scalding hot pot of nothing

it's not that easy, but it is that simple

[t4nku]

I benched 80lbs today and didn't get that dizzy lightheaded feeling during sleds so that is good. Still fatigued during the day but at least I seem to have overcome the almost passing out part...

[t4nku]

I don't really know what to do about the melanoma on my head because it keeps growing and I can't get a single doctor to take it seriously and do a biopsy lol

[t4nku]

Unfortunately people think you're a psychopath if you say "oh I don't really care about music like that" so I will have to continue lying about my favorite band for the rest of my life. This has genuinely been a struggle for me because everyone loves to have music as a small talk subject and I just can't relate in the slightest but lying is exhausting

[t4nku]

Ohh it's called musical anhedonia. That's interesting. I didn't realize that people have like literal physical reactions to music. That sounds weird. No offense. I still like to dance and listen to rhythms and melodies though

[t4nku]

My favorite musicians are wind and birds

[t4nku]

I'm the opposite of excited lil hands girl

[t4nku]

This is the most accurate description I've ever seen of how I feel about music and it makes me feel like less of an insane person. I don't hate music but it's kind of just "there" for me. I mostly use it as a vehicle for singing which is not so much about the singing part as it is the physical sensation of making noises with my throat and feeling the vibrations. As such I only really care about how it sounds. Lyrics are mostly meaningless to me (unless they're funny/clever) which is why I hate "spoken" type music (sorry Leonard Cohen) because there aren't enough interesting sounds for me to imitate. Every song ever written could be sung in Simlish and it probably would have the same impact on me

[armengoldira]

[thevaultoftheatomicspaceage]

[midnightvrose]

[tooiconic]

both of them are me

[t4nku]

Nothing is truly just a joke btw

[t4nku]

Some of you have way too much tolerance for “ironic” racists on here

[gifmovie]

[t4nku]

Yesterday I was browsing the air raid siren autism side of the internet and I was like you know what you guys are making some points rn

[t4nku]

I haven’t listened to music in like three weeks

[blondebrainpowered]

Cat paw prints in the medieval floor tiles of the 12th century CE St Peter Church in Wormleighton, England

[t4nku]

Last night I had a second dream about two lady scientists who were stationed to do research on a remote alien planet. One of them discovered that one of the two return pods was busted but she decided to not tell her teammate until they completed their research because she was worried her teammate would freak out and steal the pod first. But also the second scientist was infected with a mystery alien fungus so she was also hiding something. And also they had sexual tension but hated working with each other. Idk it was really narratively complex and EXTREMELY LONG and when I woke up I was like wtf that was a long ass dream. It ended with one of them sabotaging the good escape pod so that they were both stuck on the alien planet together because that was the only fair option and they slowly became hivemind mushrooms together. Uzumaki style.