Journeying into a New World
Rinako flies across the sand with a sure-footedness that catches Sasuke by surprise.She hadnât seemed so confident earlier in the comfort of her living room, but under the summer sun with the rush of the waves nearby she seems careless. She twirls around the rocks and seashells, her dress billowing around her, and doesnât bother to look over her shoulder to check that heâs following her. She is a thing of single purpose, her destination the ocean.
His stomach tightens in envy. Sasuke never feels so free. At eleven-years-old he already has a job, a planned future. Were he a romantic like his brother, he might even go as far as to say that his destiny is carved in stone.
âItâs impossible to escape fate.â Itachi says one day. Theyâre in the elder Uchihaâs room at the time, Sasuke laying on the floor as he pursues one of the academy textbooks and Itachi sitting at his desk. The words are said without preamble, and Sasuke looks up in surprise, concerned at the look in Itachiâs eye.
He didnât understand the look at the time, but he understood what Itachi meant. Like so many of their Clan, they are probably destined to live short lives and die brutal and bloody. Â The knowledge is like a weight on his chest, suffocating him whenever he thinks about it.
Itachi tells him not to think about it. He says that shinobi should be selfless. A shinobi should be willing to lay down his life for people he doesnât even know. Shisui, were he still here, would only laugh loudly, a twisted smile on his face. They say jump. We say: whereâs the cliff? It hurts to think of his uncle, so far away and so many years gone.
The girlâs laughter breaks him from his thoughts. He glances up sharply, surprised to find her staring at him at the edge of the shore. The waves are rolling over her (bare) feet. She wiggles her toes, and Sasuke fights the urge to kick off his sandals and dip his feet into the water. It wasnât easy running through the sand with them on, but he doesnât feel prepared for the unexpected with them off.
Sasuke doesnât feel prepared for anything right now, actually. He feels exactly like he should feel if he were normal: awkward and unsure in the face of speaking to a girl. Which is ridiculous. Heâs already spoken to her already. That was back in the house though, with adult eyes watching over their interactions, and being free of the grown-ups has turned the tables. He opens his mouth and immediately closes it, tongue tied.
Rinako is still staring at him. Her bright blue eyes flash like the water and Sasuke looks into them cluelessly. Theyâve come to a stalemate.
His dark eyes are so much like Itachi's. She decides this as they continue their pointless little staring contest, and her heels begin to sink into the wet sand. She blinks, and just like that, it's over,
Someone has to say something, and out here, where there's no one to embarrass herself in front of but him, she may be able to vocalize some of her thoughts.
"Have you ever seen the ocean before, Sasuke-san?"
She says it quietly at first, knowing it would be incredibly difficult to hear over the waves, so she vocalizes it one more time, louder.The wind is whipping her hair in front of her face, stinging her cheeks in a sensation that is both pleasant and not. She feels silly now. Her behavior inside the house was so stupidly uptight and formal. She was trying to act like the doll her mother wanted her to be.Â
Out here, with no one watching but the sun overhead and the sand and the waves, she could be herself. Kayla wasn't a troublemaker and she was most certainly a child with a pure heart. But sometimes she wished she could be loud or run in the house or leave her dolls out of the box. Out here it was different. She could build a sand city and tear all of it down, or flop belly-first into the waves in a most unladylike motion.Â
It confounded her that Sasuke had possibly never experienced these things. She intended to remedy that.
Hidari had once said that the ocean could cure anything. She knew it was a lie; Hidari spent all of his time on the beach and his illness still hung on tight.But perhaps he meant something else. The ocean always cured Kayla of her shyness and most people let their inhibitions go. Even Hidari felt better out here. He and his friends were surfers, and one of her favorite pastimes was to watch them way out there, riding the waves in. Hidari had taken her out on more than one occasion. She was good at the sport herself, though she was too small to ride anything big alone.
But then, sometimes when he was surfing or sitting on one of the rocks, staring out at the infinite horizon, he looked healthy and whole. Like nothing could possibly be wrong with the world. Those moments made her happy, but they also tore her up inside.
She shook herself back to the present. Now was not the time to revel in the wonders of the ocean or worry about Hidari.
"I-It's really pretty, isn't it? It's even prettier when you're out there in it. Snorkeling is the best! There are so many fish to see and it's so colorful...!"
She wasn't sure why she was talking about it. His eyes were studying her again and she couldn't stand scrutiny, so she started babbling rather quickly. Surely the ocean was an interesting topic, right?Â







