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Life is like a box full of chocolates...and I'm going to eat as much as I can before I die 😜 #seescandies #quotes

#quotes #seescandies

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The world @ America.

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stop i thought kansas was a city in Missouri, goodbye I’ve been here almost 8 yrs and i still don’t have a clue

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I decided my 2016 gone start Feb 1… this was a free trial month

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🖕🏻🖕🏻🖕🏻

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Bitch yas!!!!!! What brand is this??

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👀 we need to know

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why do y'all do this and not include the brand smh

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http://www.beautybakerie.com and @beautybakeriemakeup on IG

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Gracias! 🙏🏻🙏🏻

(I'm just here to vent) I feel like I've hit the lowest point in my life. I'm sure it was avoidable if I had planned better but I didn't. I assumed all my plans would work out and things would be fine, I didn't even have a backup plan. And everything went to shit and now I feel kind of fucked and a mess. Technically speaking I'm homeless. I'm just kind of crashing now but that's not where I want to be at the moment. I'm also broke, just getting by on what I have. And finally to add to all that, sick. I had a bad stomach infection that I didn't treat in time and now I have to go see a specialist. But I feel so broke, busy, and overwhelmed so I kept pushing it off and just living with the pain. I have the feeling that whatever news the doctor is going to tell me won't be good and that's partly why I been avoiding it. And then there's school, I don't even know what I'm doing with that. I know I HAVE to do it. I'm so close to finishing it and I don't want to back out now but I hate my major, I hate the stress and I don't see myself going anywhere with it. But here I am adding another serving of stress to my plate as I try to get these classes I need to finish. Homeless and in debt at 21... Not where I saw myself 5 years ago. I'm sure this is terrible for my already fragile mental health.

I’ve gotten to the point where I’m constantly considering suicide more than once a day. I’ve attempted suicide twice in the 3 month span and now I have a ridiculous ER bill that I need to pay (but can’t afford, yay debt!). I feel like I need help but I can’t get myself to actually put in the work to get it. I just keep living miserably and I’m just afraid that “help” wouldn’t get rid of my feelings. I can’t even live normally anymore except for dragging myself to work. The only motivation I have to do things is extreme guilt. I feel like I owe people my normality and my normal responsibility. Paying rent keeps me off the streets but I don’t know how long I can continue with that. I constantly want to reach out to people just yell at them like “stop! I’m not ok! I’m trying to kill myself right now please stop me” but I just keep feeling ashamed and guilt, so much guilt. Like I don’t want people to think I’m purposely trying to make them feel bad. I’m just a fuck up and a failure and I really can’t continue living like this. But I really needed to get this off my chest to at least lift some of the weight. I made an event (public too) in hopes that those friends I’ve made in the past years would stop by to leave some comments and goodbyes (I know I been MIA for the last 4months battling my illnesses) and I passed it off as a farewell for my program, but really it was more of a real goodbye. Not everyone I expected noticed though. I am too tired to attempt anything though. I already feel dead inside already but my insides still keep fighting for me to put a physical end to my misery. I may deactivate facebook once I leave. I hope I can survive through my program but we’ll see. The only thing that keeps me calm these days is planning for the event that I don’t get through it. (I been wanting to say this publicly for so long but I decided to put this here as my presence here has been pretty much dead and I just wanted to bury this with it, bye)