silly little boygirl

ferris ☁️ he/it/she 🌈 *SFW* agere sideblog 🌟 please read pinned before following

[sweetcloudsandwich]

hi! i'm ferris. i use he/it/she, and i'm an age regressor (regression age range difficult for me to pinpoint but i think its around 1-6).

🚫 nsfw/abdl please dni, i am an adult but this blog is meant to be purely sfw (like something you could show to an actual child), and for that reason i am uncomfortable with people interacting for sexual purposes 🚫

more about me under the cut!

i have a lot of hobbies! most have to do with making things (drawing, animating, making music, writing) but i also love to read as well. picture books (especially little golden books) make me very happy when i'm little.

i also love to color when regressed so i may post some coloring sheets on this blog.

i have a few pacifiers, blankies, and i've also got a LOT of plushies. i can't not have a big ol plushie horde in my room at all times ehehe. i particularly like things that are blue.

i occasionally wear and use diapers when i'm little, but NEVER for sexual purposes. they're comfortable to me emotionally and sensory-wise. if you think diaper usage is inherently sexual or something please kindly navigate away from my blog.

i may speak using simpler, "younger" words while regressed but i don't do any baby talk. i do babble tho

not currently looking for a cg, my bf usually takes that role. if i ever do go searching for one though i'd prefer a motherly figure over a fatherly one. i'm not very comfortable with the idea of having a dad, sorry :(

i'm kind of sensitive abt revealing my main blog. if you know me personally you know what it is. if you don't, please wait for me to give it to you instead.

thanks for reading!

[sweetcloudsandwich]

You'll be a lot happier in the ABDL community, I promise you. Contrary to what puriteens will tell you, a lot of us are nonsexual lifestylists and your community branched off from ours in a misguided attempt to sanitize ours. The agere community is a full of "safe adults" who end up fetishmining or flat-out minors or are people going through really bad internalized self hatred. I us d to be part of the agere community but now I'm in the ABDL community, even though I am still a nonsexual regressor who draws cute padded boys as an escape from this scary world. I'd rather associate with a bunch of chill adults than being in a landmine of puritan teenagers. I promise you we're not all boundary-breaking assholes who fish for victims. Are there bad and dangerous people in our community? Yes, but there's also rotten apples in yours. I had a close friend in the agere community backstab me because I didn't fit their overly puritan values of age regression and later on I found out they were grooming actual minors. Most abdls are very strict about minors not being near them. Oh, and a lot of us ARE regressors too! We just cope in ways that help us heal which may differ from others. It's shitty and victim-blamey to say "no you're coping the wrong way." We don't do that, the agere community does. Also a lot of anti ABDL rhetoric comes from anti-queer rhetoric. Maybe ABDLs are queer folks who went through extreme trauma and dysphoria and some of us also treat it as just another part of our queer identity. Please read up queer history and literature that isn't Heartstopper and Hazbin Hotel fanfics - vintage queer zines are a good start.

sorry anon but you are like slightly late to the party its been like a year since i made my last post and im big abdler now. also ive never watched heartstopper or hazbin hotel and i have indulged in a lot of older queer history since i made that post. i dont mean to be rude but this makes a lot of assumptions about me and my current mindset and it feels kind of condescending at some points

[sweetcloudsandwich]

i haven't used this account in a hot minute so i feel i should make a statement on my inactivity. i'm really sorry, but i highly doubt i am going to come back to the agere community :( it was fun while it lasted but the sheer amount of puritanism that's been normalized here caused me to repress a lot of things that are inherent to my regression and it really damaged me in the end. i understand why people want to keep the community sfw, sfw spaces like this are important, but people who do end up doing "impure" things during regression don't deserved to be harassed and ostracized for it.

i realized back in march that my regression (which is caused by trauma from grooming, abuse, etc etc etc, mind you) isn't as "pure" as i thought it was and it made me spiral for a few days straight until i came to terms with that fact that i'm not a "normal" regressor and that these aspects of my regression are the result of trauma. and i'm sorry, but it makes me feel unsafe to be here knowing that if people knew about all of these things in detail i'd likely be labeled a gross predator even though the reason i'm like that is because i was preyed upon + even thinking about hurting a child (i have pocd which causes me to have those kinds of thoughts) makes me feel physically ill.

so at least until my personal discomforts with this community are alleviated, i won't be coming back to this blog in the near future. i'm sorry to disappoint. goodbye.

[sweetcloudsandwich]

You silly?

But anyways hiii! I wanna make more agere friends and you seem cool!

You’re my friend now, this is a threat /j

yes i am silly.

i too am looking for more agere friends! i have social anxiety so im rlly nervous when first talking to people but id love to have a conversation sometime :]

[sweetcloudsandwich]

i think people misunderstand why we dislike the term impure regression. it's not that we don't think it's okay to have bad feelings and experiences while regressed, far from it actually. it's the term itself, and the way it implies there's a "wrong" way to regress. you can feel impure during these times, sure, but actually calling your regression itself impure furthers the idea that regression is meant to be all sunshine and happiness and that it isn't something people do out of trauma, and that if you have negative experiences while regressed that's wrong and bad. maybe we as a community should call it something else? idk man. id really prefer we not accidentally stigmatize ourselves, thanks.

[little-moonrays]

Honestly, that's a really good take. Perhaps we should call it something like "distressed regression"? Stress isn't a negative thing per se, and it basically sums up "impure" regression.

[sweetcloudsandwich]

this is a pretty good idea actually :0 gets the point across w/o stigmatizing it. something like "stress regression" might work too

[sweetcloudsandwich]

i think people misunderstand why we dislike the term impure regression. it's not that we don't think it's okay to have bad feelings and experiences while regressed, far from it actually. it's the term itself, and the way it implies there's a "wrong" way to regress. you can feel impure during these times, sure, but actually calling your regression itself impure furthers the idea that regression is meant to be all sunshine and happiness and that it isn't something people do out of trauma, and that if you have negative experiences while regressed that's wrong and bad. maybe we as a community should call it something else? idk man. id really prefer we not accidentally stigmatize ourselves, thanks.

[sweetcloudsandwich]

oh so the post DID go through the first time hahaha. the internet at my apartment is so goofy. anyway sorry for the double post i did not mean to do that

[sweetcloudsandwich]

uhmmm hi 👉👈 couldn't find a server like this so i made my own. server 4 age regressors/dreamers and cgs sourced from fiction, whether you're a fictive/introject or fictionkin or what. feel free to join if you fit that criteria and this interests you at all.

https://discord.com/invite/JAYa4tcCu6

[sweetcloudsandwich]

is there a server for regressors that are also fictives/introjects? id like to find more people i have things in common with to talk to but idk where 2 look

[sweetcloudsandwich]

my usual cg's gonna be gone for a long time so im tempted to look for another cg for the time being...if you're a cg and you're open to care for a regressor then feel free to dm me but be warned that 1. im really nervous around new people and 2. i prefer maternal cgs over paternal ones. yeah. mew

[sweetcloudsandwich]

i silly

[sweetcloudsandwich]

mmmm i wanna write agere of myself (im a fictive/introject) and an oc of mine but im runnin low on ideas...big fan of fics where the cg coaxes their little into regressing bc their little is stressed out and they wanna help em feel better. i dunno how thatd be executed here tho...hm. im thinkin!!!!

[sweetcloudsandwich]

i like binkies but i also luuuuvvvv sucking my thumb when im tiny it makes me feel extra extra baby. sometiems ill just suck on my thumb when i cant find my binkies and not only is it a good alternative it also helps me calm down from the stress of not bekng able to find em hdheheh

[sweetcloudsandwich]

i'm not a pet regressor, but i do like pretending to be a kitty cat when i'm little. i love to meow and clean my fur and swat at things sometimes when i'm in that younger headspace. idk, it helps me express myself better and such. i think it's super fun!

anyway, meow :3

[sweetcloudsandwich]

no more serious stuff time 2 be silly

[ur-fav-is-agere]

Looks To The Moon from Rain World

Is a big sister caregiver!

[sweetcloudsandwich]

i dont play crob or crk much anymore but the devilishly handsome employee at devsis that designed this one deserves a raise