simulacrrum

[taeiris]

i have a chemistry exam and important trip in three days am i doing something to prepare to it noooo I play gaynshin impact sundy stairway friday night funkin watch winx club read fanfiction and all of this is happening to a niche 70-80s playlist

[taeiris]

I PASSED!!!!!!!!!!

all four exams are gone I am freee yeeeeahaaahahha!! five hours before i need to go to the train station lets fucking goOOOOOOO

[taeiris]

I just wrote some smart shit in a fit of depression like "self-aware but going down to self-destruction knowing it" about narcissists (me)

[taeiris]

i have a chemistry exam and important trip in three days am i doing something to prepare to it noooo I play gaynshin impact sundy stairway friday night funkin watch winx club read fanfiction and all of this is happening to a niche 70-80s playlist

[taeiris]

can't help but I will always be the middle morally gray neither bad nor good person

I will care but I will leave I will be honest and whoopsies it wasn't me you never knew me I will talk to you everyday smile to you and you'll never know how much I don't want to be there I will laugh but I don't know how sincere it is and I will heal everyone and I will be the last broken I will say how much you matter to the world but I will jump off the bridge

I am me and I am no one

I hate to be there and I hate that no one sees me for who I am no one is protected from my influence

I will try to be the one and only in your life just to feel better to feel that someone anyone loves me cares for me and wants me to be and then you'll release how rotted my soul is

[taeiris]

ohhhhh nevermind

this old lady just said that my name is as beautiful as I am jdjdjdjkskslslaoakam((((((((( she's so sweeeet(((((((((

[taeiris]

can't help but I will always be the middle morally gray neither bad nor good person

I will care but I will leave I will be honest and whoopsies it wasn't me you never knew me I will talk to you everyday smile to you and you'll never know how much I don't want to be there I will laugh but I don't know how sincere it is and I will heal everyone and I will be the last broken I will say how much you matter to the world but I will jump off the bridge

I am me and I am no one

I hate to be there and I hate that no one sees me for who I am no one is protected from my influence

I will try to be the one and only in your life just to feel better to feel that someone anyone loves me cares for me and wants me to be and then you'll release how rotted my soul is

[taeiris]

yES!!!!!!! say your phrase!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"your worst sin is that you have destroyed and betrayed yourself for nothing", - we shout out in unison

[taeiris]

I quit

really I don't want to be in any social media or society itself anymore I just want to go to mountains or unexplored siberia areas for a month to recover ooorr I can kms💞💞

[taeiris]

about the end of good omens (spoilers ofc)

holy hell.

when I first watched it I was like "oh damn what the hell this is good but bad but better than could be but also the worst and also the best." from a purely moral and ethical standpoint, this is the best ending that could have been. people were given the freedom to choose, the freedom from higher powers and predetermined destinies and from the constant fear that their lives might be cut short by someone outside of their control. no demons, no angels, no satan, no god. the world is what it should be, what it is now for us. the world is real, true and right. that was the world what crowley wanted for every human, for all humanity.

abandoning the principles of morality and ethics, i'm...... lost, depressed, disappointed, on verge of tears, coping with s3 for the whole week having final exams in thirteen days, feral, apathetic, hollow and feel bad for everything aziraphale and crowley had lost. they have been them for the ridiculously long time -- is six thousand years a joke? they were a team, a group of the two of them, and spend their existence pretending that they aren't. and couldn't they get an ending they deserve? after all these years, after the confession that finally came, they met again. and everything could have been different and stay the same. they would spend time at the bookstore, "dining at the ritz we'll meet at nine precisely", doing their jobs terribly poorly (if they both hadn't already been fired), and doing miracles in small ways. they would continue to handle everything together: "but rescuing me makes him so happy." a well-deserved peace after everything, occasionally interrupted by an ineffable plan. they could ask for everything to be restored to its original state, but they would also need to secure the book of life to prevent anything like this from happening again. and - vavoom - something around happily ever after.

but what is this?

it's the death. they willingly-not-so, consciously decided to leave the past world destroyed and erased. yes, they didn't kill all this people, didn't erase the stars and universe themselves, but they had a chance to get it back. crowley was the one who voiced this idea: if people are not something important to god, they should be freed from this system. allow the creation of god to live in the new world, where god is non-existent. it is right, it breaks my heart.

crowley sacrificed everything he had. the memory of how he created universes, placed constellations in the sky, how he saw the beginning of the world, and how he lived this life. it wasn't the happiest, but it was dear to him.

crowley sacrificed the life of the person he loved the most.

[taeiris]

girls guys folks I will post about s3 it's very important to me but soon honk mimimimi honk mimimimi ah yes s3 go zzz zzzzzzz yeah I will honk mi mi mi

[taeiris]

enough reuploading for today gotta sleep at least three hours aha got too many serious adult things tomorrow eww

[taeiris]

oh! and!!! is it just me or nina calling maggie ''angel'' before their out-of-closet-crowley-please conversation is peak cinema and peak sarcastic comedy and a wonderful analogy on aziraphale and crowley??

[taeiris]

hi everyone this is my vlog where i narrate about how i was almost arrested on my way home from the cinema!!

look a group of three girls walking home at friday's night in silent hill's fog and everything about you think is "oh damn i wish i wasn't killed tonight" it's really dark and one of us is scaring the rest of us on the go and when you kiss your homies goodnight you hear a fucking police siren and one man get arrested right in front of your face and you are fucking running in the shadows 'cause you don't want to spend night at police station or to get reprimand and fine and then one of the cars passes in front of you and oh god i'm the unluckiest in the world but they didn't see me or pay attention but it was sooo close and then there were few other and some drunk men and group of teen boys with a staggering gait BUT i survived!!!!!

i'm grounded btw

[taeiris]

i rewatched good omens and why the military airbase guard guy is reading neil gaiman's book

...but listen what if it's the analogy like the four horsemen of the apocalypse as a group of cool leather fellas on motorcycles and the manifestations of the new gods in the book: the Internet, mass media, modern transportation and so on as people

[taeiris]

beast!chuuya

--the most (in)sane guy ever

--appeared once and almost became more popular than the real main characters

--probably siucdial

--he is the breakcore breakcore is him

--we are not A-5158 here we are 633397

--afterlife where he finds his peace

--next pm's boss

--he lives only after dazai's death and in flashbacks there is no otherwise in 80 percents of content (beast!chuuya is not beast!chuuya without dead dazai)

--what on the sheep stormbringer flags dr n going on here if this is an alternate universe

--peak

--the insaniest

--the smartest because there is no way to survive here without the mindset similar to trio's (dost-kun, dazai, edogawa) + theory about how when using tainted sorrow he calculates every movement in his head considering the laws of physics + theory about how good is he at lying

--the best

[taeiris]

we're all insanely mischievously painting the dramatic scene where aziraphale is back to the bookshop and crowley is in the worst condition imaginable like drunk&depressed&watches soap operas/reads jane austen&cries but what if he just went to sleep for the next fucking thousand years and now everyone thinks he's dead (by everyone I mean nina, maggie, bentley, his plants, heaven and hell) and no one wants to talk about him with aziraphale (if anyone even talks to aziraphale now 'cause yes he's the supreme archangel but none of angels feel any respect to him plus probably he doesn't drive to earth every week now but who knows) aaand when he finally tries to find crowley --

[taeiris]

I wanted to say it's always "I forgive you" but rare "I need you" because like this is so sincere and genuine and it went from heart as an answer to kiss and I feel like we as society a little bit not noticing or not giving enough importance to it idkk

[taeiris]

I absolutely totally perfectly completely entirely fully understand why aziraphale wanted crowley to go to heaven w him 'cause he remembers this version of him

aaand have you seen these beautiful eyes adorable smile pretty curls and they're sooo ethereal💔💔

aziraphale really wish he could see it ever again.