[ Ahhh, my lovely anon. You're not the only one has noticed. I wish I could tell you all the reasons why I am not as active than the usual--or should I say, why I am not present and bumbling with inspiration.
I'll keep my reasons relatively brief, however. As mun, school is depriving me of my energy, and my happiness has been forever dwindling within the past two years. It's hard to make the time, much less the effort, to come here for at least a few minutes out of my day when I'm constantly buried under work and waves of stress and emotions. As much as I would want to be here, my lack of motivation has been more than prevalent in these past months, which have really hindered my muse. I can tell you, as well, that as a budding adult myself, I've been experiencing a lot of strenuous growing pains that have been affecting my overall mentality and personality, and they are something that I can't bear to carry over onto here without the mood being obvious... You know what I mean?
Anyway, it's almost safe to say that I won't be returning anytime soon--at least, not as Sunny for right now. I've been spending a lot of time trying to figure myself out, and the little things in life, as well. I do have plans to be elsewhere in the KRP community, which do need some time to be executed. When that will be is something that I am not entirely certain of, but once everything falls into place, I'll make a notice of that.
But for now, I'll be concentrating my efforts in finishing my first year in university as well as making myself a better person. I can't promise to everyone that I'll be better in terms of wellness, but I'd like to keep in mind that despite my rough patches and bumps down the road, things will get better and other things will happen for a given reason. And other times, I’ll just have to learn the hard way with a valid learning experience.
Cheesy enough that I'm preaching some encouragement to myself, but I'm doing my best keeping an optimistic mind.
Anon, I hope you're doing well. I would like to thank you for showing some concern and giving me the opportunity to voice my inner most thoughts from these past several weeks. I meant to voice them out a little later, but regardless, they would have been spilled either now or never.
And to everyone who comes around reading this, this doesn't mean that my end is coming; sometimes, breaks are needed, whether short or long. I guess you would say I'm in the midst of a personal crisis, but I will overcome it. I just need the time to seek my enlightenment once more.
I'd like to thank everyone I've known and come across and those that have watched over me since the beginning towards this pseudo-end. Moments here has been ever so wonderful and glorious with lots of friends made during my time. Please keep an watchful eye for me; again, I can't make promises to everyone, but I'll put efforts to make some sort of comeback for everyone who have been anticipating my interactions all this time.
If you would ever like to reach me, don't hesitate to ask for my AIM. I'll be more than happy to offer it to known, inquiring faces.
The sun shall set from this brisk moment of the day. Thank you again to everyone for these great moments.
Until next time in the midnight sun. ]
