Iโm sorry to everyone I owe in my asks / threads, a lot has been going on with my actual physical health and to be honest me not being here and as active as I want has really stressed me out because I want to get to all of you as soon as possible and keep my followers since I am still as deeply invested as I started out. Read more under the cut . Note that while Tumblr is on fire, Tanjiro is not going anywhere, and I hope you can keep being a bit patient with me, as I have every intention of getting to everyone and I donโt want to lose friends + possible writing partners, but my health is really taxing me. If you can, please read so you know why Iโm so static. If possible Iโll try to start reblogging things to keep a queue going, but I really want you to understand why Iโve been so quiet and stagnant in everything at your discretion!
Still in effect. Reblogging one last time, but again, keeping activity running and writing should happen late month, most likely. Thank you guys so much for understanding!
Alllow me to give you the most understanding & patient & comforting support right back at you! I love you so please TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF & RETURN INTO A BETTER SHAPE
whenever you talk to me iโm literally this even when iโm feeling this awful (TM) thank you so much roxy and i love you! iโm so thankful i met you and weโre inseparable. idk what iโd do without you! please take care of you too, okay?ย
i' m here to love a bitch who needs to watch out for herself more and remiNDER HER THAT IT'S OKAY TO BE A BITCH AND SAY "fuck this, i'm taking a NAP"
iโm the first two panels... but ty i love you v much lulu and iโm just...gonna do my best i guess! so please donโt worry !!!! thank you for caring and i appreciate this a whole bunch. iโll work on my napping techniques...! :triumph:
Iโm sorry to everyone I owe in my asks / threads, a lot has been going on with my actual physical health and to be honest me not being here and as active as I want has really stressed me out because I want to get to all of you as soon as possible and keep my followers since I am still as deeply invested as I started out. Read more under the cut . Note that while Tumblr is on fire, Tanjiro is not going anywhere, and I hope you can keep being a bit patient with me, as I have every intention of getting to everyone and I donโt want to lose friends + possible writing partners, but my health is really taxing me. If you can, please read so you know why Iโm so static. If possible Iโll try to start reblogging things to keep a queue going, but I really want you to understand why Iโve been so quiet and stagnant in everything at your discretion!
So the past month my health has been declining quite a bit, it isnโt that (TM) that is hurting so many people, but a lot of symptoms I couldnโt figure out. I had to get my blood scanned recently to figure it out.ย
I found out I had serious deficiency and high levels in a few areas in a vitamin and also just some numbers were a bit high, resulting in the certain changes to both mood, motivation, and inability to sleep, remember things well, and eat, not to mention immense stress manifesting in panic attacks I couldnโt understand.
It explains why Iโve been cryingย so much when Iโm not even a crier, and also despite being cheery for the past few months, I really have been fighting a battle with everything alone. Honestly right now writing this I feel like crying, I feel like my health hasnโt been giving me a reprieve in months and I Just Didnโt Want To Talk Or Burden Anyone About It so Iโve kept quiet as I tried to figure it out.ย
Iโm going to slowly adjust to vitamins and medicine that will fill in and balance out the shift in chemical changes / B-12, one of them that Iโve lost serious amounts of ( which actually directly affects the brain and nervous system which is probably why Iโve been having such a HARD time writing and straight up functioning outside my adulting in life / errands / chores / livelihood. )
Iโm honestly so frustrated but I understand that my health is ultimately so much more important than writing right now, hence why Iโm sparse especially when my body deficiencies have resulted in temporary memory loss as an example of wow bad time to write! due to my body being so utterly weak, but Iโm actually going to recover everythingย
itโs just..Tanjiro is my main blog and most crucial to me I resonate with him personally, heโs my favorite character in anything, and I donโt want to half-heartedly do a thing, I want to give him my utmost and right now? I canโt.
I canโt answer my relationship asks with the meta I want. I canโt get to my threads. I can barely be social at all, Iโm only talking to like...one or two people and even then Iโm sure I forget half of what people are saying or am withholding from a few messages because I just donโt know What To Say(TM). Iโm kind of in tears because I havenโt been able to write in so long much less really enjoy anything to even pass time and Iโm suffering a lot. It takes a lot which is what is going on right now, for me to even admit I am suffering.ย
So for the next few weeks all I can ask for is your patience as I try to recover and mend my body, and know that Tanjiro is not going anywhere. I will be keeping up with maybe tagging others in memes + gifs + aesthetics, but I donโt think much if any writing will be done until I can regain myself health-wise. I really mean and intend to get to all of you and I hope you stay, but I understand if my inactivity makes me seem like Iโm never coming back. Even so, I still have to focus on me, and Iโm horrible really at prioritizing myself. Hopefully within the month I will be back to writing my favorite character that so many of us love and finishing out my inbox / threads or at least starting on them, but I will not put a timer on myself when I feel so terrible and Iโm in such a condition thatโs not mega serious, but it is hardly healthy.
If you read this, thank you so much, and whatever you do, Iโm happy youโre here or Iโve met you and I wish you nothing but a good July as we keep getting through it.ย
how are you so quiet about it? your sadness i mean. how do you hold it in your chest, in your eyes, in your teeth without letting it speak; how does it stay still?
While I was sleeping carelessly at Saburoโs house, they were murdered brutally like that! I know it mustโve hurt. You suffered, didnโt you? Iโm so sorry I couldnโt save you.
