i want a scar that looks just like you
Fandom: The Untamed
Pairing: Song Lan/Xiao Xingchen/Xue Yang, Xiao Xingchen/Xue Yang
Rating: Explicit
Words: In progress!
Xue Yang has been living peacefully (more or less) in the coffin house for two years when he wakes up one morning and discovers his body changing.
Demonic transformation is a bloody, brutal process. Xiao Xingchen believes at first that it's a curse, but that doesn't quite add up. The ramifications of Xue Yang's new form will reach far further than either of them can imagine—and the Yi City Song Lan arrives on, one year later, will be stranger, more seductive, and a wholly new kind of painful.
This is another story that has been haunting me for several years. I had intended to have it written by summer 2023, but events transpired and that never actually happened. Well, I've got the first chapter out, and I'm really pleased to be able to finally present it to you. Despite the fact that Song Lan doesn't show up until chapter three, this is a Songxuexiao fic, and was written for the prompt "monsters" for @sxx-love-week.
The illustration which accompanies it (which can be seen here and which will be featured in chapter three) was commissioned from @tuherrus, who was utterly amazing to work with. Thanks for drawing my boys even though you're not in this fandom, Ellu!
On the morning when it all begins, Xue Yang wakes to the smell of blood.
He doesn’t think anything of it to begin with. It’s not unusual for Xingchen to cry in his sleep; he never remembers his nightmares, but when he wakes from them it’s always with the evidence of their passing streaked across his cheeks and blindfold. He had been ashamed of it once: back when Xue Yang first took him to bed he had tried to hide it, worried that his nameless friend would find it off-putting. He’d had no way to know—no reason at all to suspect—the gleeful, possessive delight it evoked in Xue Yang, or the way the gore had stirred his arousal.
Those first nights, that first winter, had been nearly two years ago now, and they have both long since adjusted. Xingchen rarely even bothers to wear the blindfold to bed anymore, allowing Xue Yang to thumb over his hollow, sunken eyelids and the delicate stitches that hold them closed with a softly helpless pleasure. The mornings when Xue Yang wakes to bloody tears on Xingchen’s cheeks are his favourites. If Xingchen is worked up enough, he’ll even let him clean them off with his tongue.
But today, when Xue Yang curls into Xingchen’s arms and opens his eyes, there isn’t any blood to be seen.
For a moment he can’t quite parse what he’s looking at. Dumbly he blinks at Xingchen, as though opening his eyes for a second time will make the tears appear on his cheeks; but Xingchen’s eyelids remain stubbornly clean. There’s nothing at all on his face. He’s sleeping peacefully, his inner robe in alluring disarray and his hair fanned out across the pillow, with no sign of a nightmare marring his perfect features. Xue Yang almost wonders if the scent of blood was just the remnant of a dream he dragged with him to the waking world, but the smell is still thick on the air. Where is it coming from?
He turns to push himself upright, and unexpectedly a spike of pain shoots through his right hand. He sits up quickly and once again finds himself reduced for a moment to blinking: there’s blood all over his fingers, staining his skin and smeared across the blankets.
It’s at its worst on his middle finger: the whole digit is red, and there’s a crust of oozing scabs building up around the nail bed. He examines it from every angle, turning his hand over, and over again. What could he have done to himself in his sleep to make it bleed this much? He doesn’t remember it hurting at all the night before. Absently he sticks his finger into his mouth to clean it off—and something shifts against his tongue, abrupt and disquieting. He snatches his hand back out of his mouth, and spits out a fingernail into his palm.
“What the fuck,” he says, staring down at it.
He checks over the rest of the nails on that hand, and then the other. None of them are bleeding yet, but there’s a tender, swollen redness to them that suggests they could start anytime. Nausea is welling up in his gorge. Ruthlessly he wrestles it back down, and looks again at his middle finger. In the soft, strangely naked spot where his nail used to be, he finds the slightest hint of a bony protrusion growing in its place; when he presses experimentally down on it, another spike of pain ricochets up his hand. Gently he feels around his fingertip, working his way down to the first knuckle. The structure of the bone, he realizes uneasily, is different than it ought to be—and Xue Yang is someone who has good fucking reason to know the shape of his hands.
A hysterical little giggle escapes his throat. “This is fucked up,” he says.