and live happily ever after.

[michyeosseo]

Mine. She was mine.