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I need to find a way to die on purpose that isnt killing myself. So everyone doesn't hate me.

What can I say, Chappell Roan just gets me

#ive (supposedly) been electroshocked out of wanting to kill myself #and i thought jt had worked for a hot second #but now i want to kill myself again so like. who fuckin knows #¯\ (ツ) /¯#tw

Oh also the bilateral ect is working! I finish twice a week this week and im so much better. Just thought I would update anyone who reads this.

#troubledthoughts.txt

Maybe if I overdose they'll care.

Unlikely because I have already tried this and it didnt work, but maybe if I do a better job this time.

#idk how to do it better tho bc what i did had the potential to be lethal!#troubledthoughts.txt #tw #like. i took enpugh of my antidepressants to solidly kill me. they werent even gonna send me to the psych ward over it!#and i had to beg for ect!#im so angry omfg #why dont i deserve help! what is so wrong with me!

Started bilateral ect on friday and its too early to see any improvements but I'm so afraid it's not going to work. I can't live like this anymore. I just can't do it.

#troubledthoughts.txt #tw

Mental health stigma is going to fucking kill me. And its not fair. Im just sick like anyone else so why do I deserve to suffer just because of the nature of my illness? Why do others deserve a type of gentleness and care that i don't? I'll never understand it.

#troubledthoughts.txt #tw #i. want. to. die.

#troubledthoughts.txt #song time #nobody is going to help me. and i cant help myself #i think im gonna die like this

Reached out for help instead of overdosing on sleeping pills. Which is all fine and good and all but now my parents have my sleeping pills and I still want to overdose. :/

#tw #troubledthoughts.txt #i want to die. i want to die. i dont want to do this anymore #i am an idiot why did i not just take them all