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Running from fire

Scarlet demons stole my words

While nature stole my steps

Independently I could not move

But strings directed my fingers

The melody they made me play was played before

My song was written by a man who we knew no more

I sang a song that stung like acid

I planted a garden that swallowed my assets

I dreamed a dream that stole my happiness

And woke up to a burning reality

Happiness is cheaply bought like rations after war

Sadness was swept away while the sky just pour some more

I laughed at monsters who swallowed me whole

I danced to dangerous beats

But none of this escaped my mind

As a signed on to another deed

My soul was sold

My skin was torn

I sat in snagged rows

I was handed a pencil with no eraser

I was allowed no mistakes

I surrounded myself in my cluttered claims

No of which could protect me

From the one thing I feared most

My own burning body

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Sound of a winter shower

Early morning rain pounds on my roof as I struggle to sleep. I fall in love with its steadiness that repeats with such loving rythem. Its beauty in the street lights glow warms my heart as I face each morning. But yet it frightens me for its coldness. It reminds me of the times I knew no one including myself. The cold chilling air that dances along your skin encouraging it's own lost beauty.

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Falling

Love is both one of the best and worst thing

It fall in love one lose all control over their emotion when it is related to a certain person. Much of your thoughts and time is consumed in wonder by them and everything about them and yet you have to keep moving. At the exact same time you begin to distrust yourself and feelings that have been eliminating your life.

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Is it to much

Some days I spend hours alone watching the fish in my tank swim. Their lives so free of much worry beyond when the next time food will fall from the sky. But sometimes I am ripped from my peace and serenity of my tank by the cries and screams of the family that I have been given. My life is not miserable but my family is not the blood I live with, my family is over 1800 miles away from me in a camper serving our nation, my family is over 2600 miles from me raising the next generation, my family is 246 miles away getting the education of their dreams, my family is 5 miles away on the phone with his girlfriend. I wonder if it is to much, just a little to much to ask for, for us to all be together, for us to be happy, for me to not be alone in my own pain and misery. But I'll keep watching my fish jealous of their life.

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Clouded bubbles

Have you ever recognized the feeling of complete isolation as you wrap yourself tightly in every blanket you have? Despite hearing your family moving in their own beds around the house? No matter how many texts you send to your best friend? No matter how much you laugh as the newest video on YouTube?

That lonely pit sitting in your stomach, as you stare at the shadows that dance across your ceiling, slowly embracing you as you accept your own depression. You laugh quietly wondering if you can fix your loneliness or if someone can pierce your bubble clouded by the condensation of your breath from.the many months. "Maybe they just can't see me", you think as you draw a face on to the membrane that surrounds you.

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Fish tank

Habits are a wonderful thing that keep people moving. We develop these paterns to ease the stress that follows us everyday. My morning starts with my fall out of bed, hopefully landing on my feet as I go to turn on the fish tank light. I walk to the bathroom and splash water on my face, attempt to tame my hair, then return to my room. I feed the fish, envying them for there captive paradise that I maintain for them. I move to prepare my bag for the day watching them eat, longing to join them in their safe sanctuary of water. I wonder if they appreciate me, or even recognize me each morning. I wish I was one of them free in the safe confines free of the predators of the world.

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Tuesday mornings

The sun comes up like always and you are forced to face the day, you say in your head "at least it isn't monday". Getting out of bed is hard because of cold weather but you do anyway. You stand to face the mirror and see yourself: groggy eyes, frazzled hair, maybe not what you wish you were shaped like. You walk to the bathroom to brush your teeth and follow your morning routine. The floor is cold but comforting for its consistency. You stretch and considered breakfast as you fumble through the house. Realize your late and run out the door. Then your alarm goes off.

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Here is to them

Here is to them, the ones I gave,

The ones I gave my heart and soul to, the ones who took what innocence I claimed as mine, the ones who I spent countless nights crying for, the ones I gave my health to, the ones I gave my peace of mind.

9th grad year I sold my heart to a girl who taught me so much. She taught me that my parents weren't always right and that love was not a contract. She also taught me how to cry. The day after I said "I love you" she attempted suicide. She was taken from me not by death but by hands that hurt even worse because you know you can reach her but there's glass that she can't hear you through. 2 months later when she got out, her first words were "I don't love you anynore". 2 weeks later after learning she cheated with 3 other girls she was back in the hospital leaving her curly haired doll shattered.

That's when he showed up. A smile that was as good as a hug, that worked enough to save me. He never questioned my tears only pushed me to free my emotions. He taught me beliefs that relived my guilt that I haunted myself with. And when she came back begging me to forgive her, he chased her off, trying to protect me. He stayed for a year and a half. I now going on to 11th grade when he tells me he had been cheating with 15 others in the past year. I had spent the last 6 months guarding what little threads held us together from him.

Eventually he left too. I stood at the edge of a cliff watching the sun set the next week. I wondered if I could fly now that no one held me here. It was with great anguish that I backed away to face what was left of me.

I am now in my 12th grade looking back on the abuse each bestowed and the scars they left. Sometimes they ache and I can feel my heart cry but now I look forward at the friends who found my foot prints in the snow. I thank those who dug me out of my cold hole.

Here's to this I gave my heart. And here's to the ones who deserve it.

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Enjoy the growing world around you beacyee it will change and you might miss its beauty.

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What’s Up October 2017

What’s Up For October? 

Planet Pairs, Stellar Superstars, Observe The Moon Night!!

This month, catch planet pairs, our moon near red stars, an asteroid, meteors and International Observe the Moon Night!

You can’t miss bright Venus in the predawn sky. Look for fainter Mars below Venus on the 1st, really close on the 5th, and above Venus after that.

Midmonth, the moon is visible near Regulus, the white starry heart of the constellation Leo.

In the October 8-11 predawn sky watch the moon glide near the Pleiades star cluster and pass near the red stars Aldebaran in the constellation Taurus and Betelgeuse in Orion.

After dusk in the early part of the month look for Saturn in the southwest sky above another red star: Antares in Scorpius. Later in the month, find the moon above Antares October 22 and 23.

Saturn will be above the moon on the 23rd and below it on the 24th.

Uranus reach opposition on October 19th. It’s visible all night long and its blue-green color is unmistakeable. It may be bright enough to see with your naked eye–and for sure in binoculars.

The Orionids peak on October 20–a dark, moonless night. Look near Orion’s club in the hours before dawn and you may see up to 10 to 15 meteors per hour.

Use binoculars to look for bright asteroid 7 Iris in the constellation Aries. Newbies to astronomy should be able to spot this magnitude 6.9 asteroid - even from the city. 

Look later in the month and sketch its positions a day or two apart–to see it move.

Finally, celebrate International Observe the Moon Night on October 28 with your local astronomy club, Solar System Ambassador, museum, or planetarium. The first quarter moon that night will display some great features!

Watch the full What’s Up for October Video: 

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No longer alone

Each day someone new comes and goes Each day we start over Wondering Pondering Questioning We all live We all die We all watch each other breathe and cry We each know pain, some in different ways And yet we walk on others Or abandon them because of inconvenience We all know how to think and act And yet we choose to act like that Or even not to act at all We all know how it feels to be alone And long for someone to reach to you Or wish some one would grab your out stretched hand We all live We all die Can we all stop and look at the other guy Maybe then we could ease someone else's suffering.

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Half a human

You are seen as half a person Why? Because the one who you loved ditched you Because the one you had been with for 2 years left Because you were nothing more than the decoration on their arm Because you were an accessory that made them look better Because you were nothing more than a sad kid with issues that they rescued Because you were a fragile thing to keep on a shelf You were only meant to be looked at but not touched But now they are gone You are left broken No one is gonna a help you find your missing shards so you can put yourself back together And now the people who said they were your friends think you are evil They think you are the one who did the wrong Not the one who cheated on you because you were gone all summer but you You are the one who is to be shunned and waved at from afar And once again you are back where you started A sad kid for someone to "help" So you wait for someone to come around and remodel the shard that lay on the ground These are the remains of your heart

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Late night rain storms

The rain pour down Thunder shaking the house Lights are flashing Eyes are fluttering Each drop a relief to the drought that has haunted this land Feeling better than a loved ones reuniting kiss  as all of the land is quenched of its thirst A relief washing of the bad memories that it carries The steady beating Calming sounds Cool air Making your lungs feel lighter now that the air isn't so stiff The world wiped of the pains and dust that has covered it for weeks Each drop like a drum urging on the world as it steps forward The rain slows The world revived Ready to keep growing Prepared to continue taking each step at a time towards happy Knowing that sometimes you can only hold back the water for so long Some times you just have to let the storm rage.

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Wordless feelings

The keys that work your tounge are jumbled like someone played a prank. Your words aren't forming right and you have lost your ability to communicate. This happens at the worst times: your parents are yelling at you, you are trying to talk to your crush, you are trying to present a project, you are trying to order food, you are trying to simply do something. And all you can seem to make out is "I am sorry" and "okay".

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Silent

1 second is nice 2 seconds is relaxing 3 seconds rejuvenating 4 seconds bliss 5 seconds heavenly 6 seconds a sign of relief 7 seconds calming 8 seconds quiet 9 seconds boring 10 seconds nerve wracking 11 seconds frightening 12 seconds ringing 13 seconds heavy breathing 14 seconds hearing things 15 seconds seeing things 16 seconds now you start talking but to who? Silence is scary and can make you feel alone even if you left someone seconds ago.