Pinned Post
DNI: under 18s (body age), TERFs, transmeds, and anyone using âsysmedâ to describe DID/OSDD systems unironically.
I use the block button liberally, as Iâd like to carefully curate who I interact with on this blog for my own mental health.
General Info
DID/OSDD system with no collective name. Some alters are fairly differentiated from the host, some are more like fragments.
The body and host (đ”) are 25+, nonbinary, and use they/them pronouns as a catchall. I think of myself less as a collection of multiple people and more as one severely traumatised person who had to split off in many directions.
I don't really vibe with most online system culture and have a deep dislike for some of the ways in which DID/OSDD is being treated as analogous to being trans/nonbinary, or treated as a fun unique disorder where you just have lots of friends in your head or whatever else.Â
I often find that my experience resonates more with people who have OSDD than DID, or who are questioning their experiences, despite having the amnesia required for DID. People with OSDD are more than welcome here. I know how alienating wider DID spaces can be.
Stance on Syscourse
Not syscourse-free, though I stick to reblogging posts that are focused on correcting misinformation rather than calling out or harassing people. I do not believe that endogenic plurals are systems, or that they should be using the medical terminology of people with DID. Generally speaking I think most endogenics are more likely to be people with OSDD/DID who have been deeply misinformed or mistaken about the nature of what they're experiencing.
I recognise that many people who identify as endogenic systems will find that invalidating; if you're endogenic and reading this, I encourage you to read up on DID/OSDD and ask yourself if you experience the symptoms of it - not just plurality, which isn't exclusive to DID/OSDD in of itself, but dissociation and amnesia too. I also encourage you to keep in mind that while DID/OSDD is caused by early childhood trauma, that does NOT mean that you have to remember having alters as a child. This disorder is covert; it hides itself by design, especially when you're younger and less able to reflect on your own behaviour and experiences.
I've seen many endogenics claim that while they have childhood trauma, that's not what formed their systems - but that's not how it works. Your system may not form in childhood in a way you can now recognise, but the inability to integrate your personality into one cohesive whole did form in childhood. That's what makes systems possible.
Again: plurality itself isn't unique to DID/OSDD, but systems of alters are.
I generally try to avoid interacting with endogenic and other non-traumagenic plurals where possible on this blog, but respectful discussion between endogenics and DID/OSDD systems is something I think is important. I wouldn't refer to myself as "anti-endo" so much as like... I would rather that this was a space where I only interacted with other systems rather than plurals as a whole.
While I'm open to respectful chatting with endogenics here (and I'm always chill with them outside of Tumblr/Twitter tbh), anyone who uses the word 'sysmed' gets blocked immediately. It's horrific, as a trans person, to see people comparing us to transmedicalists. There are a lot of resources out there on why that isn't even a remotely accurate assessment and I encourage anyone using that word to look into that. Traumagenics are not oppressing anyone when they point out that their trauma disorder comes with more than just a feeling of being multiple people, that it requires early childhood trauma in order to exist, or that systems deserve their own spaces that donât overlap with non-traumagenic plurals.
All of this said, people who actively harass endogenic blogs who are minding their own business and staying in their own spaces are not welcomed here. I think minding our own business is generally just a good way to behave online, honestly.
