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[syukirinnie]

Weekly Journal 3: Finishing assignments... WHILE BEING SICK

This week, I have been very extremely SICK and I'm SICK of it. Hehe get it? Anyways, I keep on sneezing, coughing and even my body temperature sometimes keeps rising. I don't even know why it has to happen at the end of the semester. It's annoying and I'm tired of it, LITERALLY. I also have a huge pile of assignments to do. Doing assignments is already bad enough. But doing assignments while being sick? Hell, I'd rather die at this rate. Let me die in peace, lord. Heh. Nah, joking. I'm aiming to get good results, so I can't let my sickness get the best of me or stop me from gaining knowledge and finishing something that I must do. Imagine just typing one sentence and you start to sneeze uncontrollably until your body is unable to move. Ah. I hate it. I can't even do anything without whining and sneezing. If it was a dry sneeze, I wouldn't mind that much. But usually it's wet sneezes. If you know, you know. I don't like living like this and I hate how people keep staring at me whenever I wear my mask or something. It might just be my imagination, but what can I do. Being sick makes my focus worse. Focusing on my task is already hard enough as an ADHD person, now being sick AND having ADHD to do work? Another whole level of suffering and challenge. But I can keep doing my assignment by knowing that there's an amazing reward in the end. What great motivation for me. Hehe.

I'll be fine as usual, even though I'm painfully getting through it. Wish me luck and let's hope I won't do anything stupid in the meantime.

[syukirinnie]

Weekly Journal 2: Where should I even stay???

For this week, I've been thinking to myself where I could've lived for the next semester. I've been searching for options and possibilities where I could've stayed at. At first, my plan was to follow this certain classmate of mine where she would stay at. We've been looking into a lot of offers in the past, but in the end she found a place to stay at, while I'm here questioning myself what I should do next. In the end I decide to stay at the hostel that I am currently at for the next semester. Sigh, I hate going to the college that is far from my house. My college is in another state from my home. I envy people who got to live close to this college. They could easily go home whenever they want. It's annoying, honestly. But I'm fine with it. I guess. As my mother said, it's only for a while. I'll be home soon. The period of this diploma is only 2 years and 4 months after all. For me, it's long. I wonder if anyone could relate to me about this. From this experience honestly, I learn I shouldn't depend on people or follow them. I have to choose for my own life and do what I want. As long as it didn't break any rules or anything like that of course. For the third semester, I don't know where I should be living. For now, I'll just stay at this hostel for a while. Even though I dislike it. I'll just have to face this challenge for a while. I'll be fine.

[syukirinnie]

Weekly Journal 1: The stressful week of this month

Starting from 30th September until yesterday, it was a very stressful week for me. In my college, there's a request for an education loan. It is called MARA. I have to fill in A LOT of documents! The request for the loan, a confirmation of not being broke and we even need a witness to write her or his autograph! It was a bit troublesome and complicated, but my motivation to actually get the money pushed me forward to keep doing it and never give up. Even my parents have to cross state to meet up with me to exactly complete THE WHOLE ENTIRE documents. It was so thick that I was having trouble carrying it around and sorting the paper following the order that the agency requested. Which again is VERY troublesome. But I guess it's reasonable, we're requesting money from them after all and we all know that money isn't easy to attain freely. But doing this in a short period just isn't fair. Our seniors in the past can have a long deadline while we have a shorter deadline. Like me and my friends keep saying "MARA membuat orang marah", it basically means MARA makes people become angry. Well, since I've already submitted it even though there's this one part I wrote wrong, I hope it still accepts my request heh. I'm free finally. I feel at ease, until reality hits me with a lot of assignments, group projects and final exam. AH. Studying I must do, communicating I must do. It's alright. Just a couple more days, weeks, months, years. I'll be truly free. Hopefully.