this is gonna be like a little diary entry so dont mind me
Sometimes I think back to my exes and I'm like damn I'm kinda glad I'm alone. They were fine but my last bf said I was "too mean" and it stuck with me bc like...it makes sense but now I get why I don't want like a normal relationship
Like I won't deny, I'm lonely and whatnot but I think that's mainly because all my best friends live in all different states or they're far enough away where we can't just hang out like we used to
But none of this loneliness feels like it can be solved with a relationship, ya know? Kinda just want more friends to vibe with and talk about my interests
I wanna just go to a barnes and noble and hold manga and be like 😀 anyone wanna get coffee and scream about bl? anyone at all? (THIS IS A JOKE DONT ACTUALLY DO THIS)
But there's also a little part of me that's like but it WOULD be nice to have a s/o but every time I consider it I think about the fact that no one has matched my freak (read: banter and teasing) before and I've been told I'm "too funny" to date so I'm just like yeah I'll pass
I'd rather be funny and happy with friends then with someone who wants to dim my smile ya know
anyways random rant to just be like I want more irl friends 💀💀💀
