solanaceae

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[sunomaly]

I want to live a life from a new perspective

#sunomaly : an independent sol from the game I was a Teenage Exocolonist, loved by kc. 21+ only. personal blogs please don't interact.

a study in: grief. rebirth. change as the only constant. you can't save everyone, but you can try. an old soul in a new world. navigating trauma. we lived a good life.

carrd.

[sunomaly]

i wanna write so bad so like this for a starter, or i go into your inbox and spam just a teeny bit (likely both)

[sunomaly]

i wanna write about sol and how as time goes on and they live more lives, they become more and more hopeless and more desperate. like imagine living dozens and dozens of times, always the same life, the same dangers. you can save people, but you can never save everyone. you can stop a famine, but your mother still dies. you can cure a disease, but it won't matter. every time you live you are alone. not because there's no one with you. you still have friends and family. but because you are the only one aware that all of this has happened before. you fall in love over and over again, and then it's like it never happened. you look at your lover from a past life, and you might see hatred, or indifference. you save someone that in a past life you watched die in front of you. you watch the one you have loved over and over again fall for someone else. your memories blur to the point where you can't distinguish what's happening vs what has already happened. you yearn for someone, anyone to believe you, but that moment never comes. and if it does, you know that in a few years it won't matter. you watch your best friend die in one life, watch another get pregnant, watch another suffer. you watch your lover run away, you feel the planet quake as a bomb goes off. you suffer the same pains over and over. witness the same tragedies. but no one believes you. there's nothing you can do. they call you crazy if you try to tell them. they call you delusional, insane, a liar, a storyteller. you have no one. and yet you still try. because part of you hopes that maybe this time will be different. maybe something, some little thing will change. but it never does.

[sunomaly]

if vace has one hater it's me. if he has no haters, i am a dead bitch.

[sunomaly]

if your muse is dating sol, expect them to bring their partner cool things they found while out surveying. here have this pretty crystal, here have this red egg. here have this piece of ancient technology. here have this alien flower. have a LOG.

[sunomaly]

thinking about this more and yeah they love giving gifts, but they also love love love the little moments. they give gifts, but they aren't as comfortable receiving them. instead they prefer words of affirmation, quality time, and little bits of physical touch scattered throughout. it doesn't have to be full pda. they enjoy just holding pinkies with dys, listening to music. they like little compliments and being told they mean something. they want so badly to be loved and they're afraid that it's not in the cards for them.

[dungeonwriter]

𖥔⋆｡°✩ LOVESICK FOOLS ⸻ a collection of action prompts centered around sweet moments, lingering affection, and the little things that make love feel warm. adjust as necessary. add + reverse as needed.

sender falls asleep against receiver's shoulder halfway through a movie.

sender pulls receiver closer by the sleeve of their sweater.

sender wraps a blanket around themselves and receiver.

sender hooks their pinky around receiver's.

sender rests their head in receiver's lap.

sender presses a quick kiss to the top of receiver's head.

sender quietly cleans up after receiver while they're distracted.

sender saves the last bite for receiver.

sender writes love notes and leaves it somewhere receiver will find it.

sender curls up beside receiver on the couch.

sender grins every time they catch receiver looking.

sender snaps a candid photo with receiver when they aren't paying attention.

sender bumps their shoulder against receiver's while walking.

sender dramatically flops across receiver's lap.

sender nudges receiver's foot beneath the table.

sender automatically looks for receiver in a crowded room.

sender shifts a little closer to receiver without realizing it.

sender lets their knee rest against receiver's.

sender finds an excuse to sit beside receiver.

sender lights up the moment they spot receiver.

sender lingers a little too long after saying goodbye to receiver.

sender watches receiver from across the room with a soft smile.

sender gently wipes something from receiver's face.

sender points out constellations to receiver while the two of them lie beneath the stars.

sender ends up covered in flour while baking cookies with receiver.

sender pulls receiver into an impromptu dance in the middle of the kitchen.

sender absentmindedly doodles on receiver's hand while the two of them talk.

sender gets caught staring at receiver and immediately looks away.

sender carries receiver after they admit they're too tired to keep walking.

[kamibakura]

so happy to see the exoweek back for the solstice ! I tried the "Old Sol" prompt

[sunomaly]

sol curls up on the couch in the living quarters, exhausted. they swear, their parents are the busiest adults in the colony.. they hardly ever saw them unless they went to geoponics. part of sol had hoped that their parents might have taken the day off as well, seeing how hot it gets during dust. cal was laughing with his mom or one of her partners, marz is showing off for her two dads, tammy was cuddled up with her dad watching a holovid..

a creeping loneliness clutched at the 12 year old's heart as they watched their friends with their parents. everyone else looked so happy, so close.. solanaceae couldn't help but feel a little jealous of all of them. how come their parents spent time with them? why couldn't they have that with their mom and dad?

they flick off their holopalm, grabbing their photophonor to head back to their own living space. even if it was empty, they'd rather be there than seeing everyone else happy with their parents. they don't want to admit it, but they were lonely, and jealous. cal had like- four parents now that his mom had started dating pep alongside two others. tammy only had her dad, but uncle tonin was so nice, and he was always willing to hang out with her. marz had two dads who loved her and gave her basically everything she wanted, and they were proud of her. anemone had her mom auntie seedent, and she had her brother kom too! it wasn't fair.

they crawl into bed, tugging the curtain angrily to shut out the rest of the world. screw them.. screw everyone.. they didn't need anybody. but even those thoughts carried pain as they hugged the doll that auntie seedent had given them when they were tiny. it isn't fair. it isn't fair. they don't want to be alone, they want their mom, they want their dad. but they're always so busy, they can't leave geoponics. but it doesn't stop sol from missing them all the same.

sometimes they wish that the stratospheric hadn't ever landed.. they miss how close they were to everyone in space. how they would be able to see their parents more often, how they got to play with all their friends in the crèche all at the same time. now everyone felt further away, and they hated it. they love vertumna, they love exploring the outside even though they're not supposed to.. at least out there they got to choose that they were alone. within the walls it felt like it was out of their hands.

they curl tighter around the doll, a tear running down their cheek as they shut their eyes tight, turning out the light. maybe sleep will bring better dreams.. a dream where they're not so alone. one where they can play with their dad while their mom stood laughing. no farming, no struggling, no fear, no fighting. just family.. everyone happy again..

[zachrp]

ᝰ🚬 𝚉𝙰𝙲𝙷𝚁𝙿 .ᐟ STRAINED FAMILY DYNAMICS-THEMED PROMPTS. CHANGE ANY PRONOUNS IF NECESSARY. SOME MATURE THEMES MAY BE PRESENT.

you're just like your father.

you're just like your mother.

you spent years tearing people in this family down and now you're upset they won't come back?

i can't believe i used to defend you.

you always need someone to blame, and when you can't find one, you make one.

you don't get a medal for finally doing what you should've done years ago.

every apology you've ever given this family came with conditions.

i wasn't trying to start a fight. i was trying to have a conversation.

don't stand there acting shocked. you created this.

you know exactly why i don't come around anymore.

why am i always the one apologizing?

every problem in this family gets traced back to you eventually.

you taught me exactly what kind of person i never wanted to become.

you keep calling us ungrateful. for what, exactly?

we keep pretending this family works.

every family gathering turns into this because of you.

the worst part is that i still wanted you to choose me.

you don't miss me. you miss controlling me.

you taught me what love shouldn't look like.

you never wanted a family. you wanted control.

you're exactly the person you swore you'd never become.

everybody notices it. they just won't say it out loud.

you ruin everything you touch and then wonder why nobody calls.

maybe if you called once in a while, you'd know what's going on.

you don't get to disappear for ten years and come back giving advice.

i didn't ask you to be my parent.

maybe they're gone, but we're still dealing with what they left behind.

we had to learn how to adapt because of you!

if everyone keeps leaving you, maybe the problem isn't everyone else.

you want sympathy for wounds you've spent years giving to us.

i can still hear the way you talked to me when i was a kid.

you're the reason nobody wants to be in the same room anymore.

nobody ever defends me when you're around.

i don't know why you're crying now.

you always have an excuse.

you've been blaming everyone else for so long you've forgotten you're the common denominator.

you didn't protect me.

nobody warned me that forgiveness and trust were different things.

you can yell all you want. it won't change what happened.

nobody told me because they knew i'd be angry.

you forgot my birthday.

i shouldn't have had to raise myself.

you have no idea what was said about you after you left.

don't raise your voice at me.

you've been holding this family hostage with your temper for decades.

i wasn't trying to replace anyone.

i would rather tell a stranger my problems than tell you.

that's your problem. you mistake fear for respect.

nobody asked what i wanted.

funny how you only show up when you need something.

you think being loud makes you right.

you act surprised every time there are consequences.

go ahead and leave. that's what you're best at.

you weren't there, so don't tell me how it felt.

everybody walks on eggshells around you.

you make everything about yourself.

you never even tried to know me.

you've hated me since the day i showed up.

it was easier to blame me than deal with the truth.

you're mad at the wrong person.

you had every opportunity to be better than this.

you're acting exactly like them.

why am i hearing this from everyone except you?

you treat strangers better than your own family.

you lost the right to call yourself family a long time ago.

i became the problem the moment i stopped staying quiet.

you inherited more than just their eyes.

for once in your life, stop defending yourself and listen.

i wish someone had believed me the first time.

i don't owe you forgiveness.

you don't miss me. you miss access to me.

i didn't realize love came with so many conditions.

nobody is attacking you. we're finally holding you accountable.

i spent years cleaning up your messes.

we all learned how to survive you in different ways.

you're not upset about what happened, you're upset people know about it now.

funny. that's not what you told everyone else.

you don't get to rewrite my childhood because the truth embarrasses you.

i've spent my entire life paying for your mistakes.

keep talking. every word just proves my point.

stop pretending everything is fine.

i don't care how difficult they were. they were still my parent.

you were the favorite and you still act like you suffered the most.

nobody asked how i was doing after it happened.

i can't tell if you forgot or if you just didn't care.

the worst thing that ever happened to this family is that nobody ever told you no.

i don't hate you. i just don't trust you.

that's not how it happened.

i wasn't invited, remember?

you had chance after chance after chance.

you keep asking why we're distant, but you never ask what caused it.

the second they walk into the room, you change.

you don't get credit for doing the bare minimum.

i spent years trying to earn your approval.

you're impossible to love and exhausting to be around.

i stopped expecting better from you years ago.

you don't get to scream at people and call it honesty.

that's the first honest thing you've said all day.

you don't get to demand respect from people you've never respected.

i wasn't jealous. i was neglected.

nobody here is scared of you anymore.

i don't care what your intentions were. look at the damage.

you always leave before anyone can confront you.

nobody abandoned you. we just got tired of being treated like garbage.

you were in the house, but you were never really there.

you never wanted a family. you wanted an audience.

every story you tell somehow makes you the hero.

i learned a long time ago not to expect anything from you.

you can't keep blaming your childhood forever.

you left me alone with them.

you say we're family whenever it's convenient.

the rest of us learned to survive your moods.

the second someone stops agreeing with you, they're suddenly the enemy.

you always act like you're the only one who had a hard childhood.

i don't even know if you like me.

you don't get to play victim now.

i spent my childhood being afraid of you.

don't compare me to them.

every generation in this family passes the damage down and calls it tradition.

the only reason this family still talks to you is guilt.

i didn't forget your birthday. i just didn't think you'd care.

stop pretending this conversation is beneath you.

the only time you call is when you need something.

i was a child.

i don't know what's worse, your anger or your silence.

we were all scared of you.

the only person who doesn't know how selfish you are is you.

you weren't the only one grieving.

we all know who they're going to side with.

i spent more time defending you than you ever spent defending me.

nobody talks about what happened because they're afraid you'll leave again.

why is everyone afraid of upsetting you?

we're related. that doesn't mean we're close.

[sunomaly]

playing this game is a constant struggle because how dare i have to romance other characters for achievements and completionism. I WANT DYS DAMMIT GIVE SOL THEIR EMO SOULMATE

[sunomaly]

i wanna write so bad so like this for a starter, or i go into your inbox and spam just a teeny bit (likely both)

[cuteteacakes]

{★} - "Uh... yeah. Our ship ran out of fuel so we made an emergency stop to fill up. Is that an issue?" Volans turned to Orion. "You said this planet was safe to land, right? Something like nine million alternate timelines said-" No response. "...........Orion?"

{✩} - The navigator rubbed his temples. "Ah... sorry, what? I-" He grimaced. "My head, it-" Then he happened to see the other being and went pale. "..You. You aren't... you're not supposed to be here... it doesn't make sense.... ow...."

{★} - Volans slapped Orion on the back. "Sorry about him, he's fifth dimension, he gets timeline headaches sometimes. Soooooo about that fuel~"

[sunomaly]

solanaceae blinked in confusion, looking around them to see nothing but the pink grasses of the valley of vertigo. whatever fuel they needed, sol could only hope they might be able to find it. "i mean- it's safe.. just don't mess anything up." they'd been able to maintain a good relationship between the colony and the gardeners, but it could be tricky at times. and explaining this to marz- hoo boy..

"is he alright...?" they asked, concern crossing their features at orion's words. they weren't supposed to be here..? that felt ominous as hell. timeline headaches-

"future sight..?" the words left their lips before they could stop them, their eyes immediately locking onto orion. if he'd never been here, and they were saying these things- "can you tell me more..?"

they blink, turning back to volans as if just woken from a dream. "right- uh.. we don't exactly have a whole lot of it.. i might be able to see what we have in engineering, but uh.. it just depends on what you use, i guess..?"

[nixscriptum]

[sunomaly]

my favorite little romance moment in the game is literally so small, it's sol walking up to dys after he gets back from surveying, and he just smiles, says "hey beautiful" and looks around before snagging a kiss. like that made sol absolutely MELT. like he comes back and he's home. not because the colony is his home, but because sol is. and sol's home is wherever dys is. like nobody else understands them quite like the other. they're honestly perfect for each other and i will stand on it.

[letmemusings]

If I’m the one who can make a difference, I’ll do it.

[sunomaly]

lowkey want to write a drabble but also feel annoying about writing so many of them

[rpmemes-galore]

my love, who was it who lied to you? who said you are only worthy to take if you have given all yourself, first? who was it, what damned deceiver, who said you must drain your own cup, empty it dry, always pouring, pouring before you are allowed to beg for a drop in return?