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11. Noel - The Mind Split: Grooming, SA, and Its Impact
Below is a comic that I drew. I don’t have all of the “pieces” or memories that are split across all members of our system, nor do I want to. Our body is 22. Its deep-rooted sense of fear and “fight or flight” mentality remembers more than I do. We all feel the impact – in tiny ways; in the way we interact with our external world. In huge ways, when our mind tears us from the present and shoves…
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Working on understanding the children in our system. ❤️ I had pushed them away for so long because I was afraid to know the memories they hold.
-Lani
10 - Noel - The Challenges of Communicating Therapy as a DID System
2 minutes I stumbled on this goofy clip of Actor Matthew Gray Gubler saying: “And he told me something I will never forget… he said… shit, I forgot what he said. But basically, what he was getting at was –” That silly clip spawned the below “therapy” comic, because sometimes we all just have to laugh at the conundrum that DID has put us in. All of us carry different memories for different…
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9 - Noel - Illustrated Depiction of Our Emotions Regarding our Childhood Trauma
TW: Implications of emotional abuse It took us a while to figure out why I was always in the mindset to leap onto the next plane on a moment’s notice, while the rest of our system is too anxious to order a coffee if there are too many people in line, and will freak out if a cupboard is closed too hard. I am our “survival mode” guy. It’s genuinely like the “fear” part of my brain turns off, or…
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8. Noel - DID & Differing Childhood Memories Across Alters in Our System [Comic]
Hi all! Below are a few drawings about how everyone in our system family remembers our childhood a little bit differently. I considered trying to write about it, but art has always been more of my forte when attempting to communicate things about feelings or things that have happened in our lives. I do want to say that the different memories between us DOES make it more difficult for us to open…
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DID - On Self-Doubt
A shorter excerpt today, from our blog post titled, "Lani - A Life as 'Multiple' and Introducing Us" (full version on our website, lanisystem.com). It took a rocky and overwhelming few years to figure out that we had DID, and to understand that we were a system. It's something we still struggle with today. But it was also a rewarding experience, once I knew how to manage being a system.
Systems Q&A: What was it like when you DIDN'T yet know that you were a system or had DID?
7. Jules - Managing Our DID System: Our Strategies for Organization
I am far less creative than Lani and Noel. I tend to fall more on the ‘analytical’ side, as I tend to consume more information than I put out into the world — So writing extensively about feelings, like Lani and Noel have in previous blog posts, is a bit of a stretch for me. That said, I still really wanted to contribute to this blog in hopes of helping others. About Me: I am the eldest in our…
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Actually, I need people to understand that we have amnesia. Not the full mind wipe amnesia that people often think of when they hear the word. We are going to forget things easily and often. No, I won't always be able to tell when or if something happened. No, I won't always remember what I've already done or what I'm supposed to do. No, I won't always remember that one memory from 5 years ago. WE HAVE FUCKING AMNESIA
I wish people in my life would understand this ❤️
Shout out to systems who cant get diagnosed. Shout out to systems who split easily. Shout out to systems with high introject counts. Shout out to complex systems. Shout out to systems with mostly littles. Shout out to systems with small alter counts. Shout out to systems who dont want to get diagnosed cause they dont want it on their record. Shout out to systems with nonhuman alters. Shout out to systems
DID - On Dissociation & Being "Multiple"
An excerpt from our blog post, titled "Lani - A Life as 'Multiple' and Introducing Us". The full post is available on our website, at lanisystem.com. Our system struggles quite a lot with dissociation, as many systems do. It was particularly hard when we didn't KNOW we were a system, and didn't have the words to explain how we felt. Everything felt indescribable.
Systems Q&A: How/when did you realize that you were a system?
DID - On Amnesia & Pieces of Memories
Another excerpt from our blog post, "Noel - Memory Loss, Switching and Existing Out of Time". The complete post is available on our website, lanisystem.com. Memory loss poses a significant challenge for us during therapy sessions. Communicating with our therapist, Mel, is tricky, depending on who is fronting. :/
Systems Q&A: If you are currently in therapy, how do you best communicate with your therapist?
6. Lani - “Crescent” | A Poem About Trauma Triggers and Their Impact on DID Switching
I sit, carefully poised at the front of my mind, like a waning star trying to hold onto its last flicker of light. The Man is there too, across the room, laughing at something someone else is saying. I don’t know him. But I know his clinking glass, swirling with red. A chair screeches back as the Man gets up, leaning down to say something to his friend, fingers lingering on his shoulder.…
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DID - On Losing Our Sense of Time
This is a snippet from our entry, "Noel - Memory Loss Switching and Existing out of Time" (full blog post on lanisystem.com). Noel and are are opposite ends of pendulum, with very different wants, needs, and desires. It's sometimes (most of the time) a struggle to communicate.
Systems Q&A - How do you communicate with members of your system?
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Noel and I (Lani) CONSTANTLY 😭 it can get exhausting
DID - An Alter's Struggle to be Out
Check out a snippet from our blog post: "Noel - Memory Loss, Switching, and the Existing out of Time". Noel and Lani (host) often grapple with memory loss amnesia, and losing a sense of time, particularly during periods of high stress. For the full post, head to our website: lanisystem.com
5. Lani - Depicting DID Through Visual Metaphors: Inspired by Scenes from "The Boy and The Heron"
Warning: Spoilers ahead for Studio Ghibli’s “The Boy and The Heron”. I watched the most recent Studio Ghibli movie, The Boy and The Heron, for the second time – a poignant film about a young boy navigating grief. That said, I had the idea to narrate my journey of discovering that I had Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) using visual metaphors and scenes from the movie as a reference…
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