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#yuki #sysmafu #amiaaa-official

Yuki: mhm, i can keep spiting my mom buying stuff with her credit card until she blocks me of it, so i think i might buy it soon-

Yuki: Hey, u ok?

@sysmafuyuofficial

No. I don't feel good. We did something really really bad.

Yuki: hm? Im sure it wasn't that bad..

*He shook his head again*

It’s really bad. It’s bad it’s bad. I can’t get one of them to stop bleeding I’m scared

Yuki: One of- ah, can you show me? I had a bit of training for that before... Running away.

*He nodded. He was scared. He didn’t know why he hurt himself — he didn’t want to do that. It was Tomomi and Yua and the older ones who always did stuff like that*

I-It’s in a weird spot. I’m sorry.

*He rolled up his pant leg as high as he could. The cut was on his thigh, next to a few other fresh cuts as well. It was very apparent just how thin he was without his overly-baggy pants hiding it.*

Yuki: *nods and kneels on the floor to look better, noticing the thin-ness but not mentioning it* hmm.. i think Own and Mafuyu keeps a first aid kit in our backpack

*looks through it, as fast as he can without making it look like he's panicked, he doesn't want to make it worse for Tomomi*

I will have to clean for any infection first, so this will hurt a bit, do you want something to squeeze with your hand for it?

*He was trying very hard to be brave and not to cry. Usually he could clean it up all on his own! He didn’t know why he couldn’t this time, and it was really scary. He wasn’t even scared of it hurting, he just more scared it wouldn’t stop bleeding and he would die*

Can I have something to hold please?

Yuki: *nods again, going through his backpack and taking a bunny plushy out of it*

This is my.. my bunny, you can squeeze him, he loves hugs. I'll hold your pant leg so you can use both arms.

*alright, now that Tomomi is a bit more distracted, he can clean better, even if one handed, taking a wipe and a bit of water, he taps on the cuts, it really was bleeding a lot more than normal for that region, but it didnt seen to be a vein cut (would be a bit slower, and a different color) or an artery (it would have been way worse), so he probably didn't need to go to the hospital for it*

*He was happy to be given the bunny, despite his fear, and gave it a big hug, squeezing it with both arm and hiding his face in its fake fur. It hurt when Yuki started to pat the cuts, but he tried to sit still and not squirm.*

Am I gonna die?

Yuki: no, you'll be fine soon, i promise you. I don't think bandaid will do it this time... This seems to be the little too.. I'm going to wrap your leg in a bandage, to cover everything right? This part shouldn't hurt, so tell me if it does. *Starts to wrap it*

*The pressure hurt a little, but he knew it was good, so he didn’t say anything*

I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to make you take care of me

Yuki: i don't mind.. we like talking care of people, it doesn't hurt right?

You’re nice. Th-There’s another one of you that was really scary.

*He nodded*

It feels okay

Yuki: there are scarier headmates too, Own can be really scared when it wants to, but it mostly wants to protect us. *Let the pant leg fall back down, getting up again* ... You were really brave, how about I take you to get a snack somewhere?

*He sniffed, rubbing his eyes*

I think it was one of the clone people. You’ve always been nice

*He felt nervous about going with Yuki. But he was hungry. And he said he was brave!*

O-Okay. But I’m not supposed to eat a lot

Yuki: i havent met all of the clones yet, though that does makes sense...

*he has no idea why, but Yuki stills shrug*

If you're worried about money, don't. It's my mother's money, I use it to spite her, she can't hurt me for it.

Mmhm

*He frowned. That was weird to say*

She hurts you for things?

Yuki: *pauses for a bit, raising his hand to his cheek and rubbing* ... Not anymore, she can't reach me now but... She.. mostly hurt me mentally, over physically.. nevermind that, I'm hungry

That's sad. I'm sorry, Yuki. Uhm. My mommy--

YOU'RE MEANT TO BE 15! Oops!

My mom's like that too. Uhm.

Yeah, I'm hungry too. Let's do that instead.

*He stood up, reaching out to Yuki. He wanted to hold hands*

Yuki: *blinks and hold his hands* you know, if you want to be a bit childish, I dont mind also youre still holding my plushie

*tries to think of any food place nearby, maybe one Tomomi wouldn't feel to bad eating on...*

What do you want to eat?

#sysmafu #tomomi #yuki

Yuki: Hey, u ok?

@sysmafuyuofficial

No. I don't feel good. We did something really really bad.

Yuki: hm? Im sure it wasn't that bad..

*He shook his head again*

It’s really bad. It’s bad it’s bad. I can’t get one of them to stop bleeding I’m scared

Yuki: One of- ah, can you show me? I had a bit of training for that before... Running away.

*He nodded. He was scared. He didn’t know why he hurt himself — he didn’t want to do that. It was Tomomi and Yua and the older ones who always did stuff like that*

I-It’s in a weird spot. I’m sorry.

*He rolled up his pant leg as high as he could. The cut was on his thigh, next to a few other fresh cuts as well. It was very apparent just how thin he was without his overly-baggy pants hiding it.*

Yuki: *nods and kneels on the floor to look better, noticing the thin-ness but not mentioning it* hmm.. i think Own and Mafuyu keeps a first aid kit in our backpack

*looks through it, as fast as he can without making it look like he's panicked, he doesn't want to make it worse for Tomomi*

I will have to clean for any infection first, so this will hurt a bit, do you want something to squeeze with your hand for it?

*He was trying very hard to be brave and not to cry. Usually he could clean it up all on his own! He didn’t know why he couldn’t this time, and it was really scary. He wasn’t even scared of it hurting, he just more scared it wouldn’t stop bleeding and he would die*

Can I have something to hold please?

Yuki: *nods again, going through his backpack and taking a bunny plushy out of it*

This is my.. my bunny, you can squeeze him, he loves hugs. I'll hold your pant leg so you can use both arms.

*alright, now that Tomomi is a bit more distracted, he can clean better, even if one handed, taking a wipe and a bit of water, he taps on the cuts, it really was bleeding a lot more than normal for that region, but it didnt seen to be a vein cut (would be a bit slower, and a different color) or an artery (it would have been way worse), so he probably didn't need to go to the hospital for it*

*He was happy to be given the bunny, despite his fear, and gave it a big hug, squeezing it with both arm and hiding his face in its fake fur. It hurt when Yuki started to pat the cuts, but he tried to sit still and not squirm.*

Am I gonna die?

Yuki: no, you'll be fine soon, i promise you. I don't think bandaid will do it this time... This seems to be the little too.. I'm going to wrap your leg in a bandage, to cover everything right? This part shouldn't hurt, so tell me if it does. *Starts to wrap it*

*The pressure hurt a little, but he knew it was good, so he didn’t say anything*

I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to make you take care of me

Yuki: i don't mind.. we like talking care of people, it doesn't hurt right?

You’re nice. Th-There’s another one of you that was really scary.

*He nodded*

It feels okay

Yuki: there are scarier headmates too, Own can be really scared when it wants to, but it mostly wants to protect us. *Let the pant leg fall back down, getting up again* ... You were really brave, how about I take you to get a snack somewhere?

*He sniffed, rubbing his eyes*

I think it was one of the clone people. You’ve always been nice

*He felt nervous about going with Yuki. But he was hungry. And he said he was brave!*

O-Okay. But I’m not supposed to eat a lot

Yuki: i havent met all of the clones yet, though that does makes sense...

*he has no idea why, but Yuki stills shrug*

If you're worried about money, don't. It's my mother's money, I use it to spite her, she can't hurt me for it.

Mmhm

*He frowned. That was weird to say*

She hurts you for things?

Yuki: *pauses for a bit, raising his hand to his cheek and rubbing* ... Not anymore, she can't reach me now but... She.. mostly hurt me mentally, over physically.. nevermind that, I'm hungry

#sysmafu #yuki #tomomi

Yuki: Hey, u ok?

@sysmafuyuofficial

No. I don't feel good. We did something really really bad.

Yuki: hm? Im sure it wasn't that bad..

*He shook his head again*

It’s really bad. It’s bad it’s bad. I can’t get one of them to stop bleeding I’m scared

Yuki: One of- ah, can you show me? I had a bit of training for that before... Running away.

*He nodded. He was scared. He didn’t know why he hurt himself — he didn’t want to do that. It was Tomomi and Yua and the older ones who always did stuff like that*

I-It’s in a weird spot. I’m sorry.

*He rolled up his pant leg as high as he could. The cut was on his thigh, next to a few other fresh cuts as well. It was very apparent just how thin he was without his overly-baggy pants hiding it.*

Yuki: *nods and kneels on the floor to look better, noticing the thin-ness but not mentioning it* hmm.. i think Own and Mafuyu keeps a first aid kit in our backpack

*looks through it, as fast as he can without making it look like he's panicked, he doesn't want to make it worse for Tomomi*

I will have to clean for any infection first, so this will hurt a bit, do you want something to squeeze with your hand for it?

*He was trying very hard to be brave and not to cry. Usually he could clean it up all on his own! He didn’t know why he couldn’t this time, and it was really scary. He wasn’t even scared of it hurting, he just more scared it wouldn’t stop bleeding and he would die*

Can I have something to hold please?

Yuki: *nods again, going through his backpack and taking a bunny plushy out of it*

This is my.. my bunny, you can squeeze him, he loves hugs. I'll hold your pant leg so you can use both arms.

*alright, now that Tomomi is a bit more distracted, he can clean better, even if one handed, taking a wipe and a bit of water, he taps on the cuts, it really was bleeding a lot more than normal for that region, but it didnt seen to be a vein cut (would be a bit slower, and a different color) or an artery (it would have been way worse), so he probably didn't need to go to the hospital for it*

*He was happy to be given the bunny, despite his fear, and gave it a big hug, squeezing it with both arm and hiding his face in its fake fur. It hurt when Yuki started to pat the cuts, but he tried to sit still and not squirm.*

Am I gonna die?

Yuki: no, you'll be fine soon, i promise you. I don't think bandaid will do it this time... This seems to be the little too.. I'm going to wrap your leg in a bandage, to cover everything right? This part shouldn't hurt, so tell me if it does. *Starts to wrap it*

*The pressure hurt a little, but he knew it was good, so he didn’t say anything*

I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to make you take care of me

Yuki: i don't mind.. we like talking care of people, it doesn't hurt right?

You’re nice. Th-There’s another one of you that was really scary.

*He nodded*

It feels okay

Yuki: there are scarier headmates too, Own can be really scared when it wants to, but it mostly wants to protect us. *Let the pant leg fall back down, getting up again* ... You were really brave, how about I take you to get a snack somewhere?

*He sniffed, rubbing his eyes*

I think it was one of the clone people. You’ve always been nice

*He felt nervous about going with Yuki. But he was hungry. And he said he was brave!*

O-Okay. But I’m not supposed to eat a lot

Yuki: i havent met all of the clones yet, though that does makes sense...

*he has no idea why, but Yuki stills shrug*

If you're worried about money, don't. It's my mother's money, I use it to spite her, she can't hurt me for it.

Yuki: Hey, u ok?

@sysmafuyuofficial

No. I don't feel good. We did something really really bad.

Yuki: hm? Im sure it wasn't that bad..

*He shook his head again*

It’s really bad. It’s bad it’s bad. I can’t get one of them to stop bleeding I’m scared

Yuki: One of- ah, can you show me? I had a bit of training for that before... Running away.

*He nodded. He was scared. He didn’t know why he hurt himself — he didn’t want to do that. It was Tomomi and Yua and the older ones who always did stuff like that*

I-It’s in a weird spot. I’m sorry.

*He rolled up his pant leg as high as he could. The cut was on his thigh, next to a few other fresh cuts as well. It was very apparent just how thin he was without his overly-baggy pants hiding it.*

Yuki: *nods and kneels on the floor to look better, noticing the thin-ness but not mentioning it* hmm.. i think Own and Mafuyu keeps a first aid kit in our backpack

*looks through it, as fast as he can without making it look like he's panicked, he doesn't want to make it worse for Tomomi*

I will have to clean for any infection first, so this will hurt a bit, do you want something to squeeze with your hand for it?

*He was trying very hard to be brave and not to cry. Usually he could clean it up all on his own! He didn’t know why he couldn’t this time, and it was really scary. He wasn’t even scared of it hurting, he just more scared it wouldn’t stop bleeding and he would die*

Can I have something to hold please?

Yuki: *nods again, going through his backpack and taking a bunny plushy out of it*

This is my.. my bunny, you can squeeze him, he loves hugs. I'll hold your pant leg so you can use both arms.

*alright, now that Tomomi is a bit more distracted, he can clean better, even if one handed, taking a wipe and a bit of water, he taps on the cuts, it really was bleeding a lot more than normal for that region, but it didnt seen to be a vein cut (would be a bit slower, and a different color) or an artery (it would have been way worse), so he probably didn't need to go to the hospital for it*

*He was happy to be given the bunny, despite his fear, and gave it a big hug, squeezing it with both arm and hiding his face in its fake fur. It hurt when Yuki started to pat the cuts, but he tried to sit still and not squirm.*

Am I gonna die?

Yuki: no, you'll be fine soon, i promise you. I don't think bandaid will do it this time... This seems to be the little too.. I'm going to wrap your leg in a bandage, to cover everything right? This part shouldn't hurt, so tell me if it does. *Starts to wrap it*

*The pressure hurt a little, but he knew it was good, so he didn’t say anything*

I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to make you take care of me

Yuki: i don't mind.. we like talking care of people, it doesn't hurt right?

You’re nice. Th-There’s another one of you that was really scary.

*He nodded*

It feels okay

#sysmafu #yuki #tomomi #//hes doing his best to help tomomi/kitten :3

Yuki: there are scarier headmates too, Own can be really scared when it wants to, but it mostly wants to protect us. *Let the pant leg fall back down, getting up again* ... You were really brave, how about I take you to get a snack somewhere?

Yuki: Hey, u ok?

@sysmafuyuofficial

No. I don't feel good. We did something really really bad.

Yuki: hm? Im sure it wasn't that bad..

*He shook his head again*

It’s really bad. It’s bad it’s bad. I can’t get one of them to stop bleeding I’m scared

Yuki: One of- ah, can you show me? I had a bit of training for that before... Running away.

*He nodded. He was scared. He didn’t know why he hurt himself — he didn’t want to do that. It was Tomomi and Yua and the older ones who always did stuff like that*

I-It’s in a weird spot. I’m sorry.

*He rolled up his pant leg as high as he could. The cut was on his thigh, next to a few other fresh cuts as well. It was very apparent just how thin he was without his overly-baggy pants hiding it.*

Yuki: *nods and kneels on the floor to look better, noticing the thin-ness but not mentioning it* hmm.. i think Own and Mafuyu keeps a first aid kit in our backpack

*looks through it, as fast as he can without making it look like he's panicked, he doesn't want to make it worse for Tomomi*

I will have to clean for any infection first, so this will hurt a bit, do you want something to squeeze with your hand for it?

*He was trying very hard to be brave and not to cry. Usually he could clean it up all on his own! He didn’t know why he couldn’t this time, and it was really scary. He wasn’t even scared of it hurting, he just more scared it wouldn’t stop bleeding and he would die*

Can I have something to hold please?

Yuki: *nods again, going through his backpack and taking a bunny plushy out of it*

This is my.. my bunny, you can squeeze him, he loves hugs. I'll hold your pant leg so you can use both arms.

*alright, now that Tomomi is a bit more distracted, he can clean better, even if one handed, taking a wipe and a bit of water, he taps on the cuts, it really was bleeding a lot more than normal for that region, but it didnt seen to be a vein cut (would be a bit slower, and a different color) or an artery (it would have been way worse), so he probably didn't need to go to the hospital for it*

*He was happy to be given the bunny, despite his fear, and gave it a big hug, squeezing it with both arm and hiding his face in its fake fur. It hurt when Yuki started to pat the cuts, but he tried to sit still and not squirm.*

Am I gonna die?

Yuki: no, you'll be fine soon, i promise you. I don't think bandaid will do it this time... This seems to be the little too.. I'm going to wrap your leg in a bandage, to cover everything right? This part shouldn't hurt, so tell me if it does. *Starts to wrap it*

*The pressure hurt a little, but he knew it was good, so he didn’t say anything*

I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to make you take care of me

Yuki: i don't mind.. we like talking care of people, it doesn't hurt right?

#sysmafu #yuki #tomomi

Yuki: Hey, u ok?

@sysmafuyuofficial

No. I don't feel good. We did something really really bad.

Yuki: hm? Im sure it wasn't that bad..

*He shook his head again*

It’s really bad. It’s bad it’s bad. I can’t get one of them to stop bleeding I’m scared

Yuki: One of- ah, can you show me? I had a bit of training for that before... Running away.

*He nodded. He was scared. He didn’t know why he hurt himself — he didn’t want to do that. It was Tomomi and Yua and the older ones who always did stuff like that*

I-It’s in a weird spot. I’m sorry.

*He rolled up his pant leg as high as he could. The cut was on his thigh, next to a few other fresh cuts as well. It was very apparent just how thin he was without his overly-baggy pants hiding it.*

Yuki: *nods and kneels on the floor to look better, noticing the thin-ness but not mentioning it* hmm.. i think Own and Mafuyu keeps a first aid kit in our backpack

*looks through it, as fast as he can without making it look like he's panicked, he doesn't want to make it worse for Tomomi*

I will have to clean for any infection first, so this will hurt a bit, do you want something to squeeze with your hand for it?

*He was trying very hard to be brave and not to cry. Usually he could clean it up all on his own! He didn’t know why he couldn’t this time, and it was really scary. He wasn’t even scared of it hurting, he just more scared it wouldn’t stop bleeding and he would die*

Can I have something to hold please?

Yuki: *nods again, going through his backpack and taking a bunny plushy out of it*

This is my.. my bunny, you can squeeze him, he loves hugs. I'll hold your pant leg so you can use both arms.

*alright, now that Tomomi is a bit more distracted, he can clean better, even if one handed, taking a wipe and a bit of water, he taps on the cuts, it really was bleeding a lot more than normal for that region, but it didnt seen to be a vein cut (would be a bit slower, and a different color) or an artery (it would have been way worse), so he probably didn't need to go to the hospital for it*

*He was happy to be given the bunny, despite his fear, and gave it a big hug, squeezing it with both arm and hiding his face in its fake fur. It hurt when Yuki started to pat the cuts, but he tried to sit still and not squirm.*

Am I gonna die?

Yuki: no, you'll be fine soon, i promise you. I don't think bandaid will do it this time... This seems to be the little too.. I'm going to wrap your leg in a bandage, to cover everything right? This part shouldn't hurt, so tell me if it does. *Starts to wrap it*

#sysmafu #yuki #kanade-anon #ask

you're really pretty- i just wanted to say that

Yuki: ... Which one of us?

Yuki: Hey, u ok?

@sysmafuyuofficial

No. I don't feel good. We did something really really bad.

Yuki: hm? Im sure it wasn't that bad..

*He shook his head again*

It’s really bad. It’s bad it’s bad. I can’t get one of them to stop bleeding I’m scared

Yuki: One of- ah, can you show me? I had a bit of training for that before... Running away.

*He nodded. He was scared. He didn’t know why he hurt himself — he didn’t want to do that. It was Tomomi and Yua and the older ones who always did stuff like that*

I-It’s in a weird spot. I’m sorry.

*He rolled up his pant leg as high as he could. The cut was on his thigh, next to a few other fresh cuts as well. It was very apparent just how thin he was without his overly-baggy pants hiding it.*

Yuki: *nods and kneels on the floor to look better, noticing the thin-ness but not mentioning it* hmm.. i think Own and Mafuyu keeps a first aid kit in our backpack

*looks through it, as fast as he can without making it look like he's panicked, he doesn't want to make it worse for Tomomi*

I will have to clean for any infection first, so this will hurt a bit, do you want something to squeeze with your hand for it?

*He was trying very hard to be brave and not to cry. Usually he could clean it up all on his own! He didn’t know why he couldn’t this time, and it was really scary. He wasn’t even scared of it hurting, he just more scared it wouldn’t stop bleeding and he would die*

Can I have something to hold please?

Yuki: *nods again, going through his backpack and taking a bunny plushy out of it*

This is my.. my bunny, you can squeeze him, he loves hugs. I'll hold your pant leg so you can use both arms.

*alright, now that Tomomi is a bit more distracted, he can clean better, even if one handed, taking a wipe and a bit of water, he taps on the cuts, it really was bleeding a lot more than normal for that region, but it didnt seen to be a vein cut (would be a bit slower, and a different color) or an artery (it would have been way worse), so he probably didn't need to go to the hospital for it*

#sysmafu #yuki #tomomi

Yuki: Hey, u ok?

@sysmafuyuofficial

No. I don't feel good. We did something really really bad.

Yuki: hm? Im sure it wasn't that bad..

*He shook his head again*

It’s really bad. It’s bad it’s bad. I can’t get one of them to stop bleeding I’m scared

Yuki: One of- ah, can you show me? I had a bit of training for that before... Running away.

*He nodded. He was scared. He didn’t know why he hurt himself — he didn’t want to do that. It was Tomomi and Yua and the older ones who always did stuff like that*

I-It’s in a weird spot. I’m sorry.

*He rolled up his pant leg as high as he could. The cut was on his thigh, next to a few other fresh cuts as well. It was very apparent just how thin he was without his overly-baggy pants hiding it.*

#sysmafu #yuki #tomomi #//ooh is that the one who talked to yuki/mafuyu last time too?

Yuki: *nods and kneels on the floor to look better, noticing the thin-ness but not mentioning it* hmm.. i think Own and Mafuyu keeps a first aid kit in our backpack

*looks through it, as fast as he can without making it look like he's panicked, he doesn't want to make it worse for Tomomi*

I will have to clean for any infection first, so this will hurt a bit, do you want something to squeeze with your hand for it?

Yuki: Hey, u ok?

@sysmafuyuofficial

No. I don't feel good. We did something really really bad.

Yuki: hm? Im sure it wasn't that bad..

*He shook his head again*

It’s really bad. It’s bad it’s bad. I can’t get one of them to stop bleeding I’m scared

#sysmafu #tomomi #yuki #//i nearly tagged this as kitty ena im rping in 3 blogs all at once and it shows cjsncjsj

Yuki: One of- ah, can you show me? I had a bit of training for that before... Running away.

Yuki: Hey, u ok?

@sysmafuyuofficial

No. I don't feel good. We did something really really bad.

Yuki: hm? Im sure it wasn't that bad..

#sysmafu #yuki #//I LEGIT ONLY SAW THIS TODAY #//I AM SO SORRY

hello :D

Yuki: hi

2-kamikou-1

I'll reblog this to all of them but just so everyone knows after. All That. all my rp blogs are safe for systems of all origin

*He is standing in your inbox like 🥺*

Uhm. Hi! Are you another Asahina-senpai?

Mafuyu: hm, i suppose so

Cool! Uhm. How are you? Do you share with your siblings too? I see there’s other people on the blog

Mafuyu: ah.. no, not exactly siblings... See, have you ever heard of DID or OSDD? They are two disorders that can cause the same thing: a system, they're people I share the brain with.

So, to put it on older and inadequate terms, they're my "other personalities". Easier for people from outside to understand, but instead imagine that my brain is a house that I'm sharing with different people- roommates - so we personally use the term headmates, to fit into this image.

Uhm…

Isn’t that just normal?? Maybe she has something extra different going on?

I see! That’s really cool! Tell them I say hi :-)

Mafuyu: i will, but do you want to talk to them too?

Can I?! That would be awesome!

Mafuyu: mhm, I will call in Yuki, he's the "host", it means he's nearly always fronting

Yuki: hello, tomomi, right?

Oh, okay! Uhm. So... you're usually not fronting?

!! Yeah, that's me! Hi, Yuki-san! It's nice to meet you :-)

Mafuyu: I'm a co-host, I'm nearly always close, but not necessarily fronting

Yuki: mhm, I usually just make Mafuyu introduce us, I get lazy to explain it all. Nice to meet you too.

Oh wow! Cool 👍

That's like me. Tomomi she's like me! Shhh I'm trying to talk to people!

Ohh, I get lazy too. Uhm. Are you the one I know at school? Or do you not do school stuff?

Yuki: depends on the day, usually Mafuyu, she masks for us.. you get lazy too?

Oh that makes sense 'cause that's the name we know from school

*He nodded a few times. He felt a little fuzzy. He couldn't quite tell where the borders of his body were -- like he was blending right into the air. He didn't like it. His body was too big.*

Yeah! I'm lazy 'bout lotsa stuff.

Yuki: hm... You don't look well, why don't you sit down?

No I'm okay! Sorry.

*He blinked hard, flexing his hands. He tried to remind himself that right now he was Tomomi, and he was 15 years old, and he liked things like cooking and bracelets and... being silly. Yeah!*

I just get fuzzy-swirly sometimes. Do you get fuzzy-swirly?

Yuki: ... Sometimes, like, dissociating? When your body doesn't seem yours, or reality doesn't feel real?

Mmhm! I feel the-- the second one all the time. And the first one sometimes like now

*He decided that actually he probably should sit down, so he took a seat cross-legged on the floor*

Can you sit with me?

*Yuki blinks, thinking*

Yuki: sure. But im bad at talking

*sits next to tomomi*

Thinking: i should not say that its not normal now...

I think you've been really good at talking. But if you don't wanna talk with words we know sign language and also I can draw really good look!

*He pulled a pen out of his pocket and started drawing right onto the floor. He drew one figure with a ponytail and a neutral expression, and another, smaller figure with messy hair and a big smile. He made sure they were holding hands*

It's us! See?

Yuki: *smiles* yeah, i guess it is us. I also know sign language, but I'm not semi verbal now, I'm just bad at conversations.

*He added some puppies and kittens and bunnies on the ground around the two figures. He was just doodling now. It was easier than having to look at Yuki when they talked*

I'm not very good at conversations it's okay. I'm not the one who uses sign language a whole lot 'cause I'm good at talking. We didn't talk for a whole...

*He paused to count on his fingers. One two three four. Four!*

a whole FOUR years! Which is a really long time

Yuki: *watches him doodle* hmm, that is a long time. Your drawings are cute, how old are you?

*He scrunched up his nose. He couldn't quite remember. Was he 8 or 9?*

I'm n--

NO! No no! You're Tomomi! You're 15!

Uhm. I mean. I'm 15

God, you're so fucking stupid. How hard is it to remember that?

Yuki: ... You know, me and Mafuyu aren't the only ones in our system, we have two others. Own protects us from some people, and Fuyu... She is little, her age changes a bit, but she can be from 6 to 9. She likes painting, and ice cream.

*looking at Tomomi from the side of his eye*

Woahh, Own is a cool name

*He gasped when he heard about Fuyu. HE WAS THE SAME AGE NO WAY THAT WAS SO COOL COULD THEY BE FRIENDS MAYBE--*

She's like me!

OH MY GOD YOU CAN'T FUCKING SAY THAT! That's it you're not fucking allowed out. No no no wait please I'm sorry I'm really sorry!

*He felt dizzy again, much worse than before. He groaned, putting his head in his hands*

Sorry... I don't.... feel good

Yuki: its alright, that is all a bit confusing anyways. Fuyu does seem to be like you. Can i touch your back?

*He hummed and nodded, but it was clear no one was fully there. It was more of an autopilot response, an attempt to make it seem like nothing was wrong*

Yuki: *slowly starts running his hands on his back, maybe a physical touch will bring him back*

*It's super effective! It shuddered, blinking a few times. What happened?*

Uhm. Sorry, I must've gotten sick

AHHH WHAT'S GOING ON?

Yuki: hmm.. do you remember me?

You're... Yuki, right?

*They call him Tomomi, 12 15 years old, silly guy extraordinaire!*

Yuki: yes... Hmm, this could be worse. How are you feeling?

Uhm. Headache. And body hurts. But that’s normal

Yuki: the normal amount of pain for a body to be feeling is 0

...What?! That can't be true

Yuki: pain is the way your body tells you that something is wrong, if you feel it all the time, then something is really wrong. We studied this.

O-Oh. Uhm. I don’t know what to do about that. Do you feel pain all the time?

Yuki: *shakes head* but I remember our Kanade did, she felt pain in her articulations nearly all the time and had ehlers danlos syndrome. Ena had migraines often too.

I'm glad you're not in pain! But I'm sorry your friends were. That must've been scary

Yuki: how exactly are you in pain? I assume the headache is... Something else, but what about the body pain?

Uhm. Everything aches and burns, kinda? Moving hurts. Like my body's super super tired. And, uhm. My stomach hurts, I guess, but it's fine! And... my lungs, too.

Yuki: hmmm... I don't exactly know why, but i know that isn't normal. You could look into it, i might be able to help

*He is standing in your inbox like 🥺*

Uhm. Hi! Are you another Asahina-senpai?

Mafuyu: hm, i suppose so

Cool! Uhm. How are you? Do you share with your siblings too? I see there’s other people on the blog

Mafuyu: ah.. no, not exactly siblings... See, have you ever heard of DID or OSDD? They are two disorders that can cause the same thing: a system, they're people I share the brain with.

So, to put it on older and inadequate terms, they're my "other personalities". Easier for people from outside to understand, but instead imagine that my brain is a house that I'm sharing with different people- roommates - so we personally use the term headmates, to fit into this image.

Uhm…

Isn’t that just normal?? Maybe she has something extra different going on?

I see! That’s really cool! Tell them I say hi :-)

Mafuyu: i will, but do you want to talk to them too?

Can I?! That would be awesome!

Mafuyu: mhm, I will call in Yuki, he's the "host", it means he's nearly always fronting

Yuki: hello, tomomi, right?

Oh, okay! Uhm. So... you're usually not fronting?

!! Yeah, that's me! Hi, Yuki-san! It's nice to meet you :-)

Mafuyu: I'm a co-host, I'm nearly always close, but not necessarily fronting

Yuki: mhm, I usually just make Mafuyu introduce us, I get lazy to explain it all. Nice to meet you too.

Oh wow! Cool 👍

That's like me. Tomomi she's like me! Shhh I'm trying to talk to people!

Ohh, I get lazy too. Uhm. Are you the one I know at school? Or do you not do school stuff?

Yuki: depends on the day, usually Mafuyu, she masks for us.. you get lazy too?

Oh that makes sense 'cause that's the name we know from school

*He nodded a few times. He felt a little fuzzy. He couldn't quite tell where the borders of his body were -- like he was blending right into the air. He didn't like it. His body was too big.*

Yeah! I'm lazy 'bout lotsa stuff.

Yuki: hm... You don't look well, why don't you sit down?

No I'm okay! Sorry.

*He blinked hard, flexing his hands. He tried to remind himself that right now he was Tomomi, and he was 15 years old, and he liked things like cooking and bracelets and... being silly. Yeah!*

I just get fuzzy-swirly sometimes. Do you get fuzzy-swirly?

Yuki: ... Sometimes, like, dissociating? When your body doesn't seem yours, or reality doesn't feel real?

Mmhm! I feel the-- the second one all the time. And the first one sometimes like now

*He decided that actually he probably should sit down, so he took a seat cross-legged on the floor*

Can you sit with me?

*Yuki blinks, thinking*

Yuki: sure. But im bad at talking

*sits next to tomomi*

Thinking: i should not say that its not normal now...

I think you've been really good at talking. But if you don't wanna talk with words we know sign language and also I can draw really good look!

*He pulled a pen out of his pocket and started drawing right onto the floor. He drew one figure with a ponytail and a neutral expression, and another, smaller figure with messy hair and a big smile. He made sure they were holding hands*

It's us! See?

Yuki: *smiles* yeah, i guess it is us. I also know sign language, but I'm not semi verbal now, I'm just bad at conversations.

*He added some puppies and kittens and bunnies on the ground around the two figures. He was just doodling now. It was easier than having to look at Yuki when they talked*

I'm not very good at conversations it's okay. I'm not the one who uses sign language a whole lot 'cause I'm good at talking. We didn't talk for a whole...

*He paused to count on his fingers. One two three four. Four!*

a whole FOUR years! Which is a really long time

Yuki: *watches him doodle* hmm, that is a long time. Your drawings are cute, how old are you?

*He scrunched up his nose. He couldn't quite remember. Was he 8 or 9?*

I'm n--

NO! No no! You're Tomomi! You're 15!

Uhm. I mean. I'm 15

God, you're so fucking stupid. How hard is it to remember that?

Yuki: ... You know, me and Mafuyu aren't the only ones in our system, we have two others. Own protects us from some people, and Fuyu... She is little, her age changes a bit, but she can be from 6 to 9. She likes painting, and ice cream.

*looking at Tomomi from the side of his eye*

Woahh, Own is a cool name

*He gasped when he heard about Fuyu. HE WAS THE SAME AGE NO WAY THAT WAS SO COOL COULD THEY BE FRIENDS MAYBE--*

She's like me!

OH MY GOD YOU CAN'T FUCKING SAY THAT! That's it you're not fucking allowed out. No no no wait please I'm sorry I'm really sorry!

*He felt dizzy again, much worse than before. He groaned, putting his head in his hands*

Sorry... I don't.... feel good

Yuki: its alright, that is all a bit confusing anyways. Fuyu does seem to be like you. Can i touch your back?

*He hummed and nodded, but it was clear no one was fully there. It was more of an autopilot response, an attempt to make it seem like nothing was wrong*

Yuki: *slowly starts running his hands on his back, maybe a physical touch will bring him back*

*It's super effective! It shuddered, blinking a few times. What happened?*

Uhm. Sorry, I must've gotten sick

AHHH WHAT'S GOING ON?

Yuki: hmm.. do you remember me?

You're... Yuki, right?

*They call him Tomomi, 12 15 years old, silly guy extraordinaire!*

Yuki: yes... Hmm, this could be worse. How are you feeling?

Uhm. Headache. And body hurts. But that’s normal

Yuki: the normal amount of pain for a body to be feeling is 0

...What?! That can't be true

Yuki: pain is the way your body tells you that something is wrong, if you feel it all the time, then something is really wrong. We studied this.

O-Oh. Uhm. I don’t know what to do about that. Do you feel pain all the time?

Yuki: *shakes head* but I remember our Kanade did, she felt pain in her articulations nearly all the time and had ehlers danlos syndrome. Ena had migraines often too.

I'm glad you're not in pain! But I'm sorry your friends were. That must've been scary

Yuki: how exactly are you in pain? I assume the headache is... Something else, but what about the body pain?